I don't have anything to write about anymore.
My only topic is off-limits.
I miss it/him.
I want my journal back.
Boo!
At least my internet is fixed. For now. Again.
Jenks's Journal
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08/22/2006 20:15 #23933
This sucks.08/21/2006 19:20 #23932
you love me, you really love me!Aww shucks...
Thanks for all the support guys.
Maybe you really *do* like reading about my soap opera.
Who'd've thunk it.
Just to clarify-
The assholes I am chastising are not from estrip (as far as I know!!).
And I am not going anywhere.
I am just not going to write about a certain crush anymore, since apparently some of the info is being used against him.
Why/how/by whom I have no idea...
And maybe one of these days if I have some time I can edit the posts I had to take down, and at least put the party pix etc back up...
Must say... this whole thing is infuriating... and a little scary...
I don't really like that I have to feel censored and have to watch my back b/c there are some psychos out there... I mean who could care less about my silly little gossip rag...
But apparently someone did.
Sigh...
I prefer my naive little corner of the world where jerks don't smear each other...
Ok, back to work!
-J
Thanks for all the support guys.
Maybe you really *do* like reading about my soap opera.
Who'd've thunk it.
Just to clarify-
The assholes I am chastising are not from estrip (as far as I know!!).
And I am not going anywhere.
I am just not going to write about a certain crush anymore, since apparently some of the info is being used against him.
Why/how/by whom I have no idea...
And maybe one of these days if I have some time I can edit the posts I had to take down, and at least put the party pix etc back up...
Must say... this whole thing is infuriating... and a little scary...
I don't really like that I have to feel censored and have to watch my back b/c there are some psychos out there... I mean who could care less about my silly little gossip rag...
But apparently someone did.
Sigh...
I prefer my naive little corner of the world where jerks don't smear each other...
Ok, back to work!
-J
08/20/2006 13:03 #23931
Dear Assholes:Why do you have to go and take a wonderful resource like the internet and use it to hurt people? And animals?
Anyone who would use my silly little journal as fodder to smear someone's name is truly petty. All I have to say is Fuck You.
-J
Sorry peeps. As much as I'm sure you all love hearing about my soap opera, I've taken it all down. You'll just have to ask me in private if you need a drama fix.
People can be awful.
:(
And time warner can bite me. My internet keeps dying on me. A guy came out yesterday and replaced my modem. And it's dead again today.
Anyone who would use my silly little journal as fodder to smear someone's name is truly petty. All I have to say is Fuck You.
-J
Sorry peeps. As much as I'm sure you all love hearing about my soap opera, I've taken it all down. You'll just have to ask me in private if you need a drama fix.
People can be awful.
:(
And time warner can bite me. My internet keeps dying on me. A guy came out yesterday and replaced my modem. And it's dead again today.
imk2 - 08/21/06 18:17
she's not leaving silly! she could never leave us....ever...ever....you will never leAVE....YOU HEAR ME?...YOU WILL NEVER LEAVE ESTRIP....OR I WILL FIND YOUUUUUUUU!!!!!!!!!!
she's not leaving silly! she could never leave us....ever...ever....you will never leAVE....YOU HEAR ME?...YOU WILL NEVER LEAVE ESTRIP....OR I WILL FIND YOUUUUUUUU!!!!!!!!!!
vincent - 08/21/06 13:57
I suppose before you fall off estrip forever I should get in my goodbye.
You did appear a bit apprehansive back when you first were going to post pics of the boy and his dogs. I guess he had an idea of what dark forces were lurking out for him.
You really did provide a unique perspective on things and brought a vast amount of cultural experience and knowledge. That I will surely deeply miss.
Take care and hope all works out for you in your life.
Hopefully I'll see you around sometime...
I suppose before you fall off estrip forever I should get in my goodbye.
You did appear a bit apprehansive back when you first were going to post pics of the boy and his dogs. I guess he had an idea of what dark forces were lurking out for him.
You really did provide a unique perspective on things and brought a vast amount of cultural experience and knowledge. That I will surely deeply miss.
Take care and hope all works out for you in your life.
Hopefully I'll see you around sometime...
hodown - 08/21/06 09:27
Oh no what happened? If you need someone to kick ass on your behalf I'm down!
