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11/21/2011 18:23 #55569

barely made it
My hike today was especially difficult...

Maybe because it was my third day in a row, or maybe I was going much faster than usual. Not sure... Anyway it was good either way.

Then I was late to work... The children I nanny keep getting home earlier and earlier. What is the point of having school until 3PM when the buses leave at 245? Their mom will have to figure this out because my classes and internship don't end until 245 and I am tired of speeding and risking my life to get here on time.


I just applied for scholarships, grants, and extra loans. I am saying a prayer I get some financial help because it will be near impossible to work next semester. I am doing well now but that is because I have a very strict schedule and little to no free time or social life.


I was so out of breath!!! If you can see the winding road way down at the bottom, that's where I started.


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tinypliny - 11/21/11 20:34
yeah, totally kate winslet. Anyone who doesn't see it... well, is not me.
tinypliny - 11/21/11 20:33
wow that is so awesome! Wish I was ten minutes from that place you posted!

Ten minutes by walk, right? Or ten minutes by highway?
lilho - 11/21/11 19:21
Its about ten minutes, maybe less. Where I live is among the most beautiful places I've ever been. Come visit! I'm moving in a year!
libertad - 11/21/11 19:18
Where you live looks so nice. How many minutes is this from your house?

11/20/2011 21:14 #55567

mmmm sunday.
i woke up at 10 or 11 today.... this hasn't happened since,

well i am not sure. then i had coffee, breakfast, and shopping for thanksgiving food.

i came home and painted my nails, finally. the toes are next... i also attempted to watch green lantern and that movie is such a corny piece of crap i turned it off...

i went on my 4 mile hike. i made my best time yet, 75 minutes up and down and i even stopped to rest a few times. now i feel kinda sore and sleepy.

i am loving the colder weather, makes me want to cuddle up in blankies and comfy clothes.

i didn't do:

laundry

homework

anything else.

what a great relaxing weekend.

for (e:tinypliny).... the polish is already kinda messed up but oh well.

it's a mix of grey and purple...
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eating right and making time for fitness is really a challenge, but i feel so good about it. i guess i'm making an entire lifestyle change. feels good.
tinypliny - 11/20/11 23:23
That is one of my favourite colours! Royal deep purple! Nice. :)

11/17/2011 09:36 #55534

almost le weekend
does anyone else find school stressful? i think that's why it's taken me so long. i'm tired of getting up at 5am.... and i'm tired of writing, and then writing some more.

i want to paint my nails!!!!!!!!!!! this weekend i am going to:

clean

do laundry

hike

circuit train

sleep

paint nails

sleep

do homework.

tomorrow i have to get up at 5am, try to hike, intern, work one job, then another job. 8am-1030pm... longest day ever. boo.

apparently the people from the restaurant are supposed to call but i am so over it. who runs a business like that? apparently lots of people... i really just don't want to work anymore until i graduate. it's so confusing and busy... probably why i am so stressed and have zero social life.

to all young people. go to class and don't screw it up the first time around and then you won't have to be old and unaccomplished like me.
tinypliny - 11/18/11 12:37
Just so you know I feel pretty unaccomplished even though I have never skipped a single class ever. I have come to a conclusion, school is not for accomplishment, it's for developing thinking skills and the ability to stand your ground, and yet, be humble enough to accept that you are always error-prone and life is always uncertain, no matter how accomplished anyone might or might not feel. It is also for instilling perseverance in the face of temptation and the determination to see things through, regardless of how tough and unpleasant it might be. Lastly, it is for looking at yourself frankly and appreciating what you have and deciding to at least try to achieve what don't have (and I don't mean material things at all).

