I'm feeling a bit more myself now...
I cannot even begin to tell you why i felt it entirely neccessary to spend five days of serious apartment painting and organizing before i felt somewhat human. I still don't feel entirely human... i think there is still a bit of the beast left inside of me but i'm too damn tired to let it out.

All I have left to do is paint the bathroom. the smallest room of the apartment, though that isn't saying much as my apartment IS rather small. Still i'm avoiding it.

There is still so much to do. So much left to put away. All my pictures and paintings I need to hang. So many clothes I need to put away. I'm not the type of person who could live with boxes laying around for months. I think the older i get, the more OCD i get.

But pulling that damn couch up those tiny stairs was the last straw and now i've put my foot down. I'm relaxing for a couple days dammit.

Oh and I had a second interview for Wireless Zone - an independant wireless retailer for Verizon. They loved me and I'm sure that they will hire me. They apparently are VERY busy. Problem is that it is a thirty minute drive. That only will bother me in the winter, really.

But I have another really juicy and delicious opportunity that requires time, research and patience. I'll have to write about that one another time though. It is deserving of a post in itself and this one is already too long.

I think i'm going to go lay down on my 900 lb couch and watch some free tv.

have i ever mentioned that i love buffalo?

i'm hoping the worst of it all is over.

today i moved a 900 lb couch up to my living room. it really is a hideous couch, but i have a bunch of fabric and i'm hoping to transform it as we have transformed this apartment.

seriously though, i think the couch might have caused serious internal injury. We had to take both doors off their hinges and heave. two people at the top, two people at the bottom.

at one point i questioned whether or not i had any ability to go on living. that was about half way up.

at another point i almost passed out.

i also was in the sun all day at a christening for my second cousing. i'm approximately the color of those hideous red curtains that i have found mixed in with the stuff i have moved in.

so now i'm reading about all the (e:strip)pers hanging out at the 24 and i'm wondering how i 'm awake enough to read this, write this, or comprehend any of it, and yet i want to go play.

forgive me (e:society)... i'm almost ready to come out of hiding...

just a little nap first...

those are the names of our new bedroom colors.

by the by...

we are here in buffalo now. since tuesday.

we have been spending 12 hour days painting like madwomen.

so pardon the absence, we are insane.

also - i am getting the dreaded blue screen of death on my computer. i have screenshots of the technical info. anyone know of a dell authorized repair center? i believe that I have a one year warrenty. or if i send you a screen shot could you tell me what my problem is? (that is, my computer problem)

back to the grindstone.

I realized that I ordered my Harry Potter book from Amazon.com. it didn't arrive on Saturday. and so i just received a confirmation email for the full cost of the book being refunded to my amazon acount.... sweeeet.

of course now that i'm thinking about it... i think that the harry potter books might have been delivered by us mail. and of course i have a forward to buffalo, which i am not there till tuesday late evening. which makes me wonder......... did i inadvertantly cheat the system, or was it magic?

no matter, i haven't had time to read it.

i just got back from day one of my family reunion at bear mountain.

already dean has gotten into fights with both my mother and my uncle larry.

also aunt mona and drew have gotten into a fight

grandpap fought with everyone that tried to make him get out of the car at arrival.

and there was a lot of grumbling as a result of 19 rooms being requestqed in 3 cabins that only have 18 rooms. god these folks are crazy.

its coming down to the wire. i have alread said goodbye to so many people and its beginning to get upsetting. oh and already i'm getting requests to stay in new paltz for a few extra days. and pleeeaasssseeee come back for this party on the 4rth...

oh and i still don't have a job.

tonight i fix lauren's car window/blinker with jess.
tomorrow is my last day at work
tomorrow night is happy hour at oasis for the last time
saturday is harry potter
saturday night is a barbeque at my bosses house
sunday through tuesday morning is family reunion
tuesday is the day i grab my cats and say goodbye to new paltz.

i've been so busy. so very busy. sorry i haven't posted/commented more than flippantly. i'm rather flippant you see.

hey guys, what is this Nova 3C promotions company? They want me to come in for an interview, but if it is going to be annoying telemarketing for pennies crap i don't even want to bother...

i can't wait until the stress levels die and my dry and sarcastic sense of humor comes back.

this little kid just ran out of kb toys yelling,

'dad! brian just called me a retard and that really hurt! it really did! my feelings are hurt'

i don't know why i found that so amusing, but yeah... okay i really got to stop procrastinating...