03/11/04 11:23 - ID#33260

Daddy Helps

I wrote my Dad a e-mail the other day telling him about how I didn't got the job I was hoping for and some other worries, this is the advice he gave me in return. I like it so I thought I'd share.

Do not get stressed out over petty items. Several years ago I was working on the Jewish Temple in Atlanta. I was complaining to an old Rabbi who had been a prisoner in the Nazi camps. The old Rabbi looked at me and told me I did not have a problem. He said now if someone cuts off you head and hands it to you, you have a problem. Otherwise, you just face a small nuisance.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

03/10/04 06:16 - ID#33259

Baubo

This is an image from the video I've been working on. Each layer moves, the eyes, the torso, the mouth.

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Missing Image ;(

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Location: Buffalo, NY

03/10/04 06:00 - ID#33258

Rise and Shine

I forced myself out of the bed at 3:45 and rushed down to the bank but those fuckers closed a few minutes early so I'm moneyless for the day. I had some dream where I was taking my little niece around a produce market and she kept getting into everything then Tony Conrad was cleaning up my living space because he wanted to snoop around in my stuff. He uncovered a crazy old painting that I had never painted but in the dream I had painted it. It was incomplete though.
I stayed out to late last night and got to drunk, whiskey and cokes. We went to town last night at 3 or so. Ivan almost passed out at the table. Sometimes I wish I had more of a handle on censoring the thoughts I choose to make verbal when drinking, oh well. Then I got home and typed back and forth to Courtney until 6am. She's crazy from to much work.
When Courtney and I were around 13 we stayed up all night one night waiting for the day light so we could walk half a mile down the road to another pasture and pick blackberries. We did it but the berry picking didn't last long because we were so damn tired. We got around half a bucket and then walked back home and slept all day. For the rest of that summer our schedule was topsy turvy and now I seem to be back on that schedule. It was fun then. Courtney lived at a house with a swimming pool.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

03/09/04 11:04 - ID#33257

Pink Tonight

come on, the libby is leaving, the blond bartender, she's super cool!

I slept till 7pm. I dreamed that I took my black cat up to the roof because she needed to be fucked. There was someone up there and rugs the cats sniffed the rugs and got all horny, then they started fucking, It was funny to see a cat standing on two legs fucking another cat from behind with it's little penis. I also dreamed about chasing teenaged boys because we needed their lizards, also I saw a little girl kill a lizard by pulling it's tail to many times. The lizard got all limp. It was sad. It looked like a little dead brontosaurus.

I've been thinking about my castration lately, I wonder how long I'll continue to bleed.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

03/08/04 08:32 - ID#33256

oh lord! I've decided that I'm not a wom

Crazy girls, Courtney we always seem to get each other in trouble. This is nothing new. Its been happening since the days Bevis and Butthead were on the tube, in fact that's one of the reasons we became friends in middle school, a mutual love of B & B. I feel like a butthead. I'm sleepy as all get out. I had a job interview this morning so I didn't sleep last night because I was afraid that I wouldn't wake up for the phone. I really hope I get this job. I need that money. I can teach kids digital video, no sweat. Please spirits, let me get the job, I am poor, my student loans are going to consume me.
I feel bad for the porn lady. She seems to be confused about sexuality but then who isn't. It's the caps that bother me. Porn is boring to me at this point, I'm desensitized to it I guess. I get sick of the female domination. I'd rather not have sex at this point.
In middle school I used to read all my mom's harlequin romances, then at 14 I started looking up porn. It seemed contradictory to me, the idea of romantic love and the image of pornography. I don't know what it is but I'm VERY turned off lately. I guess it's stress and the stalkers. I need to make things. I need to market my work. I'm damn tried on top of it.
I can go on like this forever and I think I will. I've got to make this installation for the show at city hall. I'm still all confused with my concept. It's about structures of organization.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

03/07/04 11:35 - ID#33255

I'm a liar!

It's true. I lie sometimes without even knowing it!

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Location: Buffalo, NY

03/06/04 06:44 - ID#33254

Bush Tax Cuts?

My sister just told me that the reason she just got a 2,500 tax return is because of Bush. This kind of confused me because I thought that Bush was all about tax cuts for the rich and my sister is not rich. She is 24 yrs old, she is a single Mom and lives with my parents. She works 3rd shift in a carpet mill. I'm happy about her tax return and I've been trying to persuade her to visit up here. Her baby, my niece, is the best most wonderful kid in the world. I think I miss my niece more than anyone else in GA, sorry Andy, he's a close second. Lori (sister) said that Bush gave tax cuts to people with kids. I still think Bush is a Shithead, of course, because of his stance on marriage and killing people.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

03/06/04 04:33 - ID#33253

Fucking Public Transportation!

I stood outside for and hour at north campus waiting for the god damn shuttle bus. I had a rough day but I brought it on myself. It started at the pink Thursday night. I had to many vodka tonics, so I tried to sleep away a brain splitting headache Friday morning. It didn't work. I finally got to school to finish my edit around 5:30 and then it was one technical bullshit problem after the other. I'm so frustrated, still even though the night has past. I'm bummed out because I missed seeing most everyone's work. If I had a car I would have been set. I lost at least three hours today dealing with public transportation. It so hard sometimes, I feel like I'm running in place without an audience to laugh at my folly. I miss things.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

03/05/04 05:04 - ID#33252

la la la la la la tonight!

Soundlab everybody, come on out to see some media trouble. I'm screening one of my new Baubo inspired videos!

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Location: Buffalo, NY

03/04/04 05:49 - ID#33251

working refrigerator and vagina smell

I just went to the store and bought all these things I haven't been able to keep in months. Hurray for the return of a functioning refrigerator! Thank you maintenance man. I have butter, cheese, frozen pizza, and milk. It is fantastic to know that I can make mac and cheese now. I just ate some canned ravioli with a piece of cheese melted on top. I'm like a gourmet cook or something.
I was putting on my gloves earlier tonight before heading off to the store when I noticed vagina smell on my hand. Then I remembered that I had rubbed my pussy, for some reason or the other, while sitting in my chair. When I did that I smelt my fingers and it was like the kick of a gun. I'm telling you if ladies go a day or two without washing their vaginas the smell is ferocious. I've been sitting in class before able to smell my own pussy and I wondered if others around me could smell it.
I put my hand under running water before heading to the store but the smell was still there. I figure aah, fuck it and went to the store anyway. When I was exchanging goods with the cashier I wondered if she smelled the pussy on my hands. I can still smell it. It smells like an animal but the cashier has a pussy so maybe she's used to pussy smell. I've never noticed woman smell except for my own and the time I sniffed my friends crotch in a pheromone contest at the pink (she won pits, i won pussy).
On the walk back from the store I started thinking about that big ass tropical flower (Amorphophallus titanium). It's the bigger flower in the world and it smells like rotten corpses to attract insects. Once the insects are inside the plant they get trapped and covered in pollen then the plant releases them and they go off to find another stinky flower carrying the plant sperm with them.