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09/14/2007 02:43 #41089

Cycles
Category: religion
Today, I spent the first day in the year of our lord 5768 reflecting long and hard about the person I want to be. The gates of repentance have been opened with the blast of a horn, and it is up to me whether I will be inscribed in the Book of Life for another year, or whether I will part from the life I want to lead ten days from now.

There's so much that I'd like to write right now, but I don't have the time tonight. However I think that my posts for the next nine Days Of Awe will be a little more deeper than usual, especially considering the challenges and life-changing events in the coming year.



theecarey - 09/14/07 18:33
Happy New Year, I l a n! :)

09/07/2007 10:55 #40986

Labor Day Summary
Category: life
(reposting because I can't find out how to delete comments)

Labor Day Weekend Summary

Introduced (e:inscrutable) to the parents, and the four of us had yet another great buffet experience at the India Gate.

Found a nice apartment in Northern Buffalo near Sanders @ Colvin where (e:inscrutable) and I can live together and merge households.

Went to Toronto to see relatives I had not seen in seven years, the last time being at my grandfather's funeral. Nice to see them again in happier circumstances. As my orthodox relatives tend to have lots of kids, I wasn't surprised to find that I had another six 2nd cousins who I never knew existed. And they're all cute, of course.

Experienced the unbearably sad reality that my parents are getting older. Seeing the people who I relied on to protect me and be strong for me requiring my protection and strength was an extremely emotional experience for me. I also started realizing the burden on me to be the strong and protective one in my existing and future family relationships. I see a lot more gym visits in my future.

Got to see Toronto and eat lots of yummy Indian and Thai food. Remembered that I'd actually have pictures of said food if I wasn't dork enough to forget my digital camera. I also saw the Great Wall of China . That's Canadian humor for you.

Got a whole bunch of CD's of Candian artists I've heard across the water on 102.1 The Edge. I've found it surprisingly hard to find Bedouin Soundclash, Ill Scarlett, D.J. Champion, and Billy Talent in Buffalo stores, so I kind of went hog-wild the moment I stepped into HMV.

Got the non-blocking, multi-threaded querying feature of my Postg reSQL Coc oa framework in the initial stages of working, which should help reduce users' perception of latency in applications using the framework. In plain english, I spent some time on my laptop computer doing programming stuff and accomplished something important.

Got pizza scissors. For cutting pizza. I'll add a picture when I have time.



lizabeth - 09/11/07 18:15
How soon are you moving? Don't forget to give me your new address when you do!

Are you going to be in B'lo for T-giving?

Also - I know what you mean about the parents-getting-older thing. It is an unsettling experience.
tinypliny - 09/07/07 18:45
:::link:::

(From a search without the quotes)
jim - 09/07/07 16:34
I am all of the ten first results for Jim Lindley, but I don't go by James so unfortunately nothing to be found on that search.
tinypliny - 09/07/07 16:20
Yeah, this reeks of an (e:james) conspiracy...
tinypliny - 09/07/07 16:18
This bloke mysteriously trumps you from beyond the grave at No.2. James Lindley (1681-1726)

And he is not even named Jim.



jim - 09/07/07 11:38
Yeah - that's a tough issue. Paul and I were talking about it the other day, and the tack we take is to just spew our names all over the internet everywhere, so to find anything bad you'd have to scroll through dozens of pages of innocuous stuff. I'm like 40 out of the top 50 Google results for my first and last name together and I think any embarrassing stuff is lost in the pile :P
carolinian - 09/07/07 11:36
I love and appreciate your comments, (e:jbeatty) 's comments, and everyone else's comments. I'm just paranoid about my real name being Googled, and I don't think there's a way to change my name in one of the comments from I lan to (e:carolinian).

Example, if I'm being considered for a job by a potential employer, I don't want some stupid HR person at the company Googling "I lan Buffalo" and seeing a journal entry where I might say "This co-worker is acting like a real jerk and it's impossible to work with him/her." If I have to worry about this, true self-expression becomes a lot more difficult.

ladycroft - 09/07/07 11:09
why did you want to delete everyone's comments?

