This weekend I got peed on, puked on and pooped on. I had to babysit my infant nephew Ryan. It was a 48 hour madness marathon!
I'm not exactly a baby person. I don't hate them, especially not my nephews, but I don't have a high tolerance for them. Crying makes my spine cringe rather quickly.
I think I collectively got 5 hours of sleep the entire weekend. The little guy eats every 2.5 to 3 hours! It takes about 15 min to prep his bottle then another 30 minutes to an hour for him to drink it. Then there is always a diaper change involved prior to and shortly after a feeding. I was wiped out.
Fell asleep watching a movie with (e:Nejifer) and apparently she tried to wake me up to go to my bed but I was dead to the world. I really don't know how parents do this.
Not to mention my poor little (e:Bambicroft) has been so lonely from lack of attention that she was all over me. I love her to bits n' pieces and adore spending time with her. She loves me too, so she never left my side for one second.
I'm still pooped. Think I'm gonna take a nap between laundry loads and the dishwasher. Cheers to all you domestic engineers out there. Ciao.
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08/14/2006 14:32 #25442
p squaredCategory: auntie
08/05/2006 12:03 #25440
dark weddings and affairsCategory: dreams
Have you seen that commercial where a man is sitting at his kitchen table with Abe Lincoln and a beaver playing poker? His dreams tell him how much they miss him?
My dreams let me know they have been missing me. I was missing them too. I realized it had been soooooo long since I had dreams. Really. I wake up so much in my sleep that I hardly get to enter REM cycle, which is incredibly disturbing.
I am happy to report that with the new meds I've been taking I have finally been able to sleep for a few hours continuously!!! As a result I have my dreams back!!!!
1. (e:Joshua) was getting married to this uber bridezilla biotch! I have no idea who she was but she was a misserable goober! The entire atmosphere was dark. It was dark outside, everyone was dressed in black, they were riding in a herse! (sp?) All the trees were dead, it was windy, and they got married on the porch of this half burned down black house. Creeeeeepy!
2. This one was disturbing. I was chillin with (e:Leetee) in some strange little antique shoppe. I went upstairs to use the toilets and saw (e:Nejifer) and (e:Uncutsaniflush) having an affair in a fur coat closet! Then the place was flooded with pugs! They were everywhere!
My dreams let me know they have been missing me. I was missing them too. I realized it had been soooooo long since I had dreams. Really. I wake up so much in my sleep that I hardly get to enter REM cycle, which is incredibly disturbing.
I am happy to report that with the new meds I've been taking I have finally been able to sleep for a few hours continuously!!! As a result I have my dreams back!!!!
1. (e:Joshua) was getting married to this uber bridezilla biotch! I have no idea who she was but she was a misserable goober! The entire atmosphere was dark. It was dark outside, everyone was dressed in black, they were riding in a herse! (sp?) All the trees were dead, it was windy, and they got married on the porch of this half burned down black house. Creeeeeepy!
2. This one was disturbing. I was chillin with (e:Leetee) in some strange little antique shoppe. I went upstairs to use the toilets and saw (e:Nejifer) and (e:Uncutsaniflush) having an affair in a fur coat closet! Then the place was flooded with pugs! They were everywhere!
uncutsaniflush - 08/05/06 22:22
poor (e:ladycroft), I reckon any dream with me in it is a nightmare.
poor (e:nejifer) for falling so low as to be seduced by me in a fur coat closet!!!! And, as to me being in the fur coat closet, what can I say, darling, it's all faux fur!! <g>
And poor (e:leetee) for her cheating nightmare (e:husband).
As to the pugs, I can only hope that they weren't the spawn of me and (e:nejifer).
poor (e:ladycroft), I reckon any dream with me in it is a nightmare.
poor (e:nejifer) for falling so low as to be seduced by me in a fur coat closet!!!! And, as to me being in the fur coat closet, what can I say, darling, it's all faux fur!! <g>
And poor (e:leetee) for her cheating nightmare (e:husband).
As to the pugs, I can only hope that they weren't the spawn of me and (e:nejifer).
jason - 08/05/06 12:54
Josh getting married. Haha. Yeah right.