Oh no what happened? If you need someone to kick ass on your behalf I'm down!
enknot - 08/20/06 18:37
This is pretty disparaging. I really liked to read aboot your drama (not a typo, I just came back from a Canadian adventure). I'm curious what would make you want out. Hadda be something drastic, but I'm not a gossip whore, so I guess I'll live with the suspense...even if it kills me slowly... for years...and I'll never know...ever...and I cry every night and ask gawd why? Why'd she have to go and do that!? Why. Why, why, why. Ok now I'm just being silly. It is cool that you're still smiling,
This is pretty disparaging. I really liked to read aboot your drama (not a typo, I just came back from a Canadian adventure). I'm curious what would make you want out. Hadda be something drastic, but I'm not a gossip whore, so I guess I'll live with the suspense...even if it kills me slowly... for years...and I'll never know...ever...and I cry every night and ask gawd why? Why'd she have to go and do that!? Why. Why, why, why. Ok now I'm just being silly. It is cool that you're still smiling,
libertad - 08/20/06 18:13
hey jenks. Hope all is well, this seems so unlike you to be this upset. I'm glad you are still smiling though :)
hey jenks. Hope all is well, this seems so unlike you to be this upset. I'm glad you are still smiling though :)
paul - 08/20/06 16:37
Please send me the details via a post-it, my email is down.
Please send me the details via a post-it, my email is down.
jason - 08/20/06 16:14
uhh what?
uhh what?
metalpeter - 08/20/06 14:51
I don't know exatctly what happened, but I'm sorry. If what happend is short enough send me a post it or better yet email me, it should work through the site.
I don't know exatctly what happened, but I'm sorry. If what happend is short enough send me a post it or better yet email me, it should work through the site.
mrmike - 08/20/06 13:10
Sorry about all of that. I feel the same way, especially the Time Warner part
Sorry about all of that. I feel the same way, especially the Time Warner part
08/17/2006 17:28 #23928
on spines...Ok, so I've been thinking a little, and wonder what you peeps think of this.
All my life I have been a "nice" person. But how nice is too nice?
What's the difference between "sweetheart" and "pushover?" Are they just two sides of the same thing?
I'll always remember one day in college.... I was friends with this group of mostly guys... And some of them were (are) selfish asses. But we were still all friends. That's just sort of how they were, and I just accepted it. They weren't always super-considerate of everyone- but sadly most people aren't. They would tell dirty jokes in front of me. Sometimes the jokes would be at my expense. I didn't care... I laughed right along. They did it to everyone. I think that's what friends do... I know they care about me... I know they meant no real harm... just good-natured ribbing... Then one day a (girl) friend of mine witnessed some of this... and she was so mad at me. Gave me this big lecture about standing up for myself and not letting them treat me like that... And for a while I felt bad. I thought maybe she was right... maybe I'm some big spineless wuss. But then I thought more about it... I thought I was "rolling with the punches", "being one of the guys", etc. She thought I was being a doormat and letting them walk all over me. I dunno... I'm not sure that laughing off a sexist joke rather than going all feminazi on my friends makes me a doormat... What do you think?
And I was thinking about this some more today. I will pretty much do anything for the people I care about. Even sometimes at my own expense. But I sort of think that's what friends are for.
But where do you draw the line?
I decided today that making other people happy really IS what makes me happy. To the point that sometimes them being happy means more to me than getting what I want. Is that wrong? Is it pathological? Or, if it does make me happy to see them happy, is it just fine?
For me- who I am with is usually more important to me than what I am doing. So when asked "what do you want to do?" I probably usually answer with "I don't care, what do you want to do?" Because I usually DON'T care. Spending time with other people and seeing them happy really DOES make me happy. Am I really being taken advantage of, if the act makes me happy?
I mean it's one thing if I force myself to do things I hate b/c I am afraid to say no... That isn't good. And if it's something I feel really strongly about- I'll speak up. But little stuff, like what movie to see, where to go for dinner... It doesn't really matter to me.
So I wonder... does that make me easygoing and happy-go-lucky? Or does it make me a passive unassertive masochistic doormat? Or does it depend on the circumstances... or is it in the eye of the beholder...
Hmmm
penny for your thoughts...
-J
All my life I have been a "nice" person. But how nice is too nice?
What's the difference between "sweetheart" and "pushover?" Are they just two sides of the same thing?
