Plus one
Bedroom, bathroom and kitchen/fridge space - the roommate is gone! Now visitor season can begin. While Dave was the best roommate we had, sorry Nameless Bitch but he didn't always steal my food, lol - it is going to be nice to have just us at home so that I can begin to exhibit the craziness I surely inherited from my dad, ;) like talking to myself and singing silly songs and so I don't have to put pants on to run down to the kitchen to grab water or whatever.
It is so weird to all of a sudden have so much more space. I never really got to explore that space because since we bought the house there has always been someone in it.
Minus One
Today I had such a bad crohn's day - if that is what's killing me. Usually, I am fine - in fact the whole last week I kept thinking maybe it was gone and then wham. I was sick all day so bad that it was like having the flu. I have gotten really good at dealing with being sick but it's kind of depressing. At one point it was so bad I wanted to just go home and sleep but then I got involved in some long term conference call about some crazy SQL drama.
I was so depressed about my life for a bit. Not like any emergency medical thing but I realized what the fuck would I be without my meds. Would I just be someone who died at age 30ish. My body is so fucking pathetic. I wish I could just buy a new one and export the good parts the way I transfer between computers that hold my code.
a lot of medicines come in blue boxes for some reason. I would say the majority. I wonder why? I wonder if some marketing study proved people trust blue boxes or something.
This suggestion is going to sound silly, but it might be a good idea. Don't eat at the big table maybe eat and watch TV, or play a video game or eat at the computer. What happens is that even when other people are in the house being at the table by yourself makes you feel isolated since it is empty but if you eat someplace that is made for one then you don't feel that way, plus there could be someone else doing something else that other room you are in. What is happening to you happens with other things as well. A bed is a good example if a bed is made for two or more people and the person is alone then the bed feels like there should be someone next to you, let me tell you that does get very depressing but you move onto a couch, recliner, futon or something like that and you feel fine (believe me I know this one way to well). Oh yeah nice flower pictures.