Well, i don't even know. Sometimes I feel like I did earlier, now I feel like I do now, which is a good ole fashion 180 from how I felt earlier. I don't even know where they come from anymore. These thoughts just poke in, take their sweet time hanging out in my head, and then leave. They do a great job fucking me up while they are there, and the idea sticks around long after they are gone.
I guess the right and left parts of my brain are having a difference of opinion right now.

I found this link on a friends myspace, so I decided to sign up. LoOKs like fun, so why not give it a whirl and see how it works.

I'm in a little bit of a freak out today. I'm 27, and to some that doesn't seem so old, to others its seems like an eternity. I have a good job, a good girl, and that is exactly the problem. I know exactly what I'm going to be doing, and who I am going to be doing them with for the next 30 years of my life, and that freaks me out just a little bit. I don't feel comfortable knowing that my life is perfectly laid out before me, and that everything is going to be OK. What happened to the chaos that I used to strive off of during the last 10 years or so on my life. Sure, I didn't know how I was going to get home, or even pay the rent once I got there, but at least I was used to it, and was a survival expert at doing it. Now I have a back account, a good apartment, a job that I am making great money, extra money, a girl that loves me, and I love her, and I'm going crazy because of it.