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06/29/2009 10:53 #49122

a world without butter
i had a breakdown last night. i ate steak and butter, and bread and a volcano cake with ice cream.

and i had some cheese, which is not so bad but a bad combo, because the meal was fat and carb filled and so delish.

now, that was my major cheat day. i am going to do some major exercising today. but i can't hike for a few days because i hurt my baby toe.

this woman at work writes me up every time i work with her. i don't really care, but she never says anything to my face. i refuse to acknowledge your petty complaints because you lack the courage to say anything to my face. it's childish and lame. she also makes up blatant lies just because she doesn't like me and she does the same thing with other people she doesn't like.

i think the real reason she has a problem with me is that i am not a christian, and i live what she views as a "bad" lifestyle. sorry i'm not a haggard 40 something who looks 55 and has two awful brats and an ex who abused me and used me and spent all of my money for years. i say what i think, and i don't sugar coat, people here thinks that makes me sad.

but honestly, do these people have happy thoughts when they get into bed at night and have to face the reality of their sad lives??? i don't smile when i don't want to, and i don't like small talk, it's a waste of time. i just can't stand fakeness and also people who can't man up and complain to my face.

anyway, i saw the complaint and just threw it right in the shredder, if anyone ever asks, i don't know a thing... i had an accomplice and they know not a thing either.

i should find a new job, but the econ sucks and i have limited availability due to the schooling which feels like i will never finish.

t-3 days until (e:deeglam) arrives! spa time!
deeglam - 07/01/09 12:21
get ready for some R&R! I can't wait to seeeee you!
businesscheese - 06/30/09 13:18
I agree with tiny!
metalpeter - 06/29/09 20:05
That food sounds so good. Hope work works its self out.
tinypliny - 06/29/09 12:57
Yeah, don't use cyanide. I think it smells a bit.
james - 06/29/09 11:49
And sometimes a little arsenic in a mug of tea changes your whole world.
tinypliny - 06/29/09 11:40
Sometimes smiling for no reason at all is all it takes to change people around you. Think happy and smile especially when you don't feel like it. You will be surprised at the difference it makes.

06/25/2009 18:17 #49082

m.j.
micheal jackson is dead?


this is upsetting, i thought he was gonna have some comeback, and it would be like old times.


who will raise his kids???? so sad.
metalpeter - 06/25/09 19:28
I know he tried to have a comeback and I thought he had did songs with a bunch of really talented people but I don't know what happened or if the album ever came out.
tinypliny - 06/25/09 19:23
Hmmmm.... you have to wonder if he had the time or the bent to raise them when he was alive.

06/24/2009 19:46 #49069

the biggest loser
i just bought this new video by jillian micheals, the crazy ripper trainer woman on that show the biggest loser.

holy crap her workouts are hard. i find myself yelling at the tv even though no one can hear me.

i haven't lost a lot of weight, only about 10 pounds, but my body is changing shape a bit, i am seeing less flabby bits, and i am feeling good about my two month goal for aruba.

i've kinda been a slacker this week, but it's gotten so hot that i don't know i can even hike at 6 am, because exercise in extreme heat is the worst. plus, my whole stomach issue, which i should know what's going on with that in a week!

i so cheated today by eating lots of cheese and bread, but i am going to have a veggie packed salad for dinner, and exercise again tonight.

with that said, i pretty much hate working out, and eating right, but it's the only way, because i am not rich enough for plastic surgery, jk. sorta.

i have been watching lots of movies lately, and if you are a woman and romanticize marriage, then do not watch revolutionary road, because it will destroy your fantasy. it makes me never want to get married. but kate winslet is really my fav actress i think, and its creepy how she played a woman who doesn't even like having children when in real life she has kids.. she plays the role so well.

i really need to make some new friends because the ones i have here kinda suck, so i have bff'd myself, and sometimes it gets kinda boring, but then i think, all of the really cool people have just gone far far away.

come back tina!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


06/23/2009 13:05 #49039

creepers stay away
i was trying to find the lab this morning so i can finally spend three hours of fun here to get my tests done...

im already in a bad mood because i haven't eaten in 14 hours, and then i can't find the place because in az it's all one giant complicated plaza away from the street with no big signs. i swear there is all these interesting places i have no clue about because in ny everything is close the street and everything has big signs.

it's my number one pet peeve about this place, plazas that are impossible and never ending.

anyway, then this creeper in a cab starts following me and acting like he is helping me while really checking me out and trying to hit on me. sorry, but i am not dating right now, and esp not a cab driver. and a bald one at that.

he followed me to my car and i just ignored him and drove away. ewww.

i still follow the rules of stranger danger, so stay away creepers!
metalpeter - 06/23/09 20:09
Just wanted to let you know that if you listen to Penn & Teller (I don't agree with a lot of there stuff but their show does make some good Points) Stranger Danger is Bullshit and is more dangerous to kids then it helps them. Sorry I don't have the stats. But most kids who are abused, raped, or stolen are stolen by people they know, not strangers. The other problem is that it makes Kids be afraid of people they don't know, and that can cause other problems, like say they really do need help with something they can't ask anyone cause everyone is a stranger. It is better to teach kids how to be safe. That being said yeah that does sound creepy. But remember that to that guy you are Young and Hot and you are also a fare to him. Hey if you can't find the place you are looking for he can take you there.

06/10/2009 00:55 #48880

airlift rescue
so, all i do is exercise and eat healthy now.

this morning hiking, i saw two helicopters, they kept circling around and my cousin and i were trying to figure out what was going on.

no other people on the trail. somewhat early morning. weirdness!

then we got to the very tippy top and there was a group of people sitting.... we checked out the view, and began going down.

i made a joke about how i wasn't going to carry my cousin down if she fell...

then we see at least ten firemen(only 1 hottie) coming up, with a bunch of stuff and a stretcher on wheels. they asked how much further, and i told them just a few minutes. they asked if we wanted to help, somewhat joking, somewhat serious. i think by the sign of their drenched shirts they were pretty tired.

anyway, turns out it was all over the news... an older lady we having chest pains.

so, new note to self... bring cell phone even though it is annoying to have stuff when running down... because i may need a rescue someday.

oh, and i did 500 crunches today. i am obsessed.
enknot - 06/10/09 07:20
Too much of anything is a bad thing.

Eat some ice cream, and watch some T.V. You never know, there could be something you don't want to miss on. You know how many programs Will Smith is in?

Yeah... take a chill Phill.
jenks - 06/10/09 06:57
oh yeah def bring your phone! I've seen so many patients at ECMC who were hiking in the gorge or whatever, and it would have taken rescue hours (too long) to find them if they hadn't had phones. B/c besides being able to call, they can also trace your signal to find you.