05/02/04 09:57 - ID#26556

i'm a horrible friend

my pal lindsay was visitng this weekend. we had good times in niagra falls yesterday, even though the weather was kind of iffy. then to the astronaut party.

linds said earlier that she'd just leave when she wanted to go. she had to leave buffalo early this morning to get her dog out of a kennel. so when we moved from julie's to the pink, she headed for my apt. but i felt bad about it. why did i want to drink more than hang out with my good friend who lives in philly? i have messed up priorities.

but most worst is that after the pink, i was walking home with tom and he wanted to see my place, or something, i guess, so he came up and linds let us in, then went back to bed and we had a drink and talked and talked. a couple hours later, she woke up and said she was going to leave for philly at 6am instead of 7 since she was awake anyway.

so she did and i didn't get a chance to properly apologize for being a shitty friend. i hate being drunk around people who aren't.

oh well, i need to write her a letter and apologize. but i'm still trying to wake up. i'm so glad school is over and i don't have to worry about tomorrow. tom stayed till 7am or so, until i was falling asleep while talking. (a similar situation to being drunk and talking to the sober). sorry, tom.

it's just better to be in control of your faculties in front of other people, even if they are your friends.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

04/30/04 05:44 - ID#26555

julie

i am sad that julie's going away for the summer. she wil miss the happenings at the pink and all else that buffalo offers in summertime (i can't wait). but also she'll be having her own rad time in AK, away up north.

i'm thinking of this cause i just saw her new primary pic on friendster. she's in her winter coat. makes me realize that she'll be in alaska this time next week. wearing her winter coat, i assume.

but she'll come back. buffalo's a fine place and it would be the same without her.

she better come back.

churchofjulie also has her website posted, featuring pics of the weddings at city hall. go check it out

good night

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Location: Buffalo, NY

04/29/04 03:36 - ID#26554

spring cleaning

today i want to clean. haven't pulled out all the stops (floors, windows, nooks&cranies) since living here. but i'm home and i'm not cleaning. i'm just thinking about cleaning and that seems to be just as good as cleaning. except that then my apartment isn't actually clean and i'll have to think about cleaning it all over again tomorrow. thinking about cleaning is actually more exhausting than doing the physical work. i should know--i've been thinking about cleaning for about 3 weeks now. i guess i should just roll up my sleeves and get to work.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

04/28/04 04:36 - ID#26553

Rock N Roll Buffalo

i think i've read and watched high fidelity too many times.

i've thought this many times in my life.

i used to be a dj at my college radio station and my listeners were veteran music buffs who said i had i good show. but even if i consider myself to have good taste in music, it doesn't mean that i know very much about music.

but i would love to know a lot about music.

but it's a similar crisis to paul's crisis with digital media (which i've also had many times). music and DM are dynamic fields. there is constantly something out there that's new to learn, to pick up, to know about.

knowledge takes too much energy sometimes.

but i still love digital media and i still love rock n roll.

that's why i'm glad i went to Mohawk Place tonight. i only saw/heard one song by the famed kimya -- it was very good. also caught the butchies set. it was good music, good rock n roll. get your fist in the air.

but it also made me sad that i don't know about music. not even the little bit i used to know when i was a once a week DJ. i want to work at championship vinyl, man. get me a job at empire records. anything.

in the real world, i'd enquire at home of the hits. but in the real world, i know i don't know enough for them. knowledge and the lack of it are both burdens.

if it weren't for the cover charges, i might consider making mohawk place, or even nietches my new home. but i can barely afford rent as it is, let alone weekly fees for live music.

but i do love it so. rock n roll buffalo.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

04/27/04 01:46 - ID#26552

self promo

my new digital poem, ActiveReader is up and ready.

dreamdilation.com/artintro.html

check it out and send me comments and ideas

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Location: Buffalo, NY

04/27/04 01:45 - ID#26551

LOVE

i'm feeling it.
this weekend was amazing.

conference so so
soundlab blew my mind
pink brought it home

i loved the fresh breeze of visitng artists, but even better it made me realize how much i love all the resident artists.

you guys are the reason i love buffalo.

screw school -- i would leave if it wasn't for our community, this community here on the strip.

paul, you rock for bringing us together like this

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Location: Buffalo, NY

04/15/04 06:03 - ID#26550

Honeymooning

I'm honeymooning with my newlywed color. Yesterday at the city hall show, my love of purple was affirmed by the Reverend Julie Perini. It was a quite moving experience.

I also married my darling, Soyeon. (i'm her sweetie!) It was kinda Vegas-style & last minute, but we did have some witnesses to make it official. We haven't discussed longterm plans or anything, but I don't think there's any annulment in the future or anything.

I'll post pictures when the Reverend gets them to me.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

04/05/04 12:22 - ID#26549

old men and taxes

a weekend full of nothing

well, i saw a movie. eternal sunshine of the spotless mind. it was okay. i enjoyed watching it, but it wasn't, like, the best movie ever, or anything. if you got a couple extra bucks, go see. but i don't know that if you don't, you'll really be missing that much.

also, was at the pink saturday for an early drink with churchofjulie. old men hitting on us. i'm tired of that. i need to learn that it doesn't matter if i'm rude to drunk old men, cause if i'm just the tiniest bit nice, it shows them that i'd be interested in spending the entire evening warding off their advances.

'course, it would probably be a different story if it was a hip, hot young man...

but today... my only action today was to get a library card. yeah! now i'm really a member of the community. plus i picked up some tax forms. i have to do my own taxes this year for the first time ever. i hope it's not as hard as it's rumored to be...

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Location: Buffalo, NY

03/26/04 05:11 - ID#26548

late again

why oh why is my sleep cycle fucked up this week?

i finally finished getting my website together for my review tomorrow. if you want to see what i have in my portfolio at the moment, go to

www.dreamdilation.com

i sad that i missed a probably very fun night at the pink. i was thinking about going down around 2am, but then i realized i haven't showered in a while and am not really fit for public consumption.

tomorrow my friend judy is coming for the weekend. yeah judy! sadly she leaves early on sunday, so there'll be no chance for sunday brunch at sybelles (i don't think that's how to spell that word). maybe saturday. i'll see what she wants to do.

also now i'm hungry but if i eat, then i'll probably be awake longer. arrrrgghhh. there's no solution.

here's the PJ bouncing flash test. it's not impressive, but i wanted to see what flash does on this here site.

::Download Flash SWF::

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Location: Buffalo, NY

03/21/04 01:47 - ID#26547

benefits of wakefulness

i finally got to sleep maybe around 5 am

but being awake was good cause i got to have a bit of email conversation with mike, awake in england (early morning for him).

so i think i'm going to make a short flash cartoon for his most recent character, PJ the Robot. with new flash capabilities, i'll post it up here when i'm done.

anything to keep me from working on my mid-year review stuff. friday, stay away!

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