Oh, I did read your e-mail! Whoo! I will write back before the weekend is over. The short version - eh.
Josh getting married. Haha. Yeah right.
Oh, I did read your e-mail! Whoo! I will write back before the weekend is over. The short version - eh.
08/02/2006 13:53 #25438
spoke too soon?Category: transportation
My excitement over a wonderful shower has been dashed. I split my time between 2 offices which means I have to close up shop in one place, go get my bike and carry all my gear down a block and across the street to the other office.
When I got to my bike today I was greeted with a busted tire! Not just flat, the tube exploded. Meep!
What is with my transportation traumas? My car blew up, after it blew a tire, my other bike blew both tires, and now my brand new bike blows a tire.
I thought about this as I sweated my way over to the office with my bike in tow. I'm bummed of course. I'd figure out how to take the bus, but I have 10 cents in my bag and the tokens (e:Paul) gave me are at home.
Anyhow, I was thinking about my thinking. Does 'stuff happen to me' as I always say, or does s'tuff happen' and how I react to it is what happens to me? Does that make sense?
I believe it's the latter. It's not the end of the world, it's just a bike tire. It just stinks because I got this bike to replace my more favorite bike that was broken and I don't have money to fix another problem. I was really enjoying my bike rides.
When I got to my bike today I was greeted with a busted tire! Not just flat, the tube exploded. Meep!
What is with my transportation traumas? My car blew up, after it blew a tire, my other bike blew both tires, and now my brand new bike blows a tire.
I thought about this as I sweated my way over to the office with my bike in tow. I'm bummed of course. I'd figure out how to take the bus, but I have 10 cents in my bag and the tokens (e:Paul) gave me are at home.
Anyhow, I was thinking about my thinking. Does 'stuff happen to me' as I always say, or does s'tuff happen' and how I react to it is what happens to me? Does that make sense?
I believe it's the latter. It's not the end of the world, it's just a bike tire. It just stinks because I got this bike to replace my more favorite bike that was broken and I don't have money to fix another problem. I was really enjoying my bike rides.
twisted - 08/02/06 23:02
You raise a fascinating (to me) question! I do that all the time too. Stuff happens, but am I reacting to the stuff? or to the story I create around it? I give myself one loophole: The irony defense. If something happens, and it's just too damn ironic (your story is LOADED with irony), how can you not react to that? Hell, I broke up with my boyfriend-before-last because he couldn't appreciate the irony of not being able to make a cup of coffee (under stressful circumstances) before you've had a cup of coffee. (Ok, long story, but I think some people might be able to relate). Anyway, even though I've basically given up coffee (don't even ASK about the irony behind that one), I still cite the "coffee before caffeine" defense on a regular basis.
You raise a fascinating (to me) question! I do that all the time too. Stuff happens, but am I reacting to the stuff? or to the story I create around it? I give myself one loophole: The irony defense. If something happens, and it's just too damn ironic (your story is LOADED with irony), how can you not react to that? Hell, I broke up with my boyfriend-before-last because he couldn't appreciate the irony of not being able to make a cup of coffee (under stressful circumstances) before you've had a cup of coffee. (Ok, long story, but I think some people might be able to relate). Anyway, even though I've basically given up coffee (don't even ASK about the irony behind that one), I still cite the "coffee before caffeine" defense on a regular basis.
metalpeter - 08/02/06 19:51
Sorry about you bike, that sucks with it being a new bike espically. I admit I don't know much about bikes but if you still have the old broken on and the wheels are the same size you might be able to switch the tires from the broken one to the new one. In any event I wish you the best of luck with your transportation woes.
