I'm in total shock, and disbelief, that it is already the new year - 2004 - that's crazy. Another year flew by ... another year to leave behind. Here is to new beginnings!

These past couple of days have left a sour taste in my mouth, along with a stomach that's feels as though its swimming in anxiety and confusion. Nervousness - oooohhhh yeeeaaahhhh.
"Please, Please, Please ... Let me, Let me, Let me ... get what I want, this time ..."
TK - you feel me, don't you??? hahha - we love it.

But that is my phrase of the day, or rather for the past couple of days, and until I encounter this unknown thing that's plaguing my heart and ....... yuck. Anyways ...

Happy New Year to everyone - Party at my place tonight - 488 Breckenridge St. Second floor.

Christmas was very strange this year ... for the first time it didn't feel like christmas, most likely because this year is totally different and unpredictable from my past years. I didn't go to Church this year,for the first time, on Christmas - that threw me off a little bit also. I didn't really feel like going, because I usually find it to be really boring and meaningless these days - which could be a bad thing?? I just don't really know how I feel about my religion lately, so I have combat some of these obstacles ... but in the meantime, I will just be in that endless battle, as it seems to be lately.

Having a special "man friend" this year for Christmas was another strange thing. I actually got to bring 'i' to my family party on Christmas Eve, and he also got the opportunity to wake up in the morning at good old Andy and Linda's house, and see our Christmas morning thang'! It was funny. He liked his gift though, which is a good thing. Quite nervous about that one, so I am extremely glad it is over now.

I got some candy coated love for Christmas this year, which was very nice, and a damn good deck of Tarot cards - so I will be doin' some homework with those in the near future.

All in all, things change, and I like that - but at the same time, it really throws me into a strange loop somewhere out there. To deal is a great challenge, and I suppose I am always up for that.

It's the weekend though!! Hmmmm, what is gonna happen? We will see...

So extremely excited, for today is my last day of work for almost a week!!! Thank god for the Holidays!!! I am very sick of my desk job - need some excitement; need a challenge. I just cannot believe that it is already Christmas time again ... seems like just yesterday it was the beginning of summer!! Life is just flying by, it's scaring me!

I have been in pretty good spirits today, which is pleasant for me, and for others around me, but I do just have one thing to say, in reflection of this weekend ... well, actually, in reflection of the past month or so, too...

"Do unto others, as you would have them do unto you"

A little bit of brain candy for ya'll...

Have a good one

Oh yeah, and I think we actually will be having a New Years Eve Party ... so come on down to the Breckencrib everyone, and celebrate with us!

I tried to do this the other day, but it didn't work, but I'm in now. It's Monday, the 22nd, and I hate Mondays ... had a pretty okay weekend, except for Friday night, because I was sick. My flacid friend introduced me to this site, and I will try to keep up with my journal as much as possible. I actually think it might be easier to keep up with this one, versus my hand written journal.
Went to the Claremont christmas party on saturday ... many good times, but I was in rare form, I must admit - Bacardi will do that to me, unfortunately, along with a mix of cold medicine (probably not too smart!! ). My hands are a little swollen though, as I participated in the drum circle for awhile there. Must have been beating on the drum a little wrong, and now have somewhat bruised hands. Lost my keys to my car/house that night too...or else I thought I did, until I realized they were tucked into my fancy holiday spirit skirt!! Funny stuff - I'm turning into a bad professional drunk. I will cleanse myself for a few days, until christmas. Ok, I really do abuse my priveledges at work, so I must go now. Good day.