Went great yesterday. She was mighty impressed with my changes over the last few months. My ability to write down the physical things I like about myself. It's hard to do. Partially because I never thought I had anything real stand outish about my shell, partially because I felt guilty announcing if I thought I did. The whole tooting your own horn thing comes easy for many but I suppose I was really brought up thinking that was bad. Really, it is to a degree. We all know the peron that won't shut up about themself. The one that turns everything around so that they are the center of the universe.
Extremes aside, I was able to really look at myself and be ok writing a few things down. Although it's a little awkward, I think it will help to put them out there, to really be ok with what I am saying.
1. I have a genuine smile. Nice teeth included.
2. I have great hair. Not in the sense that I have to style it, rather my actual hair. It's full and wavey.
3. Pretty eyes. I like my rings of green and blue, plus my eye lashes are really long. Apparently some people go to great lengths to create that look.
4. I'm strong. I've always been strong. Even covered in this layer of blubber I'm still strong. I kick ass.
5. Curves. I've got em. I like my boobs, I like my butt. Sometimes I think my butt is a little too big, but ultimately I'd rather have this butt than one of those flat ironing board butts that make your pants hang weird.
So there. I said what I like about me (and yes, this exercise was purely physical aspects) and I'm ok with it. Yeah!
Today's quote:
You should appreciate what is before you rather than admiring what you hope is down the road.
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01/09/2007 09:54 #37602
therapyCategory: potpourri
01/06/2007 12:17 #37554
toxic presentsCategory: potpourri
Ryan and I just discovered something wack. He got a mug full of candy for Christmas. A big mug that says Ho! Ho! Ho!. On the bottom of the lovely mug, ripe for hot chocolate, it reads 'by the way, there is lead in the paint used on this mug and it is not suitable for drinking out of'. :0
deeglam - 01/09/07 11:57
totally interesting because I learned about this shit in one of my environmental health classes....lead has been found in things such as baby chew toys, nike sneakers, mugs (like you said) and even candy made by MARS!
Despite all the obvious adverse health effects of lead, companies still use it because they can get it away with it....since there are no laws protecting people from lead. Lovely, huh???
totally interesting because I learned about this shit in one of my environmental health classes....lead has been found in things such as baby chew toys, nike sneakers, mugs (like you said) and even candy made by MARS!
Despite all the obvious adverse health effects of lead, companies still use it because they can get it away with it....since there are no laws protecting people from lead. Lovely, huh???
metalpeter - 01/06/07 13:03
At least they warned you. But that is so odd that on a mug they would use paint that had lead in it.
At least they warned you. But that is so odd that on a mug they would use paint that had lead in it.
paul - 01/06/07 12:51
That is insane. I didn't even think they could use lead paint on stuff like that anymore. I mean want not use the multitude of other paint agents that do not contact lead. :::link:::
That is insane. I didn't even think they could use lead paint on stuff like that anymore. I mean want not use the multitude of other paint agents that do not contact lead. :::link:::
01/03/2007 21:50 #37529
knit knit knitCategory: potpourri
My friend is coming over to have a little girl talk knitting party tonight. Yay! I haven't been excited about home craft goods in so long. Parts of me are starting to come back, I love it. It's a new year, it's a new day, I'm not letting ANYTHING get in my way.
matthew - 01/04/07 17:26
stitch & bitch! good fun. you should invite (e:terry) sometime, he's the biggest stitching bitch i know :)
stitch & bitch! good fun. you should invite (e:terry) sometime, he's the biggest stitching bitch i know :)
theecarey - 01/03/07 22:32
That seems like fun. I would have scoffed at it in prior times, but I am really gravitating toward simple creativity and creation. I bought multiple balls of yarn two months ago. My plan is to teach myself to crochet.
and to get back to creating in general. You too must get back to your arts.
up for some painting/drawing sometime? I have a bunch of supplies..
taken it back, not letting anything get in the way.. here! here!