I'll always remember one day in college.... I was friends with this group of mostly guys... And some of them were (are) selfish asses. But we were still all friends. That's just sort of how they were, and I just accepted it. They weren't always super-considerate of everyone- but sadly most people aren't. They would tell dirty jokes in front of me. Sometimes the jokes would be at my expense. I didn't care... I laughed right along. They did it to everyone. I think that's what friends do... I know they care about me... I know they meant no real harm... just good-natured ribbing... Then one day a (girl) friend of mine witnessed some of this... and she was so mad at me. Gave me this big lecture about standing up for myself and not letting them treat me like that... And for a while I felt bad. I thought maybe she was right... maybe I'm some big spineless wuss. But then I thought more about it... I thought I was "rolling with the punches", "being one of the guys", etc. She thought I was being a doormat and letting them walk all over me. I dunno... I'm not sure that laughing off a sexist joke rather than going all feminazi on my friends makes me a doormat... What do you think?
And I was thinking about this some more today. I will pretty much do anything for the people I care about. Even sometimes at my own expense. But I sort of think that's what friends are for.
But where do you draw the line?
I decided today that making other people happy really IS what makes me happy. To the point that sometimes them being happy means more to me than getting what I want. Is that wrong? Is it pathological? Or, if it does make me happy to see them happy, is it just fine?
For me- who I am with is usually more important to me than what I am doing. So when asked "what do you want to do?" I probably usually answer with "I don't care, what do you want to do?" Because I usually DON'T care. Spending time with other people and seeing them happy really DOES make me happy. Am I really being taken advantage of, if the act makes me happy?
I mean it's one thing if I force myself to do things I hate b/c I am afraid to say no... That isn't good. And if it's something I feel really strongly about- I'll speak up. But little stuff, like what movie to see, where to go for dinner... It doesn't really matter to me.
So I wonder... does that make me easygoing and happy-go-lucky? Or does it make me a passive unassertive masochistic doormat? Or does it depend on the circumstances... or is it in the eye of the beholder...
Hmmm
penny for your thoughts...
-J
mrmike - 08/17/06 21:15
I concur with the other gentlemen on this one. Provided you genuinely get to make yourself happy, it's all good and the feminazis can fight battles worth fighting.
I concur with the other gentlemen on this one. Provided you genuinely get to make yourself happy, it's all good and the feminazis can fight battles worth fighting.
metalpeter - 08/17/06 19:26
If the ribbin was funny then it is fine to laugh but just make sure you get a return shot in at there expense. If it wasn't funny or not appricated and you laughed any ways then that isn't ok .
I have to admit reading your post is a little bit scary it sounds like me so much. The part about not really caring what movie or resturant as long as it is one I like is so me.
There is a line between being a "pushover" and nice. I think as long as all the nice things you do you inatate them your self then it is being nice. But when someone gets you to see a movie or do something you really don't feal like doing then you are being a pushover.
There is nothing wrong with making other people happy. If making others happy then makes you happy then that is good. However if you go so far as to do things that you don't like to make someone happy to be happy then that is a problem. It is also important that (e:jenks) also does stuff for (e:jenks) so that (e:jenks) is happy. Sometimes that means standing up for your self sometimes and sometimes calling somebody out.
If the ribbin was funny then it is fine to laugh but just make sure you get a return shot in at there expense. If it wasn't funny or not appricated and you laughed any ways then that isn't ok .
I have to admit reading your post is a little bit scary it sounds like me so much. The part about not really caring what movie or resturant as long as it is one I like is so me.
There is a line between being a "pushover" and nice. I think as long as all the nice things you do you inatate them your self then it is being nice. But when someone gets you to see a movie or do something you really don't feal like doing then you are being a pushover.
There is nothing wrong with making other people happy. If making others happy then makes you happy then that is good. However if you go so far as to do things that you don't like to make someone happy to be happy then that is a problem. It is also important that (e:jenks) also does stuff for (e:jenks) so that (e:jenks) is happy. Sometimes that means standing up for your self sometimes and sometimes calling somebody out.
chico - 08/17/06 18:15
If making other people happy IS what makes YOU happy then I say it's (almost) all good... I mean, you have to draw boundaries somewhere, but I identify with your tendencies in a big way. My Aunt Marie is the same way -- it genuinely makes her happy to ensure that the people she cares about are happy. If you find good friends who have your back when you need them most, I don't see anything wrong with letting them have their choice of restaurants, bars, etc., and even hammering you with some borderline-nasty ribbing. As long as they are willing to take it in return, anyway.
