O man, so things are different. It feels like another chapter of my life has ended and a new one's starting. I think the last time I felt that way was when I started the fall semester after a long and wonderful summer. The summer was so lazy and I just spent so much time playing frisbee and hanging out with my friends and it was great. At the end of it I saw my friends less and started school, started training for a race, quit my job, and probably a few other things I can't think of at this moment. So during what I'll call chapter 2, I started off painting an awful lot, decided to start a band with my friends, got a girlfriend, had a friend move away, withdrew from the semester got a new job, did some acting and probably a few MORE things I can't remember. Now this chapter is starting and it starts with even more changes. Different season, no girlfriend, the band is coming together really well, losing touch with all sorts of other friends, working ANOTHER new job, not painting at all, and probably a lot of stuff I'm too close to seeing to actually notice is changing too. So what am I going on about all this for? Well, It just feels like change comes all at once or maybe to me it seems more stratified to me and that's how I gauge it all. And that's what I've been thinking about.

All we are is distraction.

Alright, so I'm happy to report that I finally launched the myspace site for my band, The Arms! There's a song up and though it's not perfect, it's good enough to let people listen to. It's called the New World, and it's going to be the first song on the 10 song record. There'll be more songs up in the coming weeks in addition to updates, photos, and show announcements, so check back frequently!

Hope you enjoy it and if not, that's alright too. Just wanted to let you guys in on what I've been up to.

wow. Everyday is SO tiring. I feel beat ALL the time. I really want to get some quality rest, but I think the nature of my job is just too taxing sometimes. I got to go to the park yesterday and that was very nice. Move my legs breathe the air, get some sunshine.

Speaking of which, the sun is really abrasive i think. Like it heats me up so fast. I was chatting with a girl at work about this and she and I feel that it's the lack of ozone. I'm not going to get into a whole bit about why it's depleted, nothing's been substaniated, I'm just saying I feel the effects of it. You see people with beet red skin and that whole bit.

The weather's getting warmer and I do like it, I just don't want it to harm me.

So I was supposed to launch a webspace this week for a band me and a couple of friends have started, but it can't happen until next week as my friend had some family business to attend to that prohibitted our launch of the space. So when it'll be launched I can only approximate, but I'd wager within the next 2 weeks. If anyone's interested in what I've been recording and stuff I'll be sure to give you the url address when it's up and about.

So that's really what's been going on with me at present time. Not very interesting I know, but hey, I'm not here to impress. :)

She didn't mean to deceive you, believe me
But sometimes the hardest part is conceiving

The good intentions that you had
Now only came to this
And although she saw the mark
The arrow missed

It isn't exciting reciting the stories
Of kind words turned hurting when routine gets boring

Both getting tired of punk rock clubs
And both playing in punk rock bands
The start was something good
But some good things must end

And she said, "It could never survive
With such differing lives
One home, one out on tour again

We may never come back
The strike of a match
The candle's burning at both ends."

And now she knows too much
And I'm too fucked up
It's awkward trying to make my move

I'll pretend that I'm fine
Show up right on time
But I know I'll never be that cool

I never wanted to hold you back
I just wanted to hold on
But my chance is gone

I know / just where / I stand / a boy
Trapped in the body of a man and

I'll take what you're willing to give
And I'll teach myself to live
With a walk-on part of a background shot
From a movie I'm not in

She's so important
And I'm so retarded

And now I realize
I should have kissed you in L.A.
But I drove home all alone
As if I had a choice, anyway

Where are you coming from?
What are you running from?
Is it so hard to see?

And if you're feeling scared
Remember the time we shared
You know it meant everything (everything)
You know that it meant everything to me

You know that it meant everything to me