i miss aruba so much. i suppose its not realistic to feel i belong there, but i guess being out of the u.s. makes me think i would be happier elsewhere.

i am glad i came to phoenix and no doubt i will be here a while longer, but i am ready to go.

as soon as i get my degree i would love the opportunity to teach someplace tropical by the ocean. this is basically what i dream about everyday.

i was so happy on vacation, and not just that vacationy feeling, but i just love the water. it made me feel as happy as i did as a little girl when i would go on beach vacations with my family. i remember how content i was to just walk up and down the beach, and i felt the same way is aruba.

i can't wait to go back in may. and i can't wait to finish school so i can go out and see the world!!!

for now, i need to find a way to get by here because although i would never move back to buffalo, it gets very lonely here. no one ever just hangs out here. the people are fake and have awful fashion. i am also so sick of mexican food and tacos.

i want to live somewhere where i can walk to my destination instead of driving 40 minutes to get there.

mostly, i want to be the new girl again, life is more fun that way.

apparently i can finish the rest of my degree online, in the next year. this will be the record for world's longest bachelor's degree at about 7 years.

i subtracted the two years of cosmetology, which was a huge waste of time, even though i did just do an amazing job on another bride.

anyway, this excitement of this possible opportunity excites me.

i would be able to go anywhere, in a year.

also, i can take my vacas and finish my work beforehand and not worry about stupid lectures when i get back. and, the online program requires less math, and this would mean i am currently taking my last math class!!!!!!!

i suppose i will know in the next few weeks, hooray!

she is getting so big and she can crawl. i want that baby, but she is so far. plz bring her to me, thx...

finished watching into the wild this morning. wow, what a depressing way to start my day.

i know the guy had a message about being free and whatnot but seriously? he went to alaska and basically committed suicide because he had no clue what he was doing and thought he was just going to be the arctic tarzan?

i know we are all too dependent on material possessions but i think he could have found a better way...

it was so sad when he was eating the plants he thought were edible and then realized he poisoned himself..

and extremely gross when he killed the moose but couldn't butcher it in time and the maggots started coming out everywhere.

anyway, this movie makes me even more into civilization and material items, and definitely not ever into traveling into the wild.

so pretty much, you can watch this movie and be depressed afterwards, but it is really good, and the main actor is hot, until he goes insane and starves to death, but you could just stop watching and disregard that part if you wanted.

i hope there are hundreds of hot men in aruba, and not the kind that will try to abduct me, only the kind who want to buy me things and give me drinks from a coconut that they have not put drugs into.

wow, it's so tiring going to work and then class.

plus my boss is freaking out about everything, and as usual i end up picking up the pieces after others who don't do things right.

my math instructor spit in my face last night, he is one of those spit talkers. it was so gross, i think i need to need sit front and center anymore.

this girl in my english class was crying because she is so overwhelmed with college and she was so cute and little and innocent. she will be fine, but imagine if you were such a stressed out person like that. maybe she should get a vice or something.

anyway, i already have tons of work due because one of my classes is accelerated and we do the semester in half the time and i choose to take french online which is ridic...

cannot. wait. until. monday. or at least until 10 tonight when i get to come home and go to bed.