11/16/2011 09:20 #55522

mounting frustration
if there is one thing that i absolutely cannot stand it is being ignored, or being avoided. the manager from the restaurant i started at called me off on sunday because it was going to be too busy?! ok, so then she said she would call me monday. no call. so i called her, it is now wednesday morning and still no call.

it is safe to say i am done with her and her shady ways. if you don't like me or want me to work for you, just tell me. i won't cry, unless you really yell at me and call me worthless0 then i might cry.

the icing on the cake is she is getting married this weekend and asked me to cater at her wedding, yeah right lady. i bet she will call friday or something... idk i don't care for her ways but the money would be good.

really, if you know me and you avoid me or have before, you know this is not a good idea. why can't people just face each other and say what they have to say in an honest way without being intentionally hurtful and then move on?

so, it was such a waste of my time to fit that endeavor into my schedule. seriously, i don't like my time being wasted. i'll figure something else out, i can be a nanny on the weekends i am sure. really working with children is like my calling because there is never a shortage of children and parents who seem to really love me. i'll take this as a sign!

i got on the scale and it says i weigh 3 lbs more. i think it's water weight but it's irritating me.

i need to hike and i want someone to just call or text me and say, "you can do it." just for that extra push.

it's the end of the semester and i am lacking enthusiasm for any type of school related activity. i can't wait to just have a break and do nothing but work, work out, paint my nails, do laundry, watch movies, sleep, and literally nothing else.

my life is simple one these days, save for my vegas and blo trip which i'm sure will be action packed. life is better when it's simple... 2012 is the year i rely on my strengths to get where i need to be.

i feel like doing nothing today... when i need to hike, intern, work, project meeting, hw, laundry, cleaning.... paint nails(not going to happen). blah.
lilho - 11/18/11 22:13
That made me laugh... I'm not that stylish but I wish I was. I'm mostly a poor student!
tinypliny - 11/18/11 22:10
Sounds very cutting edge!!! Would love some pictures. You are my only fashion icon. :)
lilho - 11/18/11 22:01
There are base colors and glazes, and supposedly you paint on the base and then the glaze and combined it creates a different colors depending on how many coats of each shade you use. Ill try it this weekend and post a pic.


Its most likely made of toxic stuff like most nail polish.
tinypliny - 11/18/11 21:47

this new special nail polish where you can make your own colors


I am curious. Do you know how this works? Are there any limits to what colors you can get? What is it made of?
metalpeter - 11/16/11 16:48
So You have been hired? Now granted I have never worked that type of job... But there is training and the new people from what I have heard start out when it is slow and get worked in.... It could be that you are what is known as fill in help.... Meaning when someone calls in or has to go home early or wants a day off then you get to work.... That being said I have some memory of putting in an application at like a Burger King and now that I think of it... They Needed help but yet couldn't hire me cause they didn't have the time to train me.... I choked that up to really meaning that they needed someone who all ready knew how to do the Job..... This could be the case in your case?
tinypliny - 11/16/11 09:38
Maybe not in an hour... around 3 hours (but I lose it in the next hour). You will too.
tinypliny - 11/16/11 09:37
Jokes apart, everyone has this phase of ennui and annoyance mixed together. I am really sure that you will get through this all. And 3 lbs is nothing. It's around 1/3rd of what a gallon of water weighs. I can easily push up my weight by 5 lbs if I am determined in an hour. :)
lilho - 11/16/11 09:33
and thanks.... i needed that!
lilho - 11/16/11 09:32
my sister bought me this new special nail polish where you can make your own colors.... i want to try it!
tinypliny - 11/16/11 09:31
You can do it. :-)


PS: LOL @ 2 mentions of painting nails.

11/14/2011 17:52 #55512

awkward moments
I swear my life is filled with these. I attempt to avoid people and places in order to lower the risk of these situations but they still occur.


Went hiking again today, was definitely more challenging than yesterday but I made decent time and pushed myself to the top.

So I ran into a former coworker on the mountain. Not exactly a place you can avoid someone... We didn't really care for eachother either. Anyway, we played nice and exchanged pleasantries and went on our way.


I'm so excited. I lost 10 lbs in about 3 weeks just by eating healthy and working out. I even cheated a few times. I can't wait to see how fit I can get. I feel great and I'm really proud of myself. :o)

AfroJedi - 11/15/11 16:17
Gods, I hate those! Point in fact, I'm about 15 minutes away from my own...
libertad - 11/14/11 18:35
You are always working so hard! I just had my own very awkward moment, except no pleasantries were exchanged. We looked right at each other and didn't say a word. I sort of wish we could at least fake it but that is unlikely to occur. Somethings are just so complicated.