i need a new car.


not as in, i want one, or im thinking my car sucks.


i need a new one. one that doesn't break down everyday. one that doesn't leave me stranded in random places in this sprawled out city.


this sucks so much, i feel the tears coming on. it almost makes me want to come back to blo for school and work, and live cheaper, and fuck the car thing all together.

i came here so i could save, and i feel like all i do is spend money, with nothing to show for. i mean, come on, i even cut off my clothes shopping and everything.

i think wine and dinner, and then a movie are in order.


also, i have so much school stuff to do, im pretty sure tonight i my last night of sleep for over a week.

so, im waiting for the good thing that is always supposed to make up for all of the really shitty stuff.

p.s. the cheapo actually seems pretty nice, and did offer to buy me dinner last night.... but, alas, i am in interested in the unattainable man(not the cheapo, just my dream-man), so i will just chill. but why are there so many men all over all the time now? its strange.

pps. still not going to let this all get me down, by the end of jan, i will be decided on when and where i will be spending my 6-8 months in europe. hooray!

and, lastly, i made this for the little lovey i work with, do you think people would buy these thing for like $35-50. i could find some childrens store or something to pitch it...

so, i had this date the other night, with possibly the cheapest guy ever.

he is kinda cute, but really annoying, and selfish seeming. however, he's giving me all these programs i need, that are really expensive, so i am seeing him again tonight.

umm, on the fist date, he didn't even offer to pay for my food or drinks. i mean, come on.

so, i am not a gold-digger at all, but i feel like the guy should at least offer to pay the first few times. but, he's giving me like $1000 worth of programs, so we can hang out at least this one time.

then, we shall see, if he is annoying still or not, and if the cheapness goes away. but i really think, dating a cheap guy is not a good idea.

friends maybe, maybe.

my mind is flooded with so many things, that i feel like i need a newer/bigger hard drive, and more RAM.

i officially hate my job at the hospital, and quitting it would mean more time for other ventures, and i could pick up more hours at the other job i actually like. and perhaps pursue some other job, i actually like.

glad all of you, think getting gross voicemails is so hot, give me your numbers, and ill forward them next time...

i was reading this editorial about how Halloween-new years has been mashed up into one huge never-ending holiday, that is taking us over. i agree, and wish to put it to an end. if that means no presents, i am okhwith that. because, lets face it, what i actually want, i can't have, and the rest is crap probably made in china.

(e:hodown) agrees.

on thanksgiving, my macbook took a 6' plus tumble, and is totally ok. apple will take over the world; i want to live there. and work for apple of course...

somebody called me today from a restrcited number and left a voicemail of a woman having an orgasm.

i get restricted calls a lot, and random text messages. who ever is doing this is gross.

it looks like i do have a gross stalker lurking.

there are other worth while things i could post right now, but i am angered by this.

f off gross stalker person.

i feel like i need some mace.

last night i baked an apple pie. i made the crust from scratch, because us hos don't like to do things half assed. actually i do like doing things half assed, but not when it comes to cooking.

here are the results:

the ingredients and supplies, let's get started!


steve, my helper, and my momma's beau, helped. thanx steve!


hooray!


put in the oven, and mark it with a "G" for grammy and me!


all cooked, and wrapped and ready for thursday!


there are no photos of the rolling, and prep of the dough, but i assure you, i made it from scratch. making dough is a bitch, and messy too.

i need to buy some white bread to lie on top of my pie to keep it moist, because no one wants a icky dried out pie.

tonight, i might make another mini pie, with raspberries. tomorrow, i start on some other stuff!

i feel like this is going to be a great thanksgiving! yesamesh!