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06/23/2006 11:51 #25421

my confession
Category: potpourri
I am a major contributor to the depletion of Swedish Fish from the two pound box in our office. Ciao.image
dragonlady7 - 06/26/06 15:32
I guess I'm missing out by not working in an office. At the wedding I was just at, the work friends of the groom were talking about ravaging the swedish fish box after hours. Apparently accountants are notorious swedish fish depleters.
metalpeter - 06/24/06 18:08
If memory serves Sweedish Fish where the first of the gummy candy and predate gummy worms and bears.

On a 30secondstomars note. I got an email from the EDGE and I belive they are playing a special Acoustic Set at the new FYE at 5pm at the McKinley mall.
des - 06/24/06 05:12
there seems to be some sort of sweedish fish resurgence lately. Everyone at my work has them all of a sudden.

All Hail the Fish!
mrmike - 06/23/06 22:01
I know you are a big 3o seconds to Mars fan. I have a ticket to Edgefest monday if you could use one, no cost, no strings, just don't want it to go to waste - drop me a line if you could use it
kookcity2000 - 06/23/06 20:51
I used to have a very bad boss, and when he left I would take fistfuls of Swedish Fish from his two-pound box.

And I woudln't wash my hands before!



Usually I would get sick of Swedish Fish after about a half a fist-ful

06/22/2006 13:05 #25420

the funeral
Category: death
My gramma's funeral was on Tuesday. It was a very difficult day. I was holding it together pretty well until it came time to pay last respects at the funeral parlor. My little sister started sobbing and as I hugged her I lost it. Then we drove to the church. It's the same little Polish Catholic church my gramma used to take me to after Bingo. She'd always tell me we had to stop and say prayers and light the candles for people. I didn't grow up Catholic so I didn't really understand the concept. I always just thought the dying Jesus on the cross was really creepy and I was afraid he'd look at me, or worse, talk to me.

So we entered the church in procession of the funeral mass. I don't know who the guy singing was, but he was amazing. He had such an angelic voice. One thing I've always admired about Catholic churches is the architecture. The way the pipe organ and choir voices resonate throughout the building is so moving. I cry when I'm happy and hear something that beautiful. Needless to say, this is where I came unglued. Sobbing loudly, I could hardly breathe.

Again, I'm not Catholic, but once in a while I enjoy attending a mass done in Latin. I love Latin. I love chanting. It really is soothing. Like the time I went with (e:Libertad) to one of his Buddhist meetings. I almost fell asleep from the chanting. But I digress. The priest had a lovely voice as well. He did some of the mass in Latin, then a few Polish prayers and chants.

After the church we drove to the cemetery and had another Polish prayer at the mausoleum. Traditionally they don't allow you to watch as they insert the coffin into the wall, but the guy was there and eager to get his job done, so we did. She's now snuggled up with my grampa. When the guy took the flowers off her casket he said he was going to throw them out. That's what they do with them, just throw them out! What a waste. I mean, they could at least donate them to various institutions. Perhaps hospital chapels, or old folk's homes, some place where flowers would brighten the atmosphere. We didn't want to see that happen so we dismantled the arrangement and each took some flowers from it.

When that was all settled we went to a banquet hall and had a polish feast. Went home with my family afterward to chill. I played with my nephew Max for a while then played with (e:Bambicroft). Boy does she miss me and I miss her tons.

So that was the day. As sad as I am, I have to say, she had it made. Who doesn't wish that when they die, it will be peacefully, pain free, of old age, in their sleep? That's just what my gramma was granted, the chance to fall asleep and never wake up, at least not in physical terms. I don't think we ever die. We are all made of energy; call it a soul, that which cannot be extinguished.

enknot - 06/23/06 21:38
I liked your post too. this will sound all morbid and strange, but I'm jeleous of you and yer gramma.

My grampa on my dads side is terminally ill and decided that he's not going for treatment so it's going to hurt, and to really top it off I don't really know him half as well as I could... Makes me feel ...well nonplused.

Feel better at your own pace Timika...
metalpeter - 06/22/06 20:10
I feal as though I should say someting but not sure exactly what my hands will type.

First things first I hate Wakes and Funerals. I now they are nesacary but they really creep me out. Never been to a Mosoleum but I'm sure it would bother me just as much a casket being buried in the ground.

