So today I didn't go back to my second job at the dry cleaners. Yesterday I made a pricing mistake at the register and the lady who co-owns it flipped out: "I can't keep telling you how to do this! It's part of your job! Now i've gotta do this and that and this and that and this and that..." and I just stopped listening. I mean I felt bad that I made a mistake but this lady has got no social skills or anything. The way she deals with customers pisses me off. She's so cold to them. Someone will ask her how she is and she won't even respond with an answer, "Pick up or drop off?". Really pisses me off. So back to her being all pissed at me, so she said "This is part of your job!" and in my head I was like "Nah, y'know what, not anymore". It sorta felt like that scene in "American Beauty" where Ricky Fitts and Lester Burnham are outside smoking weed and Ricky's boss comes out to tell him to get back to work.

Boss: "I'm not paying you to stand around and goof off" and Ricky:"Okay, then don't pay me."
Boss: "What"?
Ricky:"I said you don't have to pay me, now leave me alone"

My whole thing wasn't as cool as that, but whatever. I just decided not to come back in. I don't need anything like that waying on my sense of well being. I didn't need a second job, it was just me trying to get some extra cash, but I'm not out to make myself feel bad in the meantime. O well. I guess this is my yelling post. It's cool.

God, I hate this weather. It's too warm to enjoy. I hate taking a 4 minute walk and feeling like I was standing on the sun. I'd prefer that it rained all summer to this stupid weather. I like the sunshine as much as anybody else, but I don't like the heat to be so overbearing that I can't even play frisbee with my loser friends. If the whole summer is going to be this way, then I can't wait until fall. Mother fucking heat wave and shit.

Goddamn shit. Well, go Sabres, they're fucking blowing my mind right now. I saw (e:jenks) at spot w/ (e:decoyisryan) the other night and that was cool, but she was on the run, so she couldn't sit around and chitter chatter with ol' pitter patter. So there's that.

I'm so fucking hot right now :( . Speaking of being hot, I think that I"m at least a 7, but this girl at work said I was a 4, so I called her a cunt and threw a bologna sandwich in her face. What do you think? Tell ME!

O man, so things are different. It feels like another chapter of my life has ended and a new one's starting. I think the last time I felt that way was when I started the fall semester after a long and wonderful summer. The summer was so lazy and I just spent so much time playing frisbee and hanging out with my friends and it was great. At the end of it I saw my friends less and started school, started training for a race, quit my job, and probably a few other things I can't think of at this moment. So during what I'll call chapter 2, I started off painting an awful lot, decided to start a band with my friends, got a girlfriend, had a friend move away, withdrew from the semester got a new job, did some acting and probably a few MORE things I can't remember. Now this chapter is starting and it starts with even more changes. Different season, no girlfriend, the band is coming together really well, losing touch with all sorts of other friends, working ANOTHER new job, not painting at all, and probably a lot of stuff I'm too close to seeing to actually notice is changing too. So what am I going on about all this for? Well, It just feels like change comes all at once or maybe to me it seems more stratified to me and that's how I gauge it all. And that's what I've been thinking about.

All we are is distraction.

Alright, so I'm happy to report that I finally launched the myspace site for my band, The Arms! There's a song up and though it's not perfect, it's good enough to let people listen to. It's called the New World, and it's going to be the first song on the 10 song record. There'll be more songs up in the coming weeks in addition to updates, photos, and show announcements, so check back frequently!

Hope you enjoy it and if not, that's alright too. Just wanted to let you guys in on what I've been up to.