If making other people happy IS what makes YOU happy then I say it's (almost) all good... I mean, you have to draw boundaries somewhere, but I identify with your tendencies in a big way. My Aunt Marie is the same way -- it genuinely makes her happy to ensure that the people she cares about are happy. If you find good friends who have your back when you need them most, I don't see anything wrong with letting them have their choice of restaurants, bars, etc., and even hammering you with some borderline-nasty ribbing. As long as they are willing to take it in return, anyway.
08/16/2006 23:32 #23927
I miss automatic user sounds.So a few things...
First of all- (e:libertad)- I think the ENVUS hummer definitely lives around the corner from me on Forest. It's parked there ALLL the time. So right or wrong, I kind of hate those people for driving a hummer. But as I was walking home tonight I noticed that they keep their dog CHAINED up in the front yard. Now I hate them even more. :(
Next- I am so juvenile.... This song came on my ipod in the car today... It's very bow-chikka-bowt-bowt porn-ish. My friends in college would play the boogie nights soundtrack, and these girls would always come complaining about this song. That it offended them. They would whine until Scott would go "oh ok fine!" and walk over to the stereo- and hit rewind, and just play it on repeat.
man we were funny. ;) Anyway, so for your listening pleasure I present a college flashback... Jungle Fever, by the Chakachas- from the Boogie Nights soundtrack.
and the best for last...
Just had a lovely dinner with Buffalo's newest additions- chico/chica! They're lovely. I approve. ;) I just hope their ears don't hurt from listening to me blab all night! :D
Bedtime, I think...
-J
First of all- (e:libertad)- I think the ENVUS hummer definitely lives around the corner from me on Forest. It's parked there ALLL the time. So right or wrong, I kind of hate those people for driving a hummer. But as I was walking home tonight I noticed that they keep their dog CHAINED up in the front yard. Now I hate them even more. :(
Next- I am so juvenile.... This song came on my ipod in the car today... It's very bow-chikka-bowt-bowt porn-ish. My friends in college would play the boogie nights soundtrack, and these girls would always come complaining about this song. That it offended them. They would whine until Scott would go "oh ok fine!" and walk over to the stereo- and hit rewind, and just play it on repeat.
man we were funny. ;) Anyway, so for your listening pleasure I present a college flashback... Jungle Fever, by the Chakachas- from the Boogie Nights soundtrack.
and the best for last...
Just had a lovely dinner with Buffalo's newest additions- chico/chica! They're lovely. I approve. ;) I just hope their ears don't hurt from listening to me blab all night! :D
Bedtime, I think...
-J
chico - 08/17/06 18:08
Hey thanks for the shout-out, Jenks! First time I've been called "lovely" but it has a nice ring to it. Chica and I really enjoyed meeting you and chatting it up over Indian buffet. Looking forward to next time, and to meeting more (e:peeps)! Best, Chico
Hey thanks for the shout-out, Jenks! First time I've been called "lovely" but it has a nice ring to it. Chica and I really enjoyed meeting you and chatting it up over Indian buffet. Looking forward to next time, and to meeting more (e:peeps)! Best, Chico
jason - 08/17/06 09:47
Dogs as accessories. That makes me ill.
Dogs as accessories. That makes me ill.
libertad - 08/17/06 09:45
Maybe she moved. Or it is possible that is where her bf lives. You can have her for all i care :) That dog is a pita too. yip yip yip yip. She got the dog as an accessory not a companion. Gotta check your user sound later, don't change it yet!
Maybe she moved. Or it is possible that is where her bf lives. You can have her for all i care :) That dog is a pita too. yip yip yip yip. She got the dog as an accessory not a companion. Gotta check your user sound later, don't change it yet!
I'm sayin: bitch ass suckas!
that stinks that all that happened....i love the word smear
I'm sorry it got to what it apparently did. I related to a lot of what you were writing about, dealing with vaguely similar things. But we really do like you
I enjoy reading your soap opera, it would be a shame for it to be cancelled, because I can relate to the "trying to find love despite repeated frustrations" theme. That being said, this is the reason why I try to keep a low profile and try not to put too much information in my userinfo--there's too many petty and close-minded people out there who can't be tolerant of others' reasonable free expression. If these people who are bugging you continue to use your blog to incriminate you/others, you may want to create a new username to post under and withhold identifying info from the user info.
Ask Jason about his post - '04 election situation when someone actually physically threatened him through an anonymous post in the chatbox.