Sorry about you bike, that sucks with it being a new bike espically. I admit I don't know much about bikes but if you still have the old broken on and the wheels are the same size you might be able to switch the tires from the broken one to the new one. In any event I wish you the best of luck with your transportation woes.
nejifer - 08/02/06 14:59
of course you can use my bike! sorry about the transportation dilemma. if you need me to lend you money for a new tire, i can do that too.
i don't have to work til 12 tomorrow, so i can drive you in, as long as you can find a ride home.
in fact...if you get me to the airport by 9 on friday, you can keep my car for the whole weekend!
of course you can use my bike! sorry about the transportation dilemma. if you need me to lend you money for a new tire, i can do that too.
i don't have to work til 12 tomorrow, so i can drive you in, as long as you can find a ride home.
in fact...if you get me to the airport by 9 on friday, you can keep my car for the whole weekend!
08/02/2006 10:43 #25437
a shower never felt so goodCategory: potpourri
I love my job. It's a fun office, or I should say offices, to work in. I like the people, I like what I do, and I can't wait to interact with the itnernational students I've been corresponding with for several months. Today however, was icing on the cake.
As you all know, it's a bazillion degrees outside. I commute on my bicycle. I'm not gonna lie, this heat is kicking my ass! It makes it harder to breath and about 5 times longer to cool off once I stop. All summer long I've arrived at work a ltitle sweaty, but I bring a little towel to wipe down with and I got myself a tiny desk fan. It's all good.
Yesterday was miserable. I couldn't seem to cool down at all. Today...I thought I was going to have a heat stroke! I was so red and sweaty my boss actually let me go take a shower in the dorms! Yah, I was smelly too. But how cool is that!? They actually let me go take a shower. The summer work study is also an RA, so she let me use her shampoo and soap. It was brilliant. I smell great, feel SO much better, and I'm not dying. Yay! Ciao.
As you all know, it's a bazillion degrees outside. I commute on my bicycle. I'm not gonna lie, this heat is kicking my ass! It makes it harder to breath and about 5 times longer to cool off once I stop. All summer long I've arrived at work a ltitle sweaty, but I bring a little towel to wipe down with and I got myself a tiny desk fan. It's all good.
Yesterday was miserable. I couldn't seem to cool down at all. Today...I thought I was going to have a heat stroke! I was so red and sweaty my boss actually let me go take a shower in the dorms! Yah, I was smelly too. But how cool is that!? They actually let me go take a shower. The summer work study is also an RA, so she let me use her shampoo and soap. It was brilliant. I smell great, feel SO much better, and I'm not dying. Yay! Ciao.
07/26/2006 11:11 #25435
pieces of meCategory: deep thoughts
I'm starting to feel a little bit like me again. I want to be back so badly and it's such a daily struggle, but I've been working hard at it. Something (e:Terry) said to me at the housewarming party really stuck with me. He said I was simply too hard on myself and don't give myself enough credit. It's true. I know I don't. That's part of what depression is. It's hard to focus on the good when all you see is the bad. It's hard to focus period.
I went with (e:Libertad) to another one of his Soka Gakkai meetings. It was so refreshing to be in a room full of people who were absolutely glowing inside. Yes, we all have problems in varying degrees. No one is immune to reality. But how we cope with life can in fact control us. I really tried to take the time, while they were chanting, to do a meditation. For the first time in a loooooong time, I felt a bit of peace in my heart and in my mind. Yes, I have a pile of troubles on my shoulders. Serious troubles that impact my life daily. But even if for that moment, I was free. I could breath, I wanted to smile and jump and clap my hands and do cartwheels.
The best part is, I didn't need a single drink or drug to feel that way. That is how I know a little piece of me came back. That is who I was all along. I am a beautiful person, inside and out. I'm not going to let anyone tell me otherwise, anymore. I'm not going to tell myself otherwise anymore. I am going to continue on my quest for peace and to bring vitality into my life once again.
I went with (e:Libertad) to another one of his Soka Gakkai meetings. It was so refreshing to be in a room full of people who were absolutely glowing inside. Yes, we all have problems in varying degrees. No one is immune to reality. But how we cope with life can in fact control us. I really tried to take the time, while they were chanting, to do a meditation. For the first time in a loooooong time, I felt a bit of peace in my heart and in my mind. Yes, I have a pile of troubles on my shoulders. Serious troubles that impact my life daily. But even if for that moment, I was free. I could breath, I wanted to smile and jump and clap my hands and do cartwheels.
