Yes I am today. I'm not sure if its because I'm finally missing my mother. Or if the family mess just caught up to me, and being around my sister and nephew is filling me with emotion. Between all that and moving back to buffalo is a lot to take in. but I can't stop crying, thankfully I'm by myself right now so no one can see me. On top, of all this I have a guy who is falling for me hardcore in buffalo, but still lives with his boyfriend or ex boyfriend who knows. I just don't know why it can't be a little easier for me. I'm a good man and loves everybody and does good things, I just feel there is some force against me that's holding me back from the happiness that everyone else gets so easily. I don't really know what else to say. Love y'all xoxo

So a guy at wurk was totally sweet on this "lady" cook we have. Every day he would come in and kiss "her" on the mouth and squeeze her all the time. Now Blyss the cook is big and black and the server is a 5 foot 6 inch white boy. So finally today someone told him and it was the funniest thing ever. He turned so red!!!! But he took it very well and he laughed but said it wasn't funny. So the entire day I'm laughing at him and I find out 15 mins ago that the boy I have the biggest crush on for over a year at wurk, used to be a woman named Amanda!!!! Holy shit I wanted to tap that so bad. That's why he hasn't bit, she like girls. Man this world is funny.....

It's exactly what it sounds like. A car diving and someone throwing beads and me getting hit in the face. They did it out of love though :) but this bitch wanted to cut my hair a little so I let her. I told her she can take the sides down scourge a bit. Mind you I haven't had anyone cut my hair In five years. She skinned the side of my head bald!!! WTF mate!!!! I got soooo mad I made her stop and not finish the other side.......bitch, never again.

I did run across something here in NOLA I've never seen before and that was this little girl had to be about 8 or 9. She was dancing around this street sign pole just like a stripper. Where were her parents I ask? TAKING PICTURES!!! I mean what the damn?!?! What kind of twisted shit is this? Now come ten years from now there shouldn't be any surprises. Only in new orleans I guess, people just come to this city and lose their minds. I got about two more weeks of this craziness then back home I am, yay. Still haven't figured out how to post my videos yet. I'm gonna get Paul to help me when I get back, they are pretty. Anywho peace out estrip love y'all!!!

I'm listening to my body and finally taking a night off with my friend
Skeeter. We got off wurk late and everyone is already drunk. Very Drunk, I mean hammerd. This shit is funny too all kinds of messes. One guy in particular walking on packed burbon, this guy slips on beads and eats it!!! So most people paused to look besides one guy walking by A foot away from him points and laugh at him and continues walking. That made the entire crowd erupt in laughter. Seriously the funniest thing I've seen in a while. So after 15 mins of french quarter walking we decided to call it a night. I didn't even finish my beer.

After three days in a row of meeting friends and others flying in, parades and tons of drinks.I'm done :) and it's not even mardi gras yet. I'm gonna get rest tonight for sure. I'm trying that thing paul mentioned to post some videos of this trip, so soon I will do it. Just now six drunk people just walked in the door I'm sorry seven people. I guess that's the price you pay for staying in the french quarter. This messy queen who's our friend walked in with girls that we don't know.omg fur real...... I gotta go guys love y'all xoxo

Night three in a row!!!! Mardi gras is in full swing, wurk was crazy busy. After one of the parades lastnight, I'm already worn out. As soon as I get off wurk drinks and shots are on the table, and EVERYONE is having fun. I have videos of the parade lastnight but not really too sure how to post them. I'm having fun and in need for two days sleep. I love you buffalo!!! Xoxo