I'm not one with words so i hope this comes out ok.

I've known Erin for about a year now. The first time that i met her tho was about a year and a half ago. I saw her for like a second and thought she was cute. If i looked at her longer than second i would have realized that cute isn't enough to describe her.

Nearly six months past and our paths crossed again. I met her through a friend and got to know her a little bit better. Ever since that night I've started to have these strong feelings for her. So i started hang in out with her and my friends Betsy and Tim. She worked with Betsy so that gave me a shitty excuse to go see her. This kind of went on for awhile.

To but it simple shes the type of girl that you think a lot about and can't get out of your head but in a good way. Great personality, beautiful looks, very smart, really funny (especially when a little tipsy), and speaks a foreign language (sexy). She has everything I've been looking for and more. I was going to go to Europe with her and some friends but that won't be happening now. It sucks cause i was hoping to get closer to her.

Here's to maybe one day having the best thing that's walked into my life and never letting it go.

(Erin this is basically what those song lyrics mean to me)

Where to start that's the question. Well, got up at eight to get ready for my meeting at Circuit Shitty. That sucked because the meeting started at nine and went till ten. Some would say "Why does that suck? You only had to be there for an hour." SI'mple answer because it interfered with my precious tI'me of tailgating at the bills game. What is one to do in this situation. MMMMMMM let me think i got it ill fill half of my Pepsi with Jack Daniels. Let me tell you that meeting starting to get really interesting. Fuck'em they should have saw it coming.

We got to the bills parking lot at about quarter after ten. At this point i have a wicked buzz going on. Lets just say we consumed a lot of beers around the Olson Cruzier. Its been along while since Ive been that drunk and out of control. It was a lot of fun and Olson got a taste of his own medicine. Sorry buddy now you know how it feels.

While all this was happening my friend Erin called me. My friend Jay and i went to go visit her because she was catering at someones tailgate. That was a lot of fun. Mind you i was drunk. O yea i forgot to mention that i like her to. Anyways she stopped over at the Olson Cruzier when she had to pass out flyers. Then a weird thing happened. A couple people kept on calling her my girl while she was standing right next to me. Actually i don't she or anyone else noticed. I don't know if I'm retarded or what but i liked hearing it.

Ok i guess its time to put some kind of personal info in my journal.
I'll drop a little more history on my whole Erin situation. This will be the only journal ill refer to her unless she has no problem with this. Well im running out of room so this will be continued onto another.

I just finished my first manager duties. Bare with me I'm a little drunk. If i have to get this drunk each time out i don't know if i can do this. I worked my ass off tonight. I must have got at least four numbers tonight to book shows. Hopefully, this will all pay off for North Park Project. Some would say why do you do this? I guess my answer would be out of friendship. I don't see these guys as a business venture. To me their my friends and i want nothing but sucess for them.They have the talent weather they believe it or not. We played at the Continental tonight and they played an awesome show. If they play every show with as much heart as they played tonight that makes it worth my while. I wish i had some musical talent to contribute to this band.

Drinkin jack and Dr.pepper today. Who would have thought that would be a good combo. Well just to let you know its GREAT!!!!
Just chillin at my friend Erin's house. She wouldn't let me help with the dishes so here i am typing away.
I'm also waiting for NPP's slacker of singer to find out if he has to work Thursday. Hopefully he isn't so we can play a show then.

I have no sympathy for ODB aka, Russell Jones aka, Dirt McGirt aka, Osiris aka, Big Baby Jesus.
Now here are the reasons why he should get no respect:
1993 convicted of assault
1997 arrested for failing to pay child support for his three children
1998 pleaded guilty to assaulting exwife
1998 arrested for stealing sneakers
1999 arrested for crack possession (Crack kills. No one probably informed him that)

Who steals sneakers? In 1998, the Wu-Tang Clan were making millions.
The best part is Wu-Tang Clan had their own clothing line. If he stole Wu-Tang shoes was he stealing from his own company or was he testing them.

Yes he's dead we get it. Stop. Like he was even someone to look up to. I don't think so. He made millions with the Wu-tang and still used food stamps. Thats a fuckin disgrace. The only credit i can even give him is that he was the first lil john.

WOW what a game. Gotta love them bills. O wait that's right they lost. Well, here's hoping for a 10-6 season. Did anyone see J.P. Losman? He didn't look much better but he only had three plays. At least we know he can run and avoid a sack.

I'm already sick of this cold weather. My fucking bedroom is like a freezer. That's it for tonight off to bed in the queen size.

North Park Project and I attended the show at the Dome Theatre last night. I guess i was pretty critical on a lot of the bands that played that night. As a manager i think that is in part of my job description tho. A lot of the bands were some what average. Like i stated in previous journal with a slight adjustment "What happened to all the good buffalo bands?" After a disappointing turn out we still managed to make the best of it. The best thing that came out attending the show was that i think it was a big confidence booster for North Park Project.

I've come to realize that over the past couple years the band scene has not been the same. As different genres of music come and go our buffalo bands have gone as well. There is not one night i can't go out and hear something good. If I'm at a club i have to suffer thru hours upon hours of shitty house music. I'm sorry but there is only so much Lil john a guy can take. MMM What, Yeah, Ok. If thats talent then shoot me because id rather be dead. But, it doesn't end there the music of today all sounds the same no matter what type you listen to. I'm not sure why its so different from the bast. Maybe its the radio shoving the shit consistently down our throats or maybe its because everything has already been done. Things need to change and if anyone has any ideas let me know. Anyways, lets go back to the local scene for a minute. Is it me or do you feel that anytI'me you see a band performing at a bar they seem to be a cover band. Everywhere i go its always some cover band playing. I don't have anything against cover bands. It just comes to a point where you would like to hear someone play their own thing. I guess what I'm trying to say is if i wanted to hear popular music i would put my five dollars in the jukebox to hear the better version.

Well, i finally got my journal going. This is the first of many weird things ill probably post. Ill keep it pretty easy to understand to start. I'm very excited about being the manager for the band North Park Project. In my opinion, the best band out of buffalo since the Goo Goo Dolls. Well, that is if they can keep on getting along. Hopefully i won't fail them. They have good things coming to them. Now if only i can get them to play out.