The best part is, I didn't need a single drink or drug to feel that way. That is how I know a little piece of me came back. That is who I was all along. I am a beautiful person, inside and out. I'm not going to let anyone tell me otherwise, anymore. I'm not going to tell myself otherwise anymore. I am going to continue on my quest for peace and to bring vitality into my life once again.
jason - 07/28/06 00:07
I think that's awesome! Very very cool.
I think Msr. Carr is kicking me out. I'm too much of a bad ass (or scared to get on the phone at most times, one or the other).
I think that's awesome! Very very cool.
I think Msr. Carr is kicking me out. I'm too much of a bad ass (or scared to get on the phone at most times, one or the other).
libertad - 07/26/06 19:00
Thanks for the kind words about the Soka Gakkai. I haven't forgotten about the cd I promised. We should talk sooon. I'm also glad to hear that some clowds are lifting in your life. I always try to remember that it does get better when I'm having hard times.
Thanks for the kind words about the Soka Gakkai. I haven't forgotten about the cd I promised. We should talk sooon. I'm also glad to hear that some clowds are lifting in your life. I always try to remember that it does get better when I'm having hard times.
metalpeter - 07/26/06 18:56
I'm glad that things are going well for you (yeah bad wording but You know what I mean). I wish you luck on things continuing that way and you getting even better.
I'm glad that things are going well for you (yeah bad wording but You know what I mean). I wish you luck on things continuing that way and you getting even better.
jenks - 07/26/06 14:07
yay! I'm happy for you. :)
yay! I'm happy for you. :)
mrmike - 07/26/06 13:57
That's cool. Good for you. Maybe I show go and see if the monkey will get off my back
That's cool. Good for you. Maybe I show go and see if the monkey will get off my back
vincent - 07/26/06 13:24
Well you are going to have a good day today.
Anytime you look at the clock and see 1:11 or 11:11 You make a wish.
Yea, I listen to too much late night a.m. radio.
Well you are going to have a good day today.
Anytime you look at the clock and see 1:11 or 11:11 You make a wish.
Yea, I listen to too much late night a.m. radio.
nejifer - 07/26/06 12:45
when i first met you, i thought you were the epitome of the laid back, open-minded, free spirited chick. and over time i watched that spirit fade and slowly you became a person i didn't know. but lately i watched you open up again. i've seen you let things roll off your back. and i've certainly seen you smile and laugh a hell of a lot more!! it's so lovely that you've come to the realization of what we've all known all along. you are BEAUTIFUL and i'm so very proud that you are finding you way back. i love you!
when i first met you, i thought you were the epitome of the laid back, open-minded, free spirited chick. and over time i watched that spirit fade and slowly you became a person i didn't know. but lately i watched you open up again. i've seen you let things roll off your back. and i've certainly seen you smile and laugh a hell of a lot more!! it's so lovely that you've come to the realization of what we've all known all along. you are BEAUTIFUL and i'm so very proud that you are finding you way back. i love you!
ajay - 07/26/06 11:18
"The best part is, I didn't need a single drink or drug to feel that way."
Exactly.
"The best part is, I didn't need a single drink or drug to feel that way."
Exactly.
The trick is to stop thinking about it. When my kids were young, I was surprised how often I napped or saw an strange stain on my shoulder that magically flicked off. Had I had normal sense about me, it probably would grossed me out.
Yeah I to thought wow that was one crazzy night out after reading the first line. I give you credit I can't do the diaper thing. Wow it has been a long time since giving anyone a Bottle. Luckly I never had to watch my sister for verry long. I think that over time with a baby you learn to adjust (not saying it is easy at all, that isn't what I mean) but there are tricks you learn like if the kid falls asleep that is a good time to take a nap. Or things like if they sleep at a certain time during the day or afternoon then they won't make it through the night and neither will you. All kids are differant. I like kids but other peoples kids. It sounds like you did a preaty good job, it is exhusting though.
Early reaction to this post: "Damn she's freaky, I wonder if she's ever met R-Kelly".