04/27/04 09:25 - ID#35229
For in that sleep...what dreams may come
I did not get up early despite ample opportunities. I didn't get up late, but not early either.
But what's more, I dreamt last night. Oh my God did I dream. And guess what came back . . . yes, horrific tidal wave dreams. It was amazing. I haven't had those in I don't even know when.The only thing I do know is that something is wrong when I have those dreams. So what's wrong?
Ironically, I was fishing when the waves started to come in. Does that mean that I wanted them to come back, subconsciously?
I'm going to work sans coffee. I ran out of filters.
Life is so hard sometimes
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Location: Buffalo, NY
04/26/04 11:51 - ID#35228
New Plan, for tonight
I'm going to go to bed early. Right after I'm done typing. I've been falling asleep everywhere lately, and I'm hoping this will cure it. More of a problem is the complete opposition my body has to waking up. In either case, let it be known, I will sleep soon.
Oh yes. This is an experiment. I will attempt to wake up at 7am tomorrow morning and take a walk with me dog to get a cup of coffee and potentially read a book before I have to work. We shall see if this works.
It's sort of like when you were a kid playing basketball, even though people without hands were better than you, and you said, I'll ask her/him out if I make this shot. It's come down to that.
If this doesn't work, I will boycott sleep all together. Who's with me . . .
Would it be too much to ask for a small bout with insomnia?
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Location: Buffalo, NY
04/26/04 02:52 - ID#35227
2nd, 3rd, 1st
wake up you have stuff to do. You know you want to get it out, but the sleep wants you. But hell, like it matters. wake up.
As he says this to himself, head bobbing over the keyboard, rain falling, cars whizzing by, sirens wailing, the phone rings. He thinks it's her, but of course it's Greg.
I'm in love.
Really.
I think so.
That's great man. I think, well no . . .
Shit no parking spots can I call you back.
Call me tomorrow. Thanks brother, you did it.
Did what.
I'm awake.
You in love?
That depends. I have to write. It's a good night for it.
I found a spot.
Me too.
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Location: Buffalo, NY
04/24/04 02:23 - ID#35226
Where Have All the Tidal Waves Gone?
That Tears for Fears song is true though, "I think it's kind of funny, I think it's kind of sad, the dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had."
If you've ever came face to face with a 40 foot tidal wave about to drop on you, you know how alive you feel in your sleep. I can't describe the feeling.
God I miss those days.
Well . . . there's always tonight.
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Location: Buffalo, NY
04/23/04 03:28 - ID#35225
Okay VS. Amazing
Knowing full well that, yes, this might be fun, but ultimately, it won't be the storybook romance you think will eventually happen, do you ride out that boat until you see the one you're supposed to be on? Well then what us that point of dating? It definitely befuddles the mind.
I like you.
Okay.
Let's go out.
Okay.
We're okay together.
Okay.
What's wrong.
It's okay.
I can't do okay, this I have realized. But do you do okay until you trip over amazing?
Has anyone seen amazing around?
And don't say everyone is, because it's all a matter of perspective.
And where does "good" come into play?
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Location: Buffalo, NY
04/21/04 03:15 - ID#35224
Making Progress, shit, OW
okay, once more into the breach dear friends, once more.
I will say this - I WILL NEVER DO THAT AGAIN.
I HOPE.
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Location: Buffalo, NY
04/21/04 12:22 - ID#35223
My Morning
And proper drunk I did get. Wow I'm a mess. MY fucking, fuck, fuckshit, ass, fuck, head hurts, fuck.
And I have work to do. A LOT OF WORK TO DO. OW. Bullshit. Fuck. Damnit fuck shit.
ah fuck.
shit.
fuck.
Aspirin. Yes aspirin. Fuck.
I don't think I'm getting my point across - I'm in pain. Okay, talk to you later.
fuck.
Ow.
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Location: Buffalo, NY
04/20/04 10:36 - ID#35222
My Issue
Paul, Terry and Emily pretty much summed up the day. To be honest, this has been an odd day all filled with massive realizations about myself which started at 8:11 in the morning after I woke up from the fifth alarm I set. Here it is.
I live in squalor and I don't mind.
But I realize that this might be why I'm off. My motivation is shit and if I think I'm more tired than I've ever been in my life. You know what, this is to much to get into right now.
I need a drink. I'll be doing the allentown circuit if anyone's out and about. I might just really dedicate myself to getting proper drunk tonight, so I apologize in advance to all.
I do this because I can, and therein lies my issue . . . or at least the start of it . . .
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Location: Buffalo, NY
04/19/04 12:39 - ID#35221
The Wrong War
It's called the Wrong War and 'tis brief . . . as a President's love. At this point, I don't think that even voting him out will make a dent in his plan. The damage is done and hate is in the world. Any hope? I'm looking for it.
I will be there tomorrow, rock in hand. That's most likely the only thing that will open this man's mind.
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Location: Buffalo, NY
04/18/04 11:34 - ID#35220
The Allegory of the Seashell, a question
But this time you find one that's incredible, and I mean great. Your pockets are full and you cannot carry anymore, so you have to carry it in your hand. But you also have a coffee in hand, so really, your choice is to either pick up the shell and walk back home to read the New Yorker over banana pancakes and/or avocado, ham, mushroom, and cheese omelettes, or rather continue down the beach looking for more, knowing full well that the shell in your hand (assuming of course that you cannot get rid of the shells in your pocket, as they are for someone else and you don't have the right) will suffer the fate of being moved and dropped when you find one that suits your needs more. It doesn't care, but your guilt is larger than any feelings this thing might have.
So here you are. A beach filled with sea shells, and breakfast waiting for you, getting cold.
Keep looking . . . or go and eat your omelette, shell in hand . . . what do you do?
any takers . . .
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Words: 239
Location: Buffalo, NY
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