That seems like fun. I would have scoffed at it in prior times, but I am really gravitating toward simple creativity and creation. I bought multiple balls of yarn two months ago. My plan is to teach myself to crochet.
and to get back to creating in general. You too must get back to your arts.
up for some painting/drawing sometime? I have a bunch of supplies..
taken it back, not letting anything get in the way.. here! here!
mrmike - 01/03/07 21:53
Good for you!! Carpe Diem!!
Good for you!! Carpe Diem!!
01/01/2007 14:54 #37497
happy new year sweeties daaaahling!Category: new year
Woke up with such energy this morning I'm not even sure I really went to bed. Took a long hot shower and 4 shampoos and a gallon of conditioner later, my hair has returned to normal. Had an absolutely fabulous time at the party, merci PMT. I loved the ball! I still think the hippo was a nice touch :)
So my lovelies. May the best of your past be the worst of your future in this beautiful year 2007! Wishing you joy that never ends.
Ciao,
LC
p.s. to my secret santa des, i LOVE my guinness gear!!!!
So my lovelies. May the best of your past be the worst of your future in this beautiful year 2007! Wishing you joy that never ends.
Ciao,
LC
p.s. to my secret santa des, i LOVE my guinness gear!!!!
des - 01/06/07 14:36
cool I'm glad you dig em. I almost bought a 2nd hat for myself it looks very warm and comfy.
cool I'm glad you dig em. I almost bought a 2nd hat for myself it looks very warm and comfy.
12/31/2006 12:11 #37477
as 2007 rings inCategory: new year
On the eve of each new year we often reflect on our lives. As I do this dear e-strippers, I wish you joy that never ends and happiness with all your family and friends.
Where were you when 2006 began?
Drunk in the ladies restroom of Regal theatre.
Who were you with?
(e:theecarey)
Where will you be when 2006 ends?
Dressed as Patsy from Ab Fab at the PMT party!
Whom will you be with when 2006 ends?
Everyone at the party.
Was 2006 a good year for you?
Overall, yes. It has been a struggle but I learned so much about myself and who I am that it was worth all the hurt!
What was your favorite moment of the year?
Holding my nephew Ryan for the first time.
What was your least favorite moment of the year?
My Gramma's wake.
Did you keep your New Year resolutions of 2006?
I don't do resolutions.
Do you have any New Year resolutions for 2007?
Again, I don't do resolutions. Just see the list for my plans at the bottom.
Did you fall in love in 2006?
No.
Did you breakup with anyone in 2006?
Friends, yes.
Did you make any new friends in 2006?
Yes.
What was your favorite month of 2006?
September
Did you travel outside of the US in 2006?
Only Canada this year. Blah.
How many different states did you travel to in 2006?
Florida, Georgia, South Carolina, North Carolina, Virginia, West Virginia, D.C., Pennsylvania
Did you lose anybody close to you in 2006?
My Gramma.
Did you miss anybody in the past year?
All my family and friends that live in other countries and states.
What was your favorite movie that you saw in 2006?
The Science of Sleep
What was your favorite song from 2006?
James Blunt - Goodbye My Lover
What was your favorite album from 2006?
30 Seconds to Mars - A Beautiful Lie
How many concerts did you see in 2006?
9
Did you have a favorite concert in 2006?
30STM at Edge Fest
Did you drink a lot of alcohol in 2006?
Yes.
Did you do drugs in 2006?
Yes.
Did you do anything you are ashamed of this year?
I let others walk on me. No more.
What was the worst lie someone told you in 2006?
You're a very beautiful woman.
Did you treat somebody badly in 2006?
Questionable, but probably yes.
Did somebody treat you badly in 2006?
Many.
What was your proudest moment of 2006?
Getting two outstanding employee reviews by both of my bosses.
What was your most embarrassing moment of 2006?
My door opening while having sex.
If you could go back in time to any moment of 2006 and change something, what would it be?
Not drink 8 martinis at Cecilias. Oy.
What are your plans for 2007?
Visit family and friends around Europe
Fix my bike
Fix my trunk and put new wheels on it
Hang that damn spice rack before it's time to move
Write my structure for the text book I'm working on
Get much better at guitar
Graduate
Land a job I love
Buy a car that's not a total piece of shit
Say what I mean and mean what I say
Don't make assumptions
Always do my best
And try not to take things personally!