08/30/2007 00:09 #40820

Secret Confessions
Category: life
I told my parents tonight. It wasn't half as bad as I imagined it. It's a huge weight off my chest, and with that past me I can finally concentrate on being productive and preparing for the future again, especially since my parents seem kind of cool about it.

metalpeter - 08/31/07 17:36
You know when you decorate or redo a room you can move a TV into that room or turn on the radio or if it is a hockey game listen to it on line (I'm kidding cause of course you know that, just had to break balls a little bit and in the same jist another bit of humor ). I'm sure if a Huricanes (hockey not college football) game was on you wouldn't miss it. Seriously though glad that you talked to the parents about what you had to talk to them about. Granted I don't know what it is and I don't need to but your parents did. But you getting off your chest may have been more important then them knowing and takes a lot of stress off of you. Hopefully I'll see ya at the party on Saturday and I'm also planing on going to the chicken wing thing to, not sure when but I at least want to see the miss chicken wing contest or what ever that is with hot ladies.
lizabeth - 08/30/07 23:21
I knew it was going to be ok. :) Yayness!
carolinian - 08/30/07 22:36
None taken, (e:libertad). I'm confident in my heterosexuality, enough that I can admit that, yes, I did spend a weekend last year putting up velvet curtains and holdbacks in my bedroom to go for a victorian motif instead of watching the Bills on TV like all the "proper" examples of straight men I've been chastised for not emulating over the years.

libertad - 08/30/07 16:52
ok, please don't take offense to that, it wasn't meant in a malicious way.
libertad - 08/30/07 16:51
omg your gay?
imk2 - 08/30/07 08:50
ohh....i know what it is!!! i know what it is!!!!!
carolinian - 08/30/07 08:42
I'll post about whatever it is three months from now. Until then, I'm supposed to say nothing.

imk2 - 08/30/07 06:17
oh come on!
museumchick - 08/30/07 06:06
I'm glad you were able to talk to your parents about whatever was going on. It's good to have that support.

Take care of yourself:).
mike - 08/30/07 00:45
what did you tell them? pregnant?
theecarey - 08/30/07 00:16
preggers?
paul - 08/30/07 00:15
About what?

08/22/2007 18:58 #40677

Hot Potato Mashup
Category: life
Today I have little to write.

I instead reflect on the fact that sometimes there's stuff that you just can't write on the Internet because it's just such a hot potato and personal enough to the point of being inappropriate to share with others.

Time will change this, I'm sure, but it sucks that I have to (justifiably) limit my emotional outlets.


lizabeth - 08/26/07 20:20
Well, there's always PostSecret: :::link:::

Although I'm not sure how much longer it's going to be a secret...
theecarey - 08/22/07 20:35
ditto.

um.. yeah.. theres things I want to blurt out get out of my head, but I refrain from posting it to the world. And for some reason, even though I used to do a lot of pen and paper journal writing, I have managed to forget how to write- it just feels weird to have a pen in hand!

How about cheating on estrip(shhhh) and either writing to a completely unknown/unidentifiable site..one that you have no feelings for, haha-- or just in a word document. I know sometimes ya just need to get.it.out.

good luck :)
paul - 08/22/07 20:29
I hate that feeling more than anything.

08/16/2007 21:36 #40584

Basket Case
Category: computers
Got my new case today.



I'll probably write a review somewhere on the Internet at some point. Considering my investment, the case was virtually cost nothing.


paul - 08/22/07 20:31
I use a pillowcase to cover mine. I never use screen protections ofr all my gizmos either. I guess it is how I live on the edge. No seriously, I just couldn't justify anymore weight to this macbook pro. It already weighs liek 6 lbs which was hard to adjust to comming from a 3 lb sony vaio.
jenks - 08/16/07 23:04
Nice. My friend has like a $7000 camera or something, and Pelican are the ONLY cases he will use.