I am the most happy I have been in many years. It feels really good! I attribute a lot of it to the healthy eating and exercise I just feel energetic and good all the time!

I have also learned to enjoy being alone which is something I used to fear.

Its a good feeling peeps!

Plus I snagged the cutest navy heels last night from my favorite French boutique Target for only 8 dolla!

Amazing.

i am dying to see this movie. i think i am going to laugh harder than i ever had before! i wish my fav boys were here so we could go together!




...Upon arriving he told fans, "Vhat's up Sydney! Ich really hope my movie realises its full global potential and doesn't peter out after a promising start like swine flu."

i had a breakdown last night. i ate steak and butter, and bread and a volcano cake with ice cream.

and i had some cheese, which is not so bad but a bad combo, because the meal was fat and carb filled and so delish.

now, that was my major cheat day. i am going to do some major exercising today. but i can't hike for a few days because i hurt my baby toe.

this woman at work writes me up every time i work with her. i don't really care, but she never says anything to my face. i refuse to acknowledge your petty complaints because you lack the courage to say anything to my face. it's childish and lame. she also makes up blatant lies just because she doesn't like me and she does the same thing with other people she doesn't like.

i think the real reason she has a problem with me is that i am not a christian, and i live what she views as a "bad" lifestyle. sorry i'm not a haggard 40 something who looks 55 and has two awful brats and an ex who abused me and used me and spent all of my money for years. i say what i think, and i don't sugar coat, people here thinks that makes me sad.

but honestly, do these people have happy thoughts when they get into bed at night and have to face the reality of their sad lives??? i don't smile when i don't want to, and i don't like small talk, it's a waste of time. i just can't stand fakeness and also people who can't man up and complain to my face.

anyway, i saw the complaint and just threw it right in the shredder, if anyone ever asks, i don't know a thing... i had an accomplice and they know not a thing either.

i should find a new job, but the econ sucks and i have limited availability due to the schooling which feels like i will never finish.

t-3 days until (e:deeglam) arrives! spa time!

micheal jackson is dead?


this is upsetting, i thought he was gonna have some comeback, and it would be like old times.


who will raise his kids???? so sad.

i just bought this new video by jillian micheals, the crazy ripper trainer woman on that show the biggest loser.

holy crap her workouts are hard. i find myself yelling at the tv even though no one can hear me.

i haven't lost a lot of weight, only about 10 pounds, but my body is changing shape a bit, i am seeing less flabby bits, and i am feeling good about my two month goal for aruba.

i've kinda been a slacker this week, but it's gotten so hot that i don't know i can even hike at 6 am, because exercise in extreme heat is the worst. plus, my whole stomach issue, which i should know what's going on with that in a week!

i so cheated today by eating lots of cheese and bread, but i am going to have a veggie packed salad for dinner, and exercise again tonight.

with that said, i pretty much hate working out, and eating right, but it's the only way, because i am not rich enough for plastic surgery, jk. sorta.

i have been watching lots of movies lately, and if you are a woman and romanticize marriage, then do not watch revolutionary road, because it will destroy your fantasy. it makes me never want to get married. but kate winslet is really my fav actress i think, and its creepy how she played a woman who doesn't even like having children when in real life she has kids.. she plays the role so well.

i really need to make some new friends because the ones i have here kinda suck, so i have bff'd myself, and sometimes it gets kinda boring, but then i think, all of the really cool people have just gone far far away.

come back tina!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!