Hahahah - I really am suprising myself on how much I have been slacking with this lately. I thought it would be easier for me to keep up with this journal, day to day...but I have found myself keeping up more so with my written journal at home - Oops! Well, that's a good thing, but, anyways....I had a strange, strange weekend. I came to find out that I have to take a break from someone that I love so much - that I thought was different. She is being changed by drugs - they are taking over her body, mind and soul. I hate it - and she really let me down this weekend...so much that it was one of the components of my stress and anxiety, that eventually caused me to have a severe panic attack while driving on a thruway to New Jersey on Friday evening, all by myself!! It's funny that both times that I have had those awful attacks have been while I was driving on a thruway - not in daylight. Scary as hell, let me tell you. I have to step back and take a really good look at things in that department, with people like that - and steer clear of things that will cause me so much stress. I will also make it a point to never drive that far of a distance, by myself ... at least, for awhile.

I had a nice relaxing Sunday evening, and yesterday too, which helped end my long weekend on a good note. I am extremely exhausted today though ... it seems like I can just never get enough sleep these days.

According to Dr. "can't remember his name," with 'some study,' sleeping from 4.5-6.5 hours per night/day will lead to the longest lasting life and health.

I don't even think I am getting that, so that sucks!! Crap!! I'll have to work on that.

Well, I am excited to be home in Buffalo, and I am excited for Saturday, because it is Neil's Birthday!! Happy Stupid Valentines Day too!! Yuck!! hahaha