i am up at 4am not because i was out having fun, but because i am sick. been sick for a while and i thought, like it has in the past, my body would heal itself. i no longer think this cold is just a sore throat. i think i may have infections, probably both ears and maybe my throat. been about 10 days of pain and now, i think things are getting worse. sucks since my health benefits for work haven't kicked in yet... and, of course, i wait 'til a holiday weekend to want to see a doctor. and, of course, i have no idea where to go... does the US have walk in after hour type clinics or is the only option an emergency room? i reckon (e:uncutsaniflush) will probably... *sigh* i just want to cry.... but... it hurts too much... waahh... what a big baby am i!

I did ok on my first exam, meds I, II and III (but do NOT ask me what the Kefauver-Harris Amendment of 1962 is until the finals, pleeease); got 94%. BUT, we had over a week to study.

Now, i have less than 48 hors to learn all the bits of the Gastrointestinal System as per the instruction and papers i received on Tuesday. The exam is tomorrow morning. So, i am taking a break/procrastinating.

I am not so great with all this medical jargon. And although i know what some of these things actually are, it can be difficult to remember official definitions... like digestion. Go ahead, try (not you, (e:Jenks), you better know!) and do it without using the word "digest".

I've got flatus though... not the actual gas, but the definition. Gas formation in the intestines; expulsion of intestinal gases.

For over 20 years, i have had 14 silver sleeper style hoops in my ears -- 6 on one side and 8 on the other. The idea was to eventually get 6 on one side and 9 on the other since i was born in '69, but for some reason, that 9th one just never happened.

Whenever i have seen a cute lil charm, i have purchased it and attached it to a random hoop. A few years ago, i got myself an evil eye from a place called Courage My Love in Kensington Market in Toronto (on my birthday, 3 years ago i think). That evil eye clinks, jingles and makes a general light metallic sound as the blue eye inside its sliver casing moves around... and as it hits other earrings. The hoops made a slight noise too, but probably one only i could here. Others could hear my evil eye. And, i kinda got used to those sounds.

But, with this new grown up job i have now, i needed to remove the hoops. Actually, it is more because they are a safety hazard to myself and the developmentally disabled individuals i will be working with and for.

Took me about half an hour, but i took them all out and replaced them with a fine gage (maybe i will increase that in time, but the hoops were a fairly fine gage) bone style nose bars.

So weird. So quiet.

I should be studying. I should be studying. But, i thought i would take this time, while i hear the laundry bouncing around in the dryer downstairs, while papers are scattered all over my desk to... well... procrastinate.

It hurt my heart to not be able to see you at the dinner you planned, (e:Ladycroft). I wish i could have been there... and you're leaving soon... i may not have time to see you at all. *sob* When are you leaving? Would a quick coffee/confab/visit work before you leave? I get off work in West Seneca at 4.30pm (if i don't have to have a meeting with my supervisor) tomorrow. Do you still have the same phone number? I do!

I have been getting up at 5.30am since... uhm... 5 June. Orientation at the DDSO has been intense. CPR, First Aide, SKIP-R. I am bruised and battered... and thankful for some cool weather. SKIP-R testing was done on Friday, WITHOUT a/c. I swear it was about 110 in that room... while we listened to the maintenance guy bang on the a/c unit outside the window. Made it so much more difficult to do... uhmm... say... a 2 person supine restraint when the individual being restrained was slippery with sweat.

Now, we move on to training. I think i need a full day's explanation on how to fill out forms for my time sheets. But, i digress, that was covered during orientation.

Today, we had the first of 3 days of meds classes. (e:Mike), will you help me study for the exam next week?!? The information is all memorization and rather dry... no offense to those into pharmacology. :O)...

The lecture on childhood development and how the maturation rate is compared to those with Developmental Disabilities was interesting... to me at least. Shame it was the shortest part of the day.

Yesterday (wow... was that only yesterday?), we had a lecture on Swallowing Difficulties and although interesting, it was a bit long and long winded. I do think, however, that the Occupational Therapist enjoys her work and is very good at it. Yay. She did a demo on swallowing with us that was informative. For it, we had some water and some... well,what i would call corn chips or tortilla chips. She, on the other hand, called them tacos. Not taco chips, even. Just tacos. And, it is not the first time i have heard this term here. Is this just the WNY slang? If so... weird slang. What do you do when you want to order an actual taco?

Protocol. Procedure. Policy. New York State has it all.

After a long day 8 hour day of sitting, pushing papers around and taking notes, i came home to another coupla hours of preparing things... Preparing papers to deliver to different departments so they know i want what they have to give me. Like money. Benefits. An inter-office email address and user i.d.

And a mind full of new exciting information and options.