I am up and ready for work early which never happens (I am usually late) and thought I would stop by (e:strip) since it feels like I haven't been on here in days. Not much new in my life except I ate at Fuddruckers for the first time and it was really good!!! I really liked it!

I also went to Niagara Hobbies and Crafts for the first time because I needed a train conductor hat. That store is cool in a once every 5 years kinda way but the coolest thing was that THEY GIVE OUT FAYS BAGS!!! Yes they still have Fays bags even though they went out of business about 10 years ago. Why Fays had such an abundance of bags made a head of time beats me but the store still uses Fays bags. Those yellow bags are still seen everywhere and I love it. They are so sturdy and they are just the best bags ever!!! Needless to say now I have four new Fays bags to add to my collection and I am one happy camper.

Also, I am tinking of applying for a job at Roswell as a pharmacy tech. It would be like a 3 dollar an hour raise and better benefits (they couldn't get worse than what I have now) But I don't know> I don't know if i reallly want to work in a hospital pharmacy . It doesn't sound extremely fun and plus I always thought like if I got a new job it should be something more like what I want to do with my life instead of just another pharm tech job. But who knows, money is money and I need it! What do you think estrip?

Ok time for work

Me and (e:beast) went to see the Last Kiss tonight. It was ok but I don't really like Zach Braff that much. And the girl he has the affair with is just completely unlikable so that you never even think for a second they should be together.

But it was so gross that all of a sudden at one point the whole theater smelled like skunk. Like you can't duplicate skunk smell in anything else so like literally I feel like there much have been a skunk in the room. Like all of a sudden the whole theater smelled like nasty skunk! Eww! We hsould have asked for our money back!!!

P.S. I guess my birthday is really over now, my dad made me take the balloons and gifts out of the living room today!

So as you all probably know, mine and (e:paul)'s grandma died a little over a year ago and it was incredibly stressful/traumatic for me. Tonight my mom's cousins from Florida whom I had never met were in town and so my whole family minus (e:paul) was at my other cousins house. We were all sitting around talking when we got on the topic of do not resusitate orders. Anywho people started takling about my nonna and then like they started telling the whole story about what happened on my graduation. I started to tear up, it was embarassing and sad. My one cousin could tell and started talking to me about other tihngs which was good. Or at least I think he could tell maybe he just decided to talk about something else.

It was nice to hear everyone reminiscing about how amazing my grandmother was and how she was one of the strongest, best, most loving, caring woman anyone there had known. But it really was a lot to take and now it is all I can think about.

One thing everyone said was how my grandmother always made sure to tell everyone she loved them. She thought it was important to always make sure everyone knows you love them since you never know when it will be too late. My one cousin said everyday when she talked to her my grandma would say something like " i wont' be around forever so just always know I love you and make sure you always share that with everyone". That was my granmda. She always wanted everyone to know she loved them. What great advice. It makes the world such a better place.

I'm starting to cry again...here was the note we found by my grandma on the day of my graduation, i've posted it before but want to post it again.





Always let pepole know when you love them, you never know what will happen.

Happy BIRTHDAY CAREY! HOPE IT IS AMAZING!

So my dream was always to be on the Real World. In the I want to but never actually will be or try to be kinda way. Just like a lofty goal of something I just assumed I would do one day, like other things like being a star on a teen drama and becoming royalty on my own island. LIke you know achievable but healthy goals. Anywho I was just on the MTV website and it says you have to be 24 or under to be on Real World that means this next one they are casting for is prolly my last chance ever to get on. Maybe I will do it. My life will be so empty once I realize I can never be on the Real World. Does that mean I won't be king of my own ilsand someday?