I'm going to be away from AZ for most of July and I seriously can't wait. I've been good recently about not spending and I should be able to safely take two months off work if needed. I plan to begin the big job search in the next week...

I am going to San Francisco for the first time! So exited to see family I haven't seen since I was 21 and see Northern California.

I finished reading the Great Gatsby today and its a sad story... I literally knew nothing about the story other than it involving rich people.

Buffalo next week!!!

I've wanted a ripped bod my whole life but I just love meat and cheese so much and hate exercise... I recently embarked on a fitness challenge where I do tons of squats and legs and ab work... I do really need to eat less ad more healthy though. It's just so hard when you serve food and drinks all day and you can eat for free and as much as you would like. I am determined to be able to do 50 push-ups in a row by the end of the month. I love that sore feeling in my arms and they are actually getting stronger. :)

I decided I love this photo minis my double chin... My goals for this month are to eat way more veggies and less carbs and do at least 120 squats, 50 push-ups, and 300 crunches a day.


My other goal for this week is to read The Great Gatsby and apply for at least 3 jobs.... Countdown to the wedding of the year!!!!

It's time to start being serious about my new sport of choice. It's actually fun... I actually hit the ball most times. And most times it goes straight... :) I'll have to post a pic of my new apparel... Apparently golf is a lifestyle and I have to look the part right?! I kinda like the reemergence of my old sporty self, but with better style this time. Happy Sunday!

(e:hodown) and zooey left yesterday... im so sad. hoping some time with friends can cure that.

zooey is just the sweetest most loving little girl... so smart for her age too. she can already spell a few words and has one to one correspondence down so she can add numbers. i should bring some educational games to blo for her when i come in july.

trying to find any sort of vacation rental in blo... and it appears everything is already booked or far away from the city. might be camping out on linwood.... plus i feel like i need a car too and this gives me stress because i hate spending money and i've spent too much this past month.

i work 6 days this week, which is good because i won't have time to spend. a month until the course closes and i need to figure out what i'm doing next. anyone know anything about teaching english abroad? it appears you have to pay to take a course... i ain't paying for shiz. if that's the case, i shall just continue with my previous plan of being a trainer or working for an educational company, book publisher, etc.

you know what the worst feeling in the world is? it's when you loan someone money not realizing they are a basic and they will never pay you back. another weird feeling is when you get a late night text from a random and they will not reveal their identity.... so was it someone i used to know? sometimes, i guess you gotta just let it go. ima keep in 100 on my end though.

i do routine sweeps on my phone and basically everyone i never speak to or now dislike gets deleted.... this is good and bad because then i have no clue who is texting me half the time. i also never save new numbers so when i look through my messages it is all these random numbers and then i have to read the texts to figure out who is who. i just feel like unless you are family, close friend, or important work contact, you don't really need to be in there. mmmk?

maybe if i go do some squats and pushups i'll release the negative energy of these loserish people and i can continue my day in a positive way. :)

or maybe i will cut all my jeans into cut off shorts because thats all i wear now. and cut oversize tees into crop tops. trailer trash chic??? can i wear that to the wedding with heels?

They need to make a body scanner for this shit. And it should read, "asshole, ok, iffy, trustworthy".

So... Since this is completely not possible and people do things with weird motivations and self interests... I will take it upon myself to let people know exactly how I feel and what my boundaries are.

I am feeling I can't trust someone... So I am going to just say why I feel this way, what I need to feel comfortable, and hear what the other person has to say. This is emotionally mature right?


Although I still appear to be in my young 20's, and love to have fun.... It just isn't fun for me to sit around and wonder what's up in any sort of human relationship. Now, I can or expect the other person to be honest or appreciate this kind of communication... But I feel like the good eggs will. ;)


It's never bad to be a nice person... But some people mistake niceness for weakness and that ain't me heaux!!!!!!