i really think i am going through a quarter life crisis. more so i think i am just bored. i don't know maybe i am just listening to too much Pavement and reading too much Edward Abbey.

i think i am going to quit my job. i am bored. really really bored. to the point of going crazy. i know this is probably something that every single 20 something goes through at some point. but i think i have made a grave mistake in getting the degree i did. i am losing it.

i took the first step friday though and set up an appointment with an advisor at Erie County boces. i am going to go back to be a teacher. there apparently is a new law in which if you teach Math or Science at an Elementary level in a "high need" area they will pay for your masters. i'm in.

everyone thinks i am going into it naive -and on a whim. this is something i have been wanting for a very long time. i was comfortable with what i was doing and where i was in school and whatnot. i was in a groove. groove over - i can't take it.

scott asked me last nite at the pink if i was ok - insinuating i was depressed. apparently he had stumbled across me on here and drawn the conclusion by reading it i was upset. i am fine. i hope i don't come across on here as a crybaby.... i tend to use this to vent. sorry

13 hours cigarette free

i have been inspired by (e:theecarey). even tho (e:ladycroft) and her think they are curter and cuter then i :)

my favorite moments from 2005

-my 23rd birthday weekend at sundowners
-random indian dance parties with theresa at level
-camping at rhubarb with the boys
-anything but clothes party
-wilco at the knox
-going to spain and tangiers because i felt like it
-the very first time keith called me saying "get in the goddam pool" (thus the beginning of a long summer of pool parties)
-eating 500 boston hotel clams and then getting yelled at at anderson's an hour later for being too fucked up to get a sundae
-each time i have used my bills/sabres seasons (and exposing marla and rachel to the bills army)
-the day i realized i have some pretty goddam good friends
-seeing arcade fire at Vegoose!

my least favorite moments from 2005:

-ruining a good friendship with a failed relationship
-getting poison oak after passing out in the parking lot of the tom petty concert
-when my fake tooth fell out at my cousins graduation dinner
-getting pre evening booty called
-getting in a fight at the pink
-witnessing an attempted murder by dried starfish
-the day i got a flat tire and a cell phone ticket in one
-the day i realized i needed those pretty goddam good friends and couldn't do it on my own



Did you keep your New Year resolutions of 2005?
-um still smoking



Did you fall in love in 2005?
-blah can we skip the love question for now? especially after this weekend...

Did you breakup with anyone in 2005?
yes


Did you make any new friends in 2005?
yes - lots!

What was your favorite month of 2005?
definitely july. july was a great month.

Did you travel outside of the US in 2005?
spain, morocco and canada too!

How many different states did you travel to in 2005?
a few?

Did you miss anybody in the past year?
yea. a lot.


What was your favorite song from 2005?

ooo this is hard. i was unnaturally obsessed with both "beast of burden" and "yoshimi battles the pink robots." seriously - to the point it was almost weird. like listening on repeat continuously for months. and singing karaoke to them on a weekly basis.


What was your favorite album from 2005?
tie between the new pornographers (twin cinema) and the new fiona apple too. the new eels was sweet too.



Did you drink a lot of alcohol in 2005?
ah yes.

Did you do drugs in 2005?
um, a few?

Did you do anything you are ashamed of this year?
obviously. this includes:
-making out at the bar like i was a freshman
-falling asleep in my car naked
-being really really bad with my money this year
-backing into my house by mistake (i have a very narrow driveway!)

What was the worst lie someone told you in 2005?
-hmmmmm. i was told i look hot in zubaz pants?

Did you treat somebody badly in 2005?
-i may have called dyan a firecrotch one too many times

Did somebody treat you badly in 2005?
-yea

What was your proudest moments of 2005?
-defending katies honor by getting in that fight in the pink
-finally sticking up for myself in a lot of situations i let go too far!
-getting a promotion
-figuring out how to configure UPS systems at work

What was your most embarrassing moment of 2005?
-probably walking home naked minus a dairy queen napkin from elmwood

If you could go back in time to any moment of 2005 and change something, what would it be?
-not have taken this semester off from school

What are your plans for 2006?
-quit smoking
-go back to grad school
-go back to the gym
-start sporting more fanny packs
-get my sister to break up with her old man baby's daddy boyfriend
-stop drinking so much PBR
-stop going out assholes
-start cooking more
-take a dreamweaver class
-take samba lessons
-start a non "LOL" movement
-get back into photography
-beat my brother in bubble puck
-write a essay on the New Buffalo BiSexual movement i have uncovered and my feelings on it
-save some money
-change something BIG in my life. i don't know what yet. but i need to figure it out.

hey i am ambitious this year....

the cook at my work really is awful at his job. for a time i was getting egg and cheese breakfast quesadillas. when he came on as chef, he would constantly forget the egg. seriously - everyday. this is not a breakfast quesadilla, buddy. just a quesadilla.
just now i went to get some lunch - i ordered a cheese quesdilla with hot sauce. he forgot the hot sauce. i am thinking of writing a letter of complaint. is that pushing it?

also - i have a friend nolan. he is dating a girl named Sheba. If they get married, her name will be Sheba Katz. and that is really funny.

fate is going to find your love
in a glass of champagne




new years has never hurt so bad on both the inside and the out.

ahhh he talked to me! granted it was via IM. but still - contact. basically its was just saying 'wasup' and seeing what i was doing. i am sure this is to prevent awkward nites in the future. right? ((e:sbrugger) input please?)

also. i am trying to teach myself to knit. i got one of the Klutz series books aimed for prepubcent girls and i still can't figure it out. it is driving me crazy. there is yarn all over my cubicle.