Remembering Joshua. Smiling every time I say my son's name in full. He was named after a terrific guy!


2005, outside kunie's before a night out at the pink


2006, at my birthday party at the 333

Had our first post natal group session today. Things I am glad to know are normal and I'm not alone on:

I dream EVERY night, sometimes multiple times, that I am breastfeeding. Then I wake in a panic when all I see in my arms is a pillow. I frantically start searching the bed for him, then realize he's still in his moses basket.

I have an insatiable appetite for cookies, cakes and ice cream.

I still have pregnancy brain.

My feet are bigger.

I have a constant backache.

Peeing a little when I sneeze or cough really hard is more common in women who had back labour.

I think I'm not interacting enough or the right way with my baby.

Tobie is old enough we could try introducing a bottle here and there. I was able to express milk so Rory could do one mid night fee at the weekend, allowing me a bit of uninterrupted sleep. I felt so much better!

Tobie took a few tries to get the hang of it but succeeded in the end. We'll just do it on the weekends for now. In another month we might actually get to go on a date longer than an hour and a half.

We took our first trek into London last Friday to visit the office peeps. Here's the two of us outside the building.

Tobie is a month old already! I think time went quickly because I've been living in a constant zombie state. No one ever really tells you the real story of childbirth and the aftermath. Never mind the physical difficulties, but mentally it's a mind fuck. One day you're carrying a bowling ball in your stomach, the next you are just a feeding machine with what feels like 4 butt holes and a tree trunk rammed up your hoo hoo! Breastfeeding isn't all sweets and roses like people make it sound either. It's hard work for mom and baby to get going. Proud to say I persevered as many women give up easily!


He finally let me have 24 minutes during my wakeful moments to play some nintendo!


Exercising his neck muscles during tummy time


Ready to go for a walk