So i saw the program for the concert I'm singing in in Fredonia on Sunday. And who is singing RIGHT AFTER ME but my fucking ex-boyfriend's current girlfriend. I am so pissed off. Why? Who knows. Mainly because she is definitely better than me and so she will just sound way better after I'm done because I sound fine but she is better. Everyone compares people to other people. You can't help it. Plus i will have to see her backstage and she will be the first goddamn person i see when i get offstage. Who puts two sopranos RIGHT AFTER EACH OTHER when we are the only two singers for the whole goddamn concert? I'm so pissed off. I AM SO PISSED OFF!!!!! All this hard work and preparation and now I am just pissed about the whole thing AHHHHHHHHHHHH
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02/15/2007 18:57 #38170
PISSED OFF02/14/2007 14:05 #38146
2-14Happy Valentines Day, my loves! :)
joshua - 02/14/07 18:04
I am not sure that we are on a "loves" basis since we haven't met yet, but have a good day anyway!
I am not sure that we are on a "loves" basis since we haven't met yet, but have a good day anyway!
02/12/2007 09:37 #38106
e-strip siblings02/04/2007 23:05 #38020
hell yeahCategory: snow
HELL YEAH NO SCHOOL TOMORROW!!!!!!!!
and YAY PEYTON!
p.s. Did anyone else notice on the closing list that there is a day care called "CAO Head Start Rubby Butts"?
and YAY PEYTON!
p.s. Did anyone else notice on the closing list that there is a day care called "CAO Head Start Rubby Butts"?
lilho - 02/05/07 14:47
i notcied that as well this morning and thought, "WTF, and then forgot about it...so weird."
i notcied that as well this morning and thought, "WTF, and then forgot about it...so weird."
knife - 02/05/07 11:35
CAO Head Start Rubby Butts ????
sheesh, to me that sounds like not a great place to leave your kids every day. can you imagine the conversation that lead up to naming the place that?
CAO Head Start Rubby Butts ????
sheesh, to me that sounds like not a great place to leave your kids every day. can you imagine the conversation that lead up to naming the place that?
mike - 02/04/07 23:53
i hate that you get days off. I never get a snow day!
i hate that you get days off. I never get a snow day!
02/03/2007 19:55 #37995
I love these thingsCategory: surveys
Can you see the real me, Can ya, Can ya?
69 confession questions
1. The phone rings. Who do you want it to be?
Someone asking me to do something fun.
2. When shopping at the grocery store, do you return your cart?
YES i hate when people don't return their carts.
3. In a social setting, are you more of a talker or a listener?
listener.
4. Do you take compliments well?
yes, and criticism too i think.
5. Do you play Sudoku?
no i tried it once but couldn't get into it
6. If abandoned alone in the wilderness, would you survive?
um, i think that depends on how hungry the wild animals are that could potentially be surrounding me.
8. Did you ever go to camp as a kid?
well, girl scout camp. and day care.
9. What was your favorite game as a kid?
I just asked my mom and we both said in unison "Hungry Hungry Hippos"!!!
10. If a sexy person was pursuing you, but you knew he/she was married, would you?
nope
12. Could you date someone with different religious beliefs than you?
yeah I have.
13. Do you like to pursue or be pursued?
i would like to be pursued. I did ALL of the pursuing last time.
14. Use three words to describe yourself?
sensitive, caring, perceptive
15. Do any songs make you cry?
yeah
16. Are you continuing your education?
yep, next year.
17. Do you know how to shoot a gun?
um no i guess not
18. If your house was on fire, what would be the first thing you grabbed?
my dogs
19. How often do you read books?
not nearly enough. i just started reading wicked but i don't really like it
20. Do you think more about the past, present or future?
future
21. What is your favorite children's book?
"The Best Christmas Pagaent Ever"
22. What color are your eyes?
Brahn
23. How tall are you?
5'5"
24. Where is your dream house located?
somewhere warm and european
25. Best vacay ever?
either Seattle 2003 or Paris 2005
26. Coolest picture?
27. Have you ever taken pictures in a photo booth
i heart Frizzy's
28. When was the last time you were at Olive Garden?
last Saturday, mmmmmmm
29. How about the movies?
last Saturday as well...i saw Dream Girls
30. Where was the furthest place you traveled today?
a church about 2 miles away
32. Do you like mustard?
Yes
33. Do you prefer to sleep or eat?
eat
34. Do you look like your mom or dad?
dad
35. How long does it take you in the shower?
5-10 minutes
36. Can you do a split?
hahaha no waaaaaaay
37. What movie do you want to see right now?
father of the bride, i love that movie and haven't seen it
39. What did you do for New Year's?
got drunk at my house, stopped by PMT's briefly, then went downtown, then to Fredonia
40. Do you think The Grudge was scary?
didn't see it
41. Do you laugh a lot?
i think i laugh a decent amount. (e:mike) would describe the amount a way that i refuse to.
