so i just found out that my old dentist and my parents current dentist for the past 15 years, was murdered in his home. stabbed to death. that has got to be the worst way to die, besides burning alive.

i have this irrational (maybe not so irrational) fear that someone is going to come into my house and murder me. i've watched so many A&E cold case files, that my imagination has me sleeping with a knife between the mattress and the box spring. my ex used to get freaked out that i would stab him in my sleep. i always thought it was his guilty conscience that was freaking him out.

anyways, i remember living in baltimore and having a room in the basement. it was one of those finished basements that had french doors that opened into the back yard and my back yard was a forest. so i used to get so scared that a serial killer would come though those doors and into my bed.

once, on a very rainy night, i was alone in the three story townhouse. alone in my basement room at three am, ironing my clothes. i could not see anything outside cuz it was pitch dark and the rain was pouring. standing in my room, anyone could see in, because of the windows and the glass doors, but i could see nothing but black.

suddenly, everything went dark. my lights, in the entire house, turned off. the tv turned off, everything went silent. i seriously thought to myself, "that's it, i'm done, i'm going to die. someone is here to finally kill me" i thought some madman cut the lights and snuck into the house and was now waiting for me to try to make a move across my room, up the stairs to the main floor. it took all the courage i had to run upstairs and call a friend to come pick me up. i was afraid to go outside, cuz i thought they could be waiting outside too.

so my friend drove 20 minutes at 3 am on a rainy night so that i could spend the night at her house. she came and went to check out the basement and saw that i blew a fuse with the tv, lights and iron working all at once.

i'm usually not that high maintenance. the only other time i got that freaked out was when our house on breckenridge got hit by lightning and set off all the smoke alarms. oh and while working as a flight attendant and we had to make an emergency landing on the morning of 9/11 when i was on my way to DC. ok, and one more, but someone actually got murdered in front of me. but that's it, i swear. usually i'm pretty brave. but someone is out there, lurking in the shadows, waiting for me to fall asleep, foaming at the mouth and holding a filleting knife, waiting for just the right opportunity....to make his move...and make mine, my last.

so, i never go to mighty taco cuz their food sucks. i love taco bell, but all the shit i get from people about liking taco bell and hating mighty taco made me want to give that damn place another try.

i go through the drive through and order two beef hard shell tacos with sour cream. one would assume that tacos would come with lettuce and tomato and green onions, like they do at taco bell, right? WRONG. i pull out of the drive through and into the parking lot and peer into my bag to check out my tacos.

guess what i found? two shells with beef. no lettuce, no tomato, no onion. WTF, WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!! who the hell puts a shell with some beef and calls it a fucking TACOOOOOOOOOOO! i was so fucking pissed at this shit hole of a place that i rolled down my fucking window and tossed them shits right the fuck out of my window.

FUCK MIGHTY TACO AND THEIR LAME ASS, DOO DOO ASS, SHITY ASS, FUCKING TACOS!

TAKE YOUR CRAP TACOS AND SHOVE THEM UP YOUR STINGY AZZ!

and i swear to god people, do not EVEN try to defend mighty taco, cuz i will find your ass, eat 75 taco bell tacos and shit on your lawn!

Finally, finally, finally, I got my school loans. That means I can now eat, buy gasoline, and maybe...if I so choose... pay some bills.

I am taking b/f for a 4 day bed and breakfast weekend here at the end of the month for his b-day. I guess its not really a bed and breakfast since you get your own log cabin or carriage house. I've stayed here before and it's phenomenal. The 3 course breakfast is simply delicious and is served in your cabin. I hope it snows up the ying yang, so that I can feel like I'm in a winter wonderland.

The woman who owns this place used to be a journalist for the Associated Press and is now teaching at the University of Pittsburgh. She is also an audio book reviewer and the cabin and the carriage house are filled with audio books. Everything is top notch down to the sheets and comforters. She also has horses and has boarding room and huge pastures for guests who bring theirs along. There's tons of hiking and b/f is bringing his axe. So we're going to sit in front of the fire, sip red wine, and cuddle while looking at the falling snow (hopefully). Believe it or not, b/f loves this kind of stuff. He is a big mushy baby that loves all this girly shit.

Did I mention I got my school loans??
Which means....

I'm Rich, Bitch!!

Emerging Cinemas
by Charger



"Beginning today, February 1st, one of the Market Arcade Film and Arts Centre's (MAFAC) eight screens will be devoted exclusively to programming by Emerging Cinemas, the New York-based digital cinema network, featuring independent art house fare. MAFAC will be the fifth in Emerging Cinema's expanding national network of partner venues.