It is hard to belive when you look at a church as a physical building how they are made. The acustics are amazing like you said.

What you described sounds like how things are generally done in my family. I think they call it a fureal Breakfeast. I have heard that same thing about us being energy from one of my mothers brother. It is good that your grandmother didn't suffer. Everybody reacts and grieves differantly as I'm sure you noticed and know. That is ok and is part of the healing process I wish you and your family luck in dealing with the greif.

mrmike - 06/22/06 14:15
Peace comes in some strange forms sometimes. I hope you can see some soon. Everyonce in awhile a post comes along where I can see every detail while I'm reading of the service and it sounds like it was a celebration, and that is hopefully a good thing for you. Thanks for sharing and I hope you and your family recover from it all soon.
jenks - 06/22/06 13:33
Wow. I like your post. That second paragraph, with the organ and the voices resonating, gave me goosebumps. And then the rest made me cry. Well written. But I agree- as much as it sucks for us/you- it was probably as good as it could have been for her. And now you just have to hope she's somewhere better. :) I hope you all heal quickly. (hugs) let's catch up soon!

06/18/2006 13:27 #25418

it warms my heart
Category: death
Thanks to everyone for your condolences. I'm very appreciative of your kind words. As (e:enknot) said, it is so wonderful that this community can take the time to support one another. That is why I love estrip so much.
jason - 06/18/06 22:27
Wow. Wow! I just read this. I'm so sorry Timika.

However, our death is not the end. One thing I believe, and nobody will be able to convince me otherwise, is that the human soul is immortal. Death is a transition from one thing to another. She'll be okay.

06/16/2006 20:47 #25417

so, so sad
Category: death
My mom called at about 7pm to let me know my gramma died tonight. Apparently my uncle went downstairs to watch the 6 o'clock news with her, like always, and she had died in her chair. Exactly the way my gramma found my grampa when he died.

She wasn't sick other than some arthritis in her knees so this is rather a shock. I just keep imagining her voice calling my name. She had that funny little Polish accent and said my name funny. I'd post a photo but they are on my dad's computer at home. I still haven't had the time to get them on my jump drive.

I'm so very sad.
mike - 06/19/06 23:37
I'm so sorry Ladycroft. I know how terrible it is to lose a grandparent. I hope you are doing ok, let me know if you need anything. (sorry, I know this is a bit delayed, I must be a little behind in my estrip reading)
pyrcedgrrl - 06/18/06 10:31
I'm so sorry, Timika. :(
metalpeter - 06/17/06 19:27
Sorry for your lose. As someone else said at least she didn't suffer.
enknot - 06/17/06 18:41
Sorry Ladycroft (Mika..I think. Net names seem a bit in approriate). I hope your sadness passes as soon as you're ready for it to go. I think missing someone is sometimes the best kind of love...it's just rough when you can't cure the sadness with their presence anymore.

And her her to all you (e:strip)ers the outpouring on the site is heartwarming.

(((e:ladycroft))) <-- yeah (e:hugs).
boxerboi - 06/17/06 15:27
I'm sorry to hear that. :o(
codypomeray - 06/17/06 12:02
sorry to hear about your grandma. i know we are not close, don't speak, but if you need someome to vent, or talk to, please feel free. my condolances. -eric
leetee - 06/17/06 10:22
(((((((((( (e:Ladycroft) ))))))))))
jessbob - 06/17/06 09:26
I'm sorry. My condolences to you and your family
imk2 - 06/17/06 03:27
awwww, timika, i am so sorry! and i'm so sorry that it happened at a time like this, when you're going through all the stuff. i'm here if you need me.
jenks - 06/17/06 02:44
oh crap... I'm just reading this, half-drunk at 2:40 am. I would call to give phone-hugs, but, well, it's 2:40 and I'm half-drunk. So... accept (e:hugs), and I hope you're doing ok and I'll talk to you soon!
mrmike - 06/16/06 23:19
I'm so sorry
dragonlady7 - 06/16/06 22:49
Oh no!! How sad for you. ((hugs))

But how perfect for her. No suffering, no sickness, no fear. My poor grandmother's greatest fear was that her quality of life was deteriorating and she was so worried she'd outlived her lifespan. She had an awful week before she finally died peacefully. And she missed Grandpa so much. We were glad when she finally figured it out-- but we still miss her so much.