42. Do you own a camera phone?
used to, my new one does not
44. Was your mom a cheerleader?
no she played the cymbals
45. What's the last letter of your middle name?
N
46. how many hours of sleep do you get a night?
like 6
47. Do you watch MTV?
don't get it. ii'm sure if i got it i would
48. Do you like care bears?
yes
49. What do you buy at the movies?
popcorn and huge drinks
50. Do you know how to play poker?
how funny you ask. i just learned today at this great website.
51. Do you wear your seatbelt?
100% of the time
52. What do you wear to sleep?
lately i've been wearing a sexy sweatshirt and my favorte fredonia pajama pants
53. Anything big ever happen in your hometown?
um, criminal activities.
54. How many meals do you eat a day?
9?
55. Is your tongue pierced?
no
56. Do you always read MySpace bulletins?
half the time
57. Most visited webpage?
it's probably a tie between (e:strip) and Facebook
58. Do you like funny or serious people better?
ummm...i'm usually the serious one, so i like funny people as long as they aren't obnoxious (but then again who likes obnoxious people)
59. Ever been to L.A.?
nope. Well, Lackawanna.
60. Did you eat a cookie today?
do Teddy Grahams count?
61. Do you use cuss words in other languages?
no
62. Do you steal or pay for your music downloads?
mostly steal, but i have my share of itunes downloads.
63. Do you hate chocolate?
not at all
64. What do you and your parents fight about the most?
my parents like have never fought
65. Are you a gullible person?
sometimes?
66. Do you need a boyfriend/girlfriend to be happy?
no
67. If you could have any job (assuming you have the skills) what would it be?
some kind of musician who gets to travel and make a ton of money doing it.
68. Are you easy to get along with?
yaaaahhhh
69. What is your favorite time of day?
hmmmmm....i think 1 pm. i'm finished teaching and the possibilities for the afternoon seem vast!!
69 confession questions
1. The phone rings. Who do you want it to be?
Someone asking me to do something fun.
2. When shopping at the grocery store, do you return your cart?
YES i hate when people don't return their carts.
3. In a social setting, are you more of a talker or a listener?
listener.
4. Do you take compliments well?
yes, and criticism too i think.
5. Do you play Sudoku?
no i tried it once but couldn't get into it
6. If abandoned alone in the wilderness, would you survive?
um, i think that depends on how hungry the wild animals are that could potentially be surrounding me.
8. Did you ever go to camp as a kid?
well, girl scout camp. and day care.
9. What was your favorite game as a kid?
I just asked my mom and we both said in unison "Hungry Hungry Hippos"!!!
10. If a sexy person was pursuing you, but you knew he/she was married, would you?
nope
12. Could you date someone with different religious beliefs than you?
yeah I have.
13. Do you like to pursue or be pursued?
i would like to be pursued. I did ALL of the pursuing last time.
14. Use three words to describe yourself?
sensitive, caring, perceptive
15. Do any songs make you cry?
yeah
16. Are you continuing your education?
yep, next year.
17. Do you know how to shoot a gun?
um no i guess not
18. If your house was on fire, what would be the first thing you grabbed?
my dogs
19. How often do you read books?
not nearly enough. i just started reading wicked but i don't really like it
20. Do you think more about the past, present or future?
future
21. What is your favorite children's book?
"The Best Christmas Pagaent Ever"
22. What color are your eyes?
Brahn
23. How tall are you?
5'5"
24. Where is your dream house located?
somewhere warm and european
25. Best vacay ever?
either Seattle 2003 or Paris 2005
26. Coolest picture?
27. Have you ever taken pictures in a photo booth
i heart Frizzy's
28. When was the last time you were at Olive Garden?
last Saturday, mmmmmmm
29. How about the movies?
last Saturday as well...i saw Dream Girls
30. Where was the furthest place you traveled today?
a church about 2 miles away
32. Do you like mustard?
Yes
33. Do you prefer to sleep or eat?
eat
34. Do you look like your mom or dad?
dad
35. How long does it take you in the shower?
5-10 minutes
36. Can you do a split?
hahaha no waaaaaaay
37. What movie do you want to see right now?
father of the bride, i love that movie and haven't seen it
39. What did you do for New Year's?
got drunk at my house, stopped by PMT's briefly, then went downtown, then to Fredonia
40. Do you think The Grudge was scary?
didn't see it
41. Do you laugh a lot?
i think i laugh a decent amount. (e:mike) would describe the amount a way that i refuse to.
