06/12/05 11:59 - ID#33778

carrots were his favourite

My dad is trying to make him say something to me on the phone! Perhaps, he is just saying "leave me alone, I want to sleep!" but I hear it as a "hey Arzu I missed you too"...

Yeah, he wasn't the most well behaved dog in the world; he was especially bad to my boyfriends - even Orkan - ... He ate most of our shoes, all of my mom's lipsticks, whatever we accidentally left in our plates but after all when he laid down and opened his tummy, we always ended up patting him instead of punishing.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

06/12/05 11:01 - ID#33777

Goodbye my best friend...

He was the best friend a person could ever ask for... We knew each other since 1987... I still remember the day we brought him to our house; he was so tiny, so sweet, so black... I loved him so much. I can do anything now just to make him run towards me one more time with his ears jumping up and down.

I am so angry to myself for coming here to do some stupid art stuff, instead of staying and taking care of him in his last days, because he was always with me in my bad days, found a way to cheer me up.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

06/08/05 06:28 - ID#33776

Things to do

I don't know what kind of a talent is this that I can make myself always very VERY busy. This supposed to be the summer time, but everyday is full of something that I have to finish by the end of this month.

_Geethanjana's website.
_Insoon's Catalog
_Infringement Festival Promotional Stuff
_A residency Application
_A Presentation for the EPA Conference
_New Syllabus for the class

I want to go to a vacation, AGAIN! I guess I want to go to Mexico, this time. I watched "Y tu mamá también" last night that made me wanna go there. Actually it is the secong time I am seeing it; the first time I rented the DVD from Blockbusters but it was the censored version...so ridiculous. Then, I bought the DVD when I was in Columbus and watched it again last night. I really believe that it is a good one.

Anyways, I should go to my meeting now. And I'll eat some ice cream after that.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

05/29/05 12:49 - ID#33775

FLEA

You know she is a free cat, she goes out, comes in whenever she wants. She is using my appartment just like an hotel room for a long time, where breakfasts and dinners are included to the price. WHAT PRICE? Everything is just for a meaw.

I was happy about that for a long time until the day I saw her scratching madly. She has FLEAS. So i got her a flea collar. A pink one. She looks really cute with that.

Paul, maybe it would be good if we can erase a part of our drawings rather that deleting the whole thing. I want to correct my spelling mistake!! Flee / flea! :)

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Location: Buffalo, NY

05/23/05 04:53 - ID#33774

Hey Paul!

Deadline: September 1 2005
The University of Massachusetts Lowell , MA
The Art Department at the University of Massachusetts Lowell seeks qualified applicants for a full-time, tenure-track position to teach undergraduate courses in 3D digital animation, interactive digital media and immersive VR photography. A MFA is required as well as an active and growing record of creative and scholarly research, exhibitions and publications.

The position appointment is effective September 1, 2005 . Applicants must show proficiency in Lightwave, Maya, digital media authoring, video editing and audio, and
demonstrate an interest in and an understanding of new media theory and contemporary art and culture. Applicants must also show some experience in Web design and Macintosh lab management. Salary and benefits will comm ensurate with the rank of Assistant or Associate Professor.

To apply, send a letter of application, resume and portfolio. Please include examples of animation and digital
interactive media, examples of student work, teaching philosophy, syllabi, three letters of reference and a SASE and send to: Animation Search Committee, Art Department/UMass Lowell, 71 Wilder Street, Suite 8 , Lowell , MA 01854 .

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Location: Buffalo, NY

05/25/05 05:50 - ID#33773

219B is not mine anymore...

I cleaned my studio today. Everything is in boxes which perhaps I will never ever open again. The most sad thing was, I had to destroy one of my friends' artwork painted on one of the walls. It is not there anymore, just because of the silly rules of the department. Studios must look like hospital rooms, all white. I had to paint 4 layers of white paint in order to cover it. Actually I used light grey, I think that looks better!!!

I need to find a new studio space urgently. Before that, I need to find a job to be able to pay the rent of the new studio space. Future scares me. That is maybe good because I can't find energy to feel sad about now: leaving the school, leaving the studio that I spent my 2 years. I cleaned everything. Nobody can tell this space belonged to me. I even took the sign out which my name was written on...

I feel bad...

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Location: Buffalo, NY

05/22/05 10:35 - ID#33772

15 hours road trip with a digital camera

4 of 1000 pictures

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Location: Buffalo, NY

05/21/05 09:32 - ID#33771

Back in Buffalo...

I still can't believe how everything went that well. I know we (Liz, Robin, Soyeon and me) know each other for almost 2 years, but I never thought we were that close. We lived together for 5 days in Robin's parents house in Adairsville, Georgia. Everything was really REALLY good. (Especially the home made dinners of Mrs. Brasington)

I liked being in the South; I don't mind south, north, whatever... I LIKED the SUN. I liked waking up in a sunny day, siting on the porch swinging, drinking coffee, chatting with friends, playing with Maybell, jumping on the trampoline with Liz & Kia.

Life was so beautiful there. Now, I have to deal with the problems, which I was trying to forget for 5 days.

One of my students is unhappy with his grade (B-), and he is asking for an explanation. I am wondering, should I be really honest and tell him that he did a really bad job this in the class or try not to break his heart more?

First, I'll have my breakfast!

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Location: Buffalo, NY

05/12/05 01:48 - ID#33770

good days... bad days...

It is sad that I will never ever see some of these people again in my life. I am glad that we had this photo together... (photo by Jay Ariaz)

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Location: Buffalo, NY

05/09/05 01:09 - ID#33769

All papers due Monday

"Writing in English is the most ingenious torture ever devised for sins committed in previous lives." - James Joyce

I have never had the correct words to say - what is "a correct word" anyways - but admired people who are always full of with words for every occasion, where I could only stare. That's why actually I have always wished humans to have tails. Because, one can understand how an animal is doing just by looking at the tail: happy, scared, relaxed, emotional, sexually excited, sad... etc. It is so simple, so straight and so without connotations, which can make a person paranoid to think of if the person really meant something or tried implying something else? And if humans had the tails behaving totally instinctual, controlling and repressing the desire could have never been an issue. Though, some cultures would start circumcising tails or/and forbid women showing theirs in public places, thus, once again find ways to control people, prevent autonomous expressions and restrict them within the synthetic world of language.

A section from Arzu's paper, which has stuck at the sixth page. Not going anywhere.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

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