I hope the sadness isn't too bad for you.
uncutsaniflush - 06/16/06 21:35
I'm very sorry to hear this news. You have my condolences.
kookcity2000 - 06/16/06 21:20
LC I'm sorry to hear that, I really feel for you.
I just lost my grandma and it gets tough at times.


Hang in there
ajay - 06/16/06 21:08
Sorry to hear that. Please accept my condolences.
nejifer - 06/16/06 21:02
I'm so sorry love. I'll be home to hug you soon!

06/21/2006 17:00 #25419

survey says
Category: survey
People:
1. How did you find out about/why did you become of estrip?
I became friends with (e:drchlorine) who has since disappeared and we all know why. Anyhow, he told me about this site and paul and said I should check it out. So I did for about a month, then decided to join.

2. How "out" are you about having a publicly accessible online journal. Do your friends know? Does your family know? Do your co-workers know? Does your boss know? Do you use your real name? Do you use your real photo?
Most people know. Though in my field it is a battle star galactica wars over online profiles, so I don't tell my employers. Seriously, it's like a high profile court case the way our arguments go over student rights/freedoms. Where do you draw the line on snooping on people? Don't post anything illegal, no problem; however I find it insulting and illegal to fire someone or not hire someone because they had pink hair or lead an exciting life outside the office/classroom.

3. How many epeeps have you met real life?
Well, if they post regularly, or even semi-regularly and live in b-lo I've probably met them. Even a few that don't live in b-lo.

4. How has estrip changed the way that you meet people, on and/or off line?
Offline, no different. Online, eh I think it's rather the same? Except that since many estrip members are involved in each other's lives you hear/see/read more about them than if it was just one person on some other site?

5. How has estrip affected you love life?
I haven't had a love life in several years.

6. How many of your friends have joined estrip because of your influence?
Mmmm.... (e:nejifer), (e:kangarooboi), (e:krains), (e:vincent), (e:theecarey), (e:pyrcedgrl)... I think that's it for now.

7. Are you from Buffalo/do you live in Buffalo?
Born in b-lo. Lived in Cheektovegas then Youngstown, moved away for 10 years, now I'm back.

Equipment:
1. What type of hardware or software purchases have you made as a result of using estrip?
None.

2. Have you used the mobile version of estrip? Why or why not?
No. I don't have service on my phone.

Lifestyle:
1. In what way has estrip changed your Internet surfings habits? Describe the amount of time you spend on estrip, when you use it and about how long?
It gave me people to talk to when I couldn't sleep, so perhaps a few more hours than my previous usage? But my life is changing, so that habit has evolved.

1a. How many journals do you usually read per day?
I dunno. Could be 10 if it's all the people I read. Might only be 2.

2. In what ways has estrip changed the way you perceive your local community?
It has given me a sense of community that I was not able to experience on my own, until now. Although estrip itself is an online community, and I think that refelcts in the way that we support one another or bicker like a little family.

3. How has journaling about your life affected the way you spend your free time?
I suppose I've met more people to do more/new things with.

4. Has estrip changed your living situation in any way?
Why yes it has. I now live with (e:nejifer), who I met at work at Hilbert, and (e:decoyisryan), who I met here. I have to say, they are the best roommies I've had :)

5. Do you find that you mediate/document more of your experiences now that you share them with others?
Probably. In terms of gatherings etc, I wouldn't bother to write that in my private journal, or send e-mails to people about it.

6. Has publishing on estrip affected the way that write?
I love that I can add media!

7. Do you have other online journals? If so, with what service and has estrip affected your usage of that journal?
I don't really count myspace as a journal. I hardly ever post anything there. So really just here, and I joined myspace after estrip anway.

8. Have you ever gotten in trouble for using estrip at work?
Nope.

9. If you have stopped using estrip, why?
Nope, still here.

metalpeter - 06/21/06 19:51
He just kinda left and from what i understand didn't say anything. I know that he ran elmwood radio also I belive. With dial up there was no reason for me to listen. All I will say is someone else left around the same time he did. I remember he had some interesting posts.
ajay - 06/21/06 18:12
Where has Dr.Chlorine gone? I must've missed the announcement.