Me and (e:beast) went to see the Last Kiss tonight. It was ok but I don't really like Zach Braff that much. And the girl he has the affair with is just completely unlikable so that you never even think for a second they should be together.

But it was so gross that all of a sudden at one point the whole theater smelled like skunk. Like you can't duplicate skunk smell in anything else so like literally I feel like there much have been a skunk in the room. Like all of a sudden the whole theater smelled like nasty skunk! Eww! We hsould have asked for our money back!!!

P.S. I guess my birthday is really over now, my dad made me take the balloons and gifts out of the living room today!

So as you all probably know, mine and (e:paul)'s grandma died a little over a year ago and it was incredibly stressful/traumatic for me. Tonight my mom's cousins from Florida whom I had never met were in town and so my whole family minus (e:paul) was at my other cousins house. We were all sitting around talking when we got on the topic of do not resusitate orders. Anywho people started takling about my nonna and then like they started telling the whole story about what happened on my graduation. I started to tear up, it was embarassing and sad. My one cousin could tell and started talking to me about other tihngs which was good. Or at least I think he could tell maybe he just decided to talk about something else.

It was nice to hear everyone reminiscing about how amazing my grandmother was and how she was one of the strongest, best, most loving, caring woman anyone there had known. But it really was a lot to take and now it is all I can think about.

One thing everyone said was how my grandmother always made sure to tell everyone she loved them. She thought it was important to always make sure everyone knows you love them since you never know when it will be too late. My one cousin said everyday when she talked to her my grandma would say something like " i wont' be around forever so just always know I love you and make sure you always share that with everyone". That was my granmda. She always wanted everyone to know she loved them. What great advice. It makes the world such a better place.

I'm starting to cry again...here was the note we found by my grandma on the day of my graduation, i've posted it before but want to post it again.





Always let pepole know when you love them, you never know what will happen.

Happy BIRTHDAY CAREY! HOPE IT IS AMAZING!

So my dream was always to be on the Real World. In the I want to but never actually will be or try to be kinda way. Just like a lofty goal of something I just assumed I would do one day, like other things like being a star on a teen drama and becoming royalty on my own island. LIke you know achievable but healthy goals. Anywho I was just on the MTV website and it says you have to be 24 or under to be on Real World that means this next one they are casting for is prolly my last chance ever to get on. Maybe I will do it. My life will be so empty once I realize I can never be on the Real World. Does that mean I won't be king of my own ilsand someday?

Ok, I just posted a minute ago so read that cuz it is interesting but then I heard the craziest news! FOR FASHION WEEK IN MILAN THEY ARE BANNING ANY REALLY SKINNY MODELS!!! They are doing it to prevent eating disorders or whatever! Ridiculous. There is a reason some people are models in Milan fashion shows and some are not! grrr....it bothers me when people try to make it seem like fashion should be antyhing other than what it is...just purely enjoyable to watch fluffiness and fun....like i can watch real sized people wear clothes any day I want....