Yes know its the wee hours of Monday morning and I am JUST getting around to posting some pics from Thursday nights activities. I've been busy! Anyways, on to the pics!





Hoping for a bullseye! (Don't I look HOT?) ;-)






(e:Theecarey) throws and hopefully hits the board (she was having issues)






(e:) Ladycroft, throws like a pro






My friend Susan from LI who came up for the weeks attempts her 2nd time EVER playing darts






Maybe with her eyes covered, (e:Theecarey) might do better!






(e:ladycrost) I and covering while (e:theecarey) shoots! (out of picture are the group of guys that (e:theecarey) eventually will hit with a wild dart)





(e:ladycroft) is the winner! (Lucky throw)



(e:ladycroft) is the victim of a run-by stapling as she hots her head on a staple sticking out of the wall. The Arrow helps to point it out



(e:Kangarooboi) (myself) with Susan and (e:ladycroft). Sadly (e:Theecarey) had left before this pic could be taken.

HoweverI do have some mysterous photos of (e:theecarey) that magically appeared on my camera. I wonder how THAT could have happened?!? :-p

(e:Theecarey) and I..(My new SOCO and Lime Buddy)





(e:Jenks) and I





(e:Jenks) and (e:Ladycroft) giving me some lovin!







(e:Ladycroft) getting a nice feel from Baby's Daddy!

AHHH!! I so do not know how to use (e:strip) yet!!! So, with that being said, I will now write for the FORTH time about tonight!!

Tonight was GREAT! (e:Ladycroft), myself and some Canisius friends went out tonight to Cole's. However, when we got there we found out that the bar was closed becasue of a private party and moved next door to Mr.Goodbar. Such good times!
While there, I was given the pleasure of meeting some of the wonderful (e:strip) peeps! (e:Theecarey) and (e:Jenks) are two of the most wonderful ladies I have ever met (next to (e:Ladycroft) :-p). Plus, (e:Theecarey) is the best SOCO and Lime partner EVER!
I also had the pleasure of meeting (e:Terry), (e:Matthew), (e:Paul) & (e:Joshua). While I did not really get a chance to speak to them very much, I am hoping I will in the future. (E:Ladycroft) has told me so much about them (especially (e:Paul), (e:Terry) and (e:Matthew)) I feel like I know them already. (E:Decoyisryan) was also there, but I did not get a chance to meet him personally.

If you are interested in seeing pics from tonight, click on "Pics" over on the right and go to the album labeled "Night Out" (or something like that). Such good times!!

Walls are closing in, the room is getting smaller;
I feel I am suffocating within the limits of my apartment.
I climb the walls, leaving scratch marks as I fall back down,
crumbling in a heep on the floor.
My fingers, they bled with the chance to escape,
but alas, escape is just not in the cards.

So yeah, I just don't know!! Maybe by this time next week I might be playing that single game. Which would be interesting since it would be the first time being single while being "out". But its, so hard being single. That means I have to go out, meet new people blah blah blah.

But you know, I can't do that. I am SO self-conscious about how I look I can't do it. You know, that's a HUGE problem with the GLBT community. Many are so focused on how the person looks, they forget about everything else. Yes, I may not be the most attractive individual (which I find hard to believe) but gish darn it, there's a LOT more to me than just that. But of course if I am not physically appealing to the eye, they won't get to see what I am all about.

But i'm talking like Drew and I are over....which we are not. We had a nice converstaion last night about everyhting. We'll see what happens. He said that he would try to be there more for me and to do things for me to show that he actually cares. BUT...of course I get an IM tonight when I was out shopping with my RAs that he might not be over tonight becasue some of his friends are having a labrynth movie night and they are very domminering and he might be firced into going. Umm...yeah..PUT YOUR FOOT DOWN AND SAY YOU CAN'T GO!! Its not that hard!

No matter what, I am going to be seen as the bad guy. He is trying to put everythung all on me. the way he is talking, he's making it sound like I am forcing him to change who he is to be more of the way that I want him. But i don't think that I am...am I? I mean, it is too much to be asked to have a little love in return?