So, I don't know why, but all of a sudden I feel really...crappy? Down? Sad? I don't know. Its a feeling I have not had for a LONG time; like when I was back in High School. I don't like it when i feel such things like this. Oh no..I feel a dark poem coming on....


The ice falls down from the sky,
the people scamper in where its dry;
Cars go whizzing by,
without a care in their eye.

Alone I sit as I hear the water freeze,
and I wonder, "is this what it is all about?"
Next to my little four foot Christmas tree
with its lights all a glow, I sit and ponder
thinking it all out.

The noise from the freshman as they walk by
remind me of how obsolete I have become;
I am seen as the "authority" and nothing more,
not someone they can talk to or become friends with.

Happy yes, happy no;
I just don't know.

There are times that I wish,
years ago I succeeded in somethings,
but ended up failing instead.

Everyday is a new experience,
looking forward to the day ahead;
never thought I would see them,
thought i'd be dead.

Here I sit, alone in my room,
without a care.

I have forgotten what it was like not to have to worry about getting school work completed. I'm sitting here in my office filling out 16 RA evaluations (which I should REALLY be doing instead of typing away on this) and am thinking to myself, "What am I going to do tonight?"What papers, or questions, or summaries do I have to do?". And then I remember, "Oh...i'm done for the semester". I can primarily focus on my acutal Assistant Hall Director Work! How weird!

Last night, going to a holiday party with (e:Ladycroft) was really what I needed. I needed a chance to get away from the hall, my job, the responsibility and just be me. Iy has been so long since I have been able to be myself. But let me just say...I REALLY enjoyed it! I am making my New Year's Resolution early: I need to get away more and enjoy life to the fullest. HAPPY NEW YEAR (18 days early...)

So I guess I have succumbed to peer pressure and joined Elmwood Strip. I have been hearing about this site since September. It was not up until only a few min. ago...perhaps 30 min, that ( (e:Ladycroft)) finally convinced me to join and see what it is all about. I guess I should wait and see how this goes.