So I have been waiting my whole life for the Spears performance tonight at the VMA's. I felt like a really great energetic wonderful performance would signal her big comback. Or a little sadistically something crazy like i don't know her kids hanigng from crucifixes from the cieling, or her taking all her clothes off or like running off the stage crying. Either way I figured it would be good and as the eternally hopefully Britney fan I really was hoping it would be great!

I really really want her to comeback but what do we get...a lackluster song with an even more lackluster performance. She barely danced, they surrounded her by like 10000 side performers so you barely even saw her and she did like nothing good. It seemed like she was phoning it in and didn't really mean it. I thought she would give us a performance that reminded us all why we loved her but instead she gave me nothing. It makes me fear but worst fears that maybe she is never coming back. Maybe she really is gone for good : (

And then it got really sad when Sarah SIlverman made fun of her. Like so unnecessary, Britney clearly humiliates herself enough, the jokes are unnecessary and just mean (though the one about how she had accomplished everything she ever would in her likfe at 25 was kinda funny) but really it just felt sad!

P.S. The VMA's are really quite not good in general. Way too much of like 1 seocnd clips from a million different places and the host lady puts me right to sleep. IS she even literate?Ok i'm done for now..bakc to the VMA's , maybe Britney will pull out some crazy show stopper still.

Today is my college friend Katrina's wedding. (e:amanda) is the maid of honor. I can't wait. I really like weddings and friend weddings are the bestest kind yet it seems crazy that now four of my friends are married. I am only 24! Bejeezus! Anywho, everytime I have to get dressed up I remember how much I don't really like my suit and don't' have nice black dress shoes anymore. Unfortunately I don't ever remember this again til an hour before the event when I have to get dressed up again. So here I am in a lackluster suit and crappy black shoes, it always saddens me, I have to take care of this situation, especially the shoes right away! I can't wait until another event! maybe even inbetween the wedding and the reception which there is like a 3 hour time block (which what do yu ever do in between while you are already dressed up) maybe (e:jill) will go with me to get shoes (she is my date for the wedding!) WE'll see. This is the first event I wil go to sinc eI got a digitial camera so hoepfully there will be pictures to follow soon..

So back in the day when it first started (maybe 2000) i was a huge fan of passions. It was like the best thing ever and I love soap operas in general. Then it got really lame where even now 7 years later, like the same story lines have not really bene plyaed out yet. And like they take everything like it never really happened ( i know all soaps are like this, bu tthis one is particularly crazy about having nothing ever happen). Anyway it is moving from NBC to directtv and so I watched the last episode today. Wowser! They pulled out all the stops, some guy got shot, Gwen showed Ethan a baby that she claims is theirs just as Teresa was about to announce that her child was really not with EThan's father but with Ethan. Adora the baby witchhuman was taken into hell or something like that. Sheridan found out her baby with Louis is really not dead becuase the pimp guy had video of the baby alive. AND Alistair is killing his grandaughter Pretty cuz he likes Fancy better. Oh and Vincet had a Veronica mask on and so he didn't really die when he fell of the cliff and is now really mad and back to serial killing. So the thing is now I will never know what happens cuz I don't have DirectTV but I can guess that what happens will be in like 3 months, the guyw ill have survived the gunshot, Adroa will be back from hell, the scene with gwen and the baby was a dream, and Sheridan's baby is really dead and it was a fake video. And Vincent will be doing the whole half man/half woman crazy serial killer again....if only they could bring back the nurse played by a gorilla!

to you (e:ladycroft). Happy Birthday! I hope it is a great one even though you are half way around the world!!! Do they celebrate birthdays the same way there?

Seriously, I am reading Tipping Point, which (e:maureen) recommended and is a pretty good book so far. It is about like what makes something big all of a sudden. how does one obscure thing become huge all of a sudden and not gradually and different stuff. ANYWHO HERE IS THEFACT...

well first I'll make you guess. If you took a sheet of paper and folded it in half and then folded it in half again and repeated that fifty times, how high would it be at the end? Seriously you will never believe the answer. I mean i don't know that it is even possible except theoretically but even then it is crazy just wait....seriously try and guess....