Ok Peeps,

Who's being selfish when both people love each other as much as any two people could, but one dose or doesn't want something so they part?

I've seen this happen a bunch before. There's…er was, this really cool couple who used to live upstairs from me when I lived in Allentown, that are clearly no longer together. They seemed to be made for one another. He was one of the coolest break dancers I've ever know and she painted everything she ever owned bright pink. I think she still has a few colors in her hair. I've since seen the dude at parties and bars. He often looks rather dejected and kinda alone, but he would always look that way i guess. A bit of a recluse that must have been in heaven to have such an extravert all to him self. So I guess his loneliness is a bit more pronounced of late. When they were dating the girl was faaaat, even if she was stylish. She ran it all off one year and I was like, "Way to go, go for you!" I wondered why anyone could be motivated to get them selves more in shape after they've been in a really long term relationship and got "comfy". Later I saw her with her son and a relatively dis-intersting boyfriend at the Arf Festival and the story just told it self. Made me sad.

Ok there's another account too. A good friend who has what I classify scientifically as a spiny personality. They're good at heart, but you've got to navigate some rather sharp stiff and unyielding aspects before you can enjoy them, found someone who could, but since the girl in the couple wanted a baby eventually (not right away) and he didn't they called it quits and just tried to be friends.

I feel like If you're a man it's in your biology to crave and receive sexual attention that should never cause any further responsibility beyond being the kind of lover your mate expects after having to suffer nocturnal emissions and constant hormonal agitation your whole life since puberty. And if you're a woman your biology entitles you to have something come of all this sex with destructive insensitive brutes and menstrual cycles at some point in your life after having to suffer through it all since you started bleeding weather you were ready or not.

I guess you could view my perspective as a bit jaded or one sided since I have reproduced (albeit not nearly in the most idea situation), but what do you think? I know there are alternatives, but how could anyone watch the love of their lives walk away just because they wanted or didn't want to have a baby, or live in a new town? It's such a cold hard choice, I hope I never have to make it. What choice could cause you to tear your self away from the comfort and security of real love with someone if you ever found it? It's not fun to think of, but if you're brave enough share…

who could say no to a face like this...

Hi peep'lz

I've made a lot of strides going to the gym lately. I'm down to 220lbs. which is pretty good for an (e:enknot) but my BMI is still 27.5 which is over weight according to this calculator (http://www.nhlbisupport.com/bmi/). I think that maybe I just have heavy bones, but there's a bone on top of my abs that is kinda flabby that's telling me I might be wrong, so I'm going to pump up the cardio until that goes away. I bought roller blades and my bike is in great working order so if you ever wanna do that kinds stuff shoot me an email (they come to my phone so they're as fast as text messages)

I was going to the gym in the mornings for a while, and it kept me consistent and able to do things at night that were not the gym (I have a social addiction), but I've come to find that saps my ability to do things during the first part of the day which matters a bunch. I can't concentrate at work, and I'm kinda drowsy for the first part of the day no matter how much sleep I got that night. That is just not good. For to many reasons. You people don't pay taxes so state employees can stare sleepily at their computer screens...well not this one at least.

So, I'm moving my work out to night times. I like to work out with people, I feel like you can get more done that way, and I've bumped into more people at night when I go to the gym, so this might actually do us all some good.

Last night I saw my old nerdy co-worker Jake Mabee (pronounced "maybe", yeah I have fun with that) and we did legs and chest and I can still feel a nice dull ache. He taught me how to do dead lifts and my whole self feels chewed on. My other buddy told me that there's a human growth hormone that released when you do your legs that works body wide, and I figured if I'm going to use some growth hormone on anything else I'm going to use it on pecs. I still have the Ren Hoeck dream of having humongus pectoral muscles. I think ladies like em... I do too, make my shirts look better on me and naked time more fun for everyone involved...and I'm trying to get as many people involved as i can at this point in my lame dating life :)

Later peeps.

Ok,

So just came back from the sprint store to help my mom with her Samsung Rant which keeps breaking over and over again and I found out that if you downloaded the software for the HTC Hero 200 within the first 3 days you got hosed.

I redownloaded the file and a. it only took a minute or two this time and b. it had a new version number (it's HTC Sprint Hero MR 2.27.651.6.exe now), so if you got yours around then and noticed anything wonky with your phone (slower, battery eating madness, hinky installs and sluggish everything in general) that's prolly why.

I'll update this posting to tell you what's different about the performance. I think it's fishy that there's a newer firmware update that they didn't let anyone know anything about, but I guess if you're that much of an early adopter you'd know something fishy was going on and check your self. For those of you how haven't I guess this blog entry may suffice.

Ooh, on the way to updating I found MyBackup. It's an android app that lest you back up everything on the phone call logs, sms, and mms where the things I was there for, but you can back up much more like apps and system settings and other stuff so you don't have to go re downloading things, which is nice since your google account only remembers apps you paid for when you bought (but not all of them), and some apps can't be re downloaded (iMusic comes to mind).

Ok that was my good dead for the day.

Talk to you later.

Fern and I bumped into J9 at the Farmers market this weekend.

Found out some interesting stuff from some farmers aaaaand saw some cute babies, even added my own to the mix to make it really cheek pinchy.

Here's the vid I snappped of Fern and J9 pokein' some cute chicks and goslings. Fern and her had a hug fest, which if you've ever met the Fuzzball in person you must know is astounding. J9 was like the only person we saw that Fern ever opened up to like that. Too bad it didn't work out. Oh well... I persist that shyness is a disease and I'm gonna cure her of it (I'm totally kidding. If I were going to be a monster I'd rather be one that could fly and suck blood or howl at the moon or something). Still, it seems like we might be able to be friends by and by, which is great.

I think maybe it was kinda weird how they had these cute little guys in a box next to coolers full of the bodies of their aunts, uncles, and possibly parents, but it's a cute video anyway.

Coming soon to a dinner plate near you*

• listen very closely to the conversation between the little girl and J9. This lil squishy face is already racially aware at like 3 years old. Otherwise J9 is borderline vegan so that what we're talking about.

Also found out that chemical companies who paid for a study to "determine" if cell phone towers could be the cause of the bee crisis are probably hiding the fact that their company's chemicals are causing the plants to be less nutritious for the bees from a bee keeper.

i wish my phone was faster so I could recored audio of stuff like that at least.

So,

I have a friend.

She's really pretty. Olive skin, dark brown hair that flows in locks, eyes like pools of onyx.
She's a trained pianist. Loves great music.
Owns a house in a nice neighborhood. Has a decent job.
Likes to ride bikes. Sounds awesome right?

She's got faults too, but I don't want to point any of that out. Yet....

Ok, so this thing keeps happening to her where she starts dating a guy and not long after they decide to stop seeing her. It's always them that stop dating her... Lame.

I'm a good friend of hers at this point. I dated her before, in the past. And yes, I stopped seeing her too, so um.... here's my question to you (e:peep)'lz of the world.

She sometimes asks me, "Why does this keep happening to me?", and I feel like I must know, having had been a guy who did it and a person who watched it happened over and over, but what do I do?

Should I tell her what I think?
Should I ignore it and hope that someday someone will be a kind enough man to her to help her through this stuff
Really who do I know? Pfft!?

What do you think?