Where were you when 2006 began?
Drunk in the ladies restroom of Regal theatre.
Who were you with?
(e:theecarey)
Where will you be when 2006 ends?
Dressed as Patsy from Ab Fab at the PMT party!
Whom will you be with when 2006 ends?
Everyone at the party.
Was 2006 a good year for you?
Overall, yes. It has been a struggle but I learned so much about myself and who I am that it was worth all the hurt!
What was your favorite moment of the year?
Holding my nephew Ryan for the first time.
What was your least favorite moment of the year?
My Gramma's wake.
Did you keep your New Year resolutions of 2006?
I don't do resolutions.
Do you have any New Year resolutions for 2007?
Again, I don't do resolutions. Just see the list for my plans at the bottom.
Did you fall in love in 2006?
No.
Did you breakup with anyone in 2006?
Friends, yes.
Did you make any new friends in 2006?
Yes.
What was your favorite month of 2006?
September
Did you travel outside of the US in 2006?
Only Canada this year. Blah.
How many different states did you travel to in 2006?
Florida, Georgia, South Carolina, North Carolina, Virginia, West Virginia, D.C., Pennsylvania
Did you lose anybody close to you in 2006?
My Gramma.
Did you miss anybody in the past year?
All my family and friends that live in other countries and states.
What was your favorite movie that you saw in 2006?
The Science of Sleep
What was your favorite song from 2006?
James Blunt - Goodbye My Lover
What was your favorite album from 2006?
30 Seconds to Mars - A Beautiful Lie
How many concerts did you see in 2006?
9
Did you have a favorite concert in 2006?
30STM at Edge Fest
Did you drink a lot of alcohol in 2006?
Yes.
Did you do drugs in 2006?
Yes.
Did you do anything you are ashamed of this year?
I let others walk on me. No more.
What was the worst lie someone told you in 2006?
You're a very beautiful woman.
Did you treat somebody badly in 2006?
Questionable, but probably yes.
Did somebody treat you badly in 2006?
Many.
What was your proudest moment of 2006?
Getting two outstanding employee reviews by both of my bosses.
What was your most embarrassing moment of 2006?
My door opening while having sex.
If you could go back in time to any moment of 2006 and change something, what would it be?
Not drink 8 martinis at Cecilias. Oy.
What are your plans for 2007?
Visit family and friends around Europe
Fix my bike
Fix my trunk and put new wheels on it
Hang that damn spice rack before it's time to move
Write my structure for the text book I'm working on
Get much better at guitar
Graduate
Land a job I love
Buy a car that's not a total piece of shit
Say what I mean and mean what I say
Don't make assumptions
Always do my best
And try not to take things personally!
Looking at ones self honestly is verry diffacult to do. Somepeople think they are great when they arn't (like my boss, and that drives most of us insane) and some are just the oposite. I'm glad that you (wish I could for myself) have a good a realistic sense of your self. On a side note ironing boards are not really verry fun.
good call on the flat ironing board butt. those are no good. even on the days when i hate my backside, i think of those women, and i feel a little bit better. congrats!
yay yay yay! What an accomplishment! I think it is sometimes hard to find good things to say about yourself, especially when you were raised in a manner in which that was a bad thing....so congrats to you!
And on a side note, I would much rather have a butt than a board too!
ofcourse, I agree with the two gentlemen above, (e:inspiraysean) and (e:mrmike).
and you have rounded out your list. Good for you!! "teeth included" lol. Also, as we reminisced, who knows more about your hair than I do?? That one day back in the early 90's when I permed your super long thick hair and had to use a trash bag to cover all of the rollers. Hundreds of them- hours and hours later.
You could add that you have the best story/history telling scars! "these are from bar fights, shark attacks and Carey" hehe, only one is true.
keep at it- the changes you are working on are already evident. *high five*
ofcourse, I accept you 'as is' :)
Curves have always been a little more fun than straight lines ;)
nice work, takes a lot of courage to look at yourself with love:)