Films provided by Emerging Cinemas are digitally encoded with both high definition sound and images, and then sent to local servers located in individual theaters. The technology creates an expansive film distribution system, one that is no longer limited in scope due to the cost of producing and shipping bulky film prints.

"We couldn't be more excited about this partnership," said Giovanni Cozzi, president and co-founder with Barry Rebo and Ira Deutchman, of Emerging Pictures and its consortium of digital projection theatres, Emerging Cinemas. "Buffalo's independent film enthusiasts will now have a downtown screen exclusively devoted to a broad variety of the best in independent, foreign language, and documentary films.

"Many of the films that will be shown here would never have been exhibited in Western New York for various reasons, the largest being the availability of actual prints to project on screen," he says. "This new digital projection system will allow more documentaries, independents, and other art house films to be shown in Buffalo at the same time as they're being seen in the top five markets. We normally have to wait several months for certain movies to arrive, but not any more!"

The first film coming to the new Buffalo screen is an hilariously unorthodox comedy, "Go for Zucker," about which "Variety" wrote: "Politically incorrect but good-natured entertainment...Modern German cinema finally gets its first all-out Jewish laffer." "Go for Zucker" opens Wednesday, February 1, and runs through Monday, February 6. Show times Weds/Thurs/Fri/Mon (5:30) 7:30, 9:30 Sat/Sun (1:30, 3:30, 5:30) 7:30, 9:30

The remainder of February's Emerging Cinemas offerings are as follows:

Tuesday, February 7: "Isn't This A Time" - A documentary that Film-Forward.com called "A must-see for folk fans," highlighting a 2003 Carnegie Hall evening honoring music impresario Harold Leventhal and featuring folk greats The Weavers, Pete Seeger, Theodore Bikel, Arlo Guthrie, Peter, Paul and Mary and many more. Show times (5:30) 7:30, 9:30

Wednesday, February 8 - Tuesday, February 14: "Cache" - A French language thriller, starring Juliette Binoche and Daniel Auteuil, which received the Best Director award for Michael Haneke at the 2005 Cannes Film Festival. Show times Weds/Thurs/Fri/Mon/Tues (4:00) 7:00, 9:30, Sat/Sun (1:30, 4:00) 7:00, 9:30

Wednesday - Thursday, February 15 and 16: "Bubble" - Steven Soderbergh's return to his indie roots, this film examines an unlikely love triangle born in a doll factory in a small Midwestern town fallen on hard times. Show times Weds/Thurs (5:30) 7:30, 9:30

Friday - Monday, February 17 - 20: "Music from the Inside Out" - Hailed by "The New York Times" as "A crowd-pleaser --- musically, intellectually, emotionally! Profound and moving. A delight!" Groundbreaking in style and approach, and directed by Academy Award ? nominee Daniel Anker, this documentary explores music through the stories, passion and artistry of individual musicians drawn from a world-class American symphony orchestra. Show times Fri (4:00) 7:00, 9:30, Sat/Sun/Mon (2:00, 4:00) 7:00, 9:30

Tuesday, February 21: "The Passenger" - A suspense film by Michelangelo Antonioni, originally released in 1975, telling the story of a man trying to escape his own life. Starring film legend Jack Nicholson, the film was shot on location in Africa, Spain, Germany and England. Show times Tues (4:00) 7:00, 9:30

Wednesday - Tuesday, February 22 - 28: "Cowboy del Amor" - A comedic verite-style documentary about a cowboy-turned-matchmaker who can't manage his own love life: self-proclaimed "Cowboy Cupid" Ivan Thompson. Show times Weds/Thurs/Fri/Mon/Tues (5:30) 7:30, 9:30, Sat/Sun (1:30, 3:30, 5:30) 7:30, 9:30

Michael Clement reminds patrons, "It's very important that our audience members understand that in order for us to offer as many of these films as possible, some will be screened on a very limited and exclusive schedule at the MAFAC. A particular title will not have a traditional eight-week run. Some movies will only be at the theatre for a single day, others up to a week."

MAFAC will be mailing out a monthly calendar of Emerging Cinema screenings, as well continuing to send weekly e-mails with schedule and special screening information. To receive these mailing please e-mail msmith@buffaloplace.com.

fuck this shit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



I was fucking right!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


I FUCKING HATE ALL LIFE FORMS NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

this fucking earth needs to implode!!!