42. Do you own a camera phone?
used to, my new one does not
44. Was your mom a cheerleader?
no she played the cymbals
45. What's the last letter of your middle name?
N
46. how many hours of sleep do you get a night?
like 6
47. Do you watch MTV?
don't get it. ii'm sure if i got it i would
48. Do you like care bears?
yes
49. What do you buy at the movies?
popcorn and huge drinks
50. Do you know how to play poker?
how funny you ask. i just learned today at this great website.
51. Do you wear your seatbelt?
100% of the time
52. What do you wear to sleep?
lately i've been wearing a sexy sweatshirt and my favorte fredonia pajama pants
53. Anything big ever happen in your hometown?
um, criminal activities.
54. How many meals do you eat a day?
9?
55. Is your tongue pierced?
no
56. Do you always read MySpace bulletins?
half the time
57. Most visited webpage?
it's probably a tie between (e:strip) and Facebook
58. Do you like funny or serious people better?
ummm...i'm usually the serious one, so i like funny people as long as they aren't obnoxious (but then again who likes obnoxious people)
59. Ever been to L.A.?
nope. Well, Lackawanna.
60. Did you eat a cookie today?
do Teddy Grahams count?
61. Do you use cuss words in other languages?
no
62. Do you steal or pay for your music downloads?
mostly steal, but i have my share of itunes downloads.
63. Do you hate chocolate?
not at all
64. What do you and your parents fight about the most?
my parents like have never fought
65. Are you a gullible person?
sometimes?
66. Do you need a boyfriend/girlfriend to be happy?
no
67. If you could have any job (assuming you have the skills) what would it be?
some kind of musician who gets to travel and make a ton of money doing it.
68. Are you easy to get along with?
yaaaahhhh
69. What is your favorite time of day?
hmmmmm....i think 1 pm. i'm finished teaching and the possibilities for the afternoon seem vast!!
imk2 - 02/04/07 10:28
yes youre right, (e:mk), it is dark and honestly, it doesnt get any better, but thats why i liked it. so i guess you may not like it after all.
yes youre right, (e:mk), it is dark and honestly, it doesnt get any better, but thats why i liked it. so i guess you may not like it after all.
theecarey - 02/03/07 23:53
omg.. that picture is HILARIOUS! iSight is neat- never used it; I would probably have TOO much fun with it!
omg.. that picture is HILARIOUS! iSight is neat- never used it; I would probably have TOO much fun with it!
mk - 02/03/07 22:39
it's just sooo dark...i think i may have not been in the right mind frame when i was reading it. i'll give it another chance soon!
it's just sooo dark...i think i may have not been in the right mind frame when i was reading it. i'll give it another chance soon!
imk2 - 02/03/07 21:16
you're not liking wicked? how come? I LOVEÐ that book!
you're not liking wicked? how come? I LOVEÐ that book!
Oh, then after you are done - froofy drinks, babe. Froofy drinks.
The shank "Nancy Kerrigan" method probably isn't the best idea, although it would probably be the most fulfilling. Just play the scenario through in your head, then move on to the right thing to do - proceed to not give a shit, look smokin' and give her that catty, icey steely stare that women seem to love to give to guys. :(
Nancy Kerrigan her.
but there's no way her dress will be anywhere near as smokin' as yours. And whoever is better looking clearly is the winner. Isn't that what really counts?
Think of it kinda like but kinda differant than the opening act at a concert. Yes the opening act is usaly thought of as not as good and as ment to warm up the crowd. But also the opening act has often stolen the show and ben better. Hey just do your best and you will be fine. You could also pretend you don't know her. Also remember that you two broke up for a reason. I thought I read long time ago that you ended it with him, if that is true then her being with him shouldn't bother you. I know it maybe awakward but it is only a competition if you make it one, so don't make it one. Stay Cool, and Calm and you will be just fine. Hope that helps some.
do not let it bother you!!!!!
if you let it bother you it may effect you in the moment. it may be hard but if you carry on like it does not exist then not only will you do excedingly well, but, you may be able to extend some existential backlash onto her and you know.....make her suck and then, oh, idk, start on fire or something. that'd be something.
wow, never figured you as someone who gets pissed. unless its drinking.
So, you will pass her backstage just before she goes on ... that's when you shank her. You can make a clean getaway while she's onstage trying to sing in immense pain.
- Z
when pissed off, just remember you were wearing a pooh sweatshirt and thought nothing of it