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06/28/09 08:14 - 70.ºF - ID#49113

Why are Guys so Complicated?

At first its all about the chase, then as the months go by...they all want variety and turn into sexaholic, lying cheaters and their buddies mean more to him then you do.

He likes to keep you close...just so he knows he has some control, he needs to know who im with and where I've been....

But he can go do what he pleases and lie about where he is and who he's with.

He treats me like im his friend instead of his partner...then he feels guilty when im 5mins from dropping him off at home ...so he shows little affection.

He wants me around because I've become more of a comfortability blanket to him then a lover.

I suppose he is just too young and immature.



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06/26/09 02:35 - 78.ºF - ID#49089

If you Love Me Then Just Admit It

Dont try and act like you don't want me, be adult enough to just admit it.
Also, im tired of letting children into my heart, its time to childproof my heart and life.





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Luka Magnotta

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06/25/09 09:35 - 72.ºF - ID#49086

Michael Jackson Is My Idol:Luka Magnotta

Michael Jackson was a idol and inspered millions of people . He changed the world of Music with his breath taking voice and Amazing Dance moves to us he will always be the "King of Pop" but for others he was more then that. So today we will Morn the death of this Major Music Icon. I pray that his Family is well and Friends are safe .
And to all the Fans Pray for this Man Cuz without most of the music you mear wouldn't be here with out him.
God Bless is soul and hope he is there with the ones he lost.
I will miss him My Family Will Miss Himt he Nations around the world will Miss him.
Rest in Peace My Idol I will Pray for you and will love you forever and always

Luka Magnotta


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06/24/09 10:28 - 72.ºF - ID#49074

Madonna's Song Cheers Me Up

This song has gotten me through some tough break ups. It brings back a lot of painful and pleasant memories. The love of my life and I are having problems and this song cheers me up. I love the lyrics.


Luka Magnotta

Madonna True Blue: Luka Magnotta



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06/24/09 10:20 - 72.ºF - ID#49073

People Are Intimidated by My Looks

Im beautiful and men and women are intimidated by me. People feel bad 4 themselves cuz their ugly. Try being naturally beautiful. It can be harder. people feel sorry 4 ugly people. They don't feel sorry 4 beautiful. They resent u. Im not conceided, im just telling it like it is.




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06/24/09 10:07 - 72.ºF - ID#49072

Unless Youve Lived My Life Dont Judge Me

Unless You've Lived My Life Then Dont Judge Me.


Don't speak. Don't talk to me
Why can't you see what you cannot be?
Problems to ???
What are you supposed to be?
It's not me. I am what I am.

Can you really be so sure with me?
Telling me what's going on
Sick and tired of people telling me
Who am I and what to be

Don't judge me
I've had enough
Don't judge me


You think you're sacred
Really, you don't mean shit
The world doesn't stop
'cause you think it will

Don't care
if you think I'm not a fuckin' star
I've gotta laugh at you
That's who you aren't

I Mean It. Dont Speak shit about my life unless u have walked a day in my shoes.





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06/24/09 10:00 - 72.ºF - ID#49071

Nothing is Wrong With Being Bisexual

Many religious people do find it wrong. But, many other people see nothing wrong with it.

It is a natural variance. Homosexuality in and of itself does not harm the person (last I checked plenty of straight people have stds and all that). Same sex parents are shown to be just as effective as opposite sex parents.

There is no non religious reason that stands to think bisexuality or homosexuality is wrong.

But, there is also an added bias against bisexuals, because people think they are promiscuis. Part of this comes as a result of some religious people defining orientation by behavior, and not actual orientation. They think you are only gay if you have gay sex. You are only bisexual if you are having sex with atleast two people, one of same sex one of opposite sex. And those defiinitions are wrong. Behavior is actually only a very very small part of defining orientation.
Does mankind ever agree on one thing?

No. Thus there is no supreme authority on morality especially.

Live your life comfortably, be true to yourself, introspect. Form your own morality/belief system based on this so that you may live a fulfilling, just life according to your own standards.

If you are bisexual, you're likely to say it is not wrong.

If you are heterosexual and are ingrained with traditional teachings, you're likely to say it is.


No, its not wrong and anyone who says as much is simply narrow minded and hateful. Look. You are the way you are. There's nothing wrong with that. Really, is there one single rational reason that bisexuality is "wrong" or "evil"? No. Because some god (not even the oldest god in history) says so? No.

Be who you are. You don't CHOSE your sexuality. It is what it is.


Absolutely nothing wrong with being bisexual.
What you are is not wrong, nor could it be.

If you are happy, healthy, safe and responsible, f*ck what religious people say or think.
Like they have any grip on reality to begin with. Who the hell are they to judge. Enjoy your life as you are built.



Being who you truly are is never wrong.

When humans gather together and form communities that's when things can go wrong for many because of the rules and customs that develop. Fears and injustices are always present in communities. That's just how humans -to date - are wired. Someday far in the future humans will not have these fears and life will be very different.








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06/24/09 09:54 - 72.ºF - ID#49070

Homophoes Are Closeted Homosexuals

It really bothers me when girls make fun of gay men or "straight" guys are scared to death because they come in contact with a Gay or Bi man. Ok, your raised to hate gays and be scared.....but its 2009. Gays are everywhere. If u don't like gays then go hide under a rock, we're not going anywhere.

Throughout my life Ive had several encounters with guys that go out of their way to prove to everyone how straight they are only to find out later they werent so straight after all. My theory is if you are straight, and truly comfortable in your own sexuality why do you give a damn about others? Why do you feel so uncomfortable about us? My experiences have led me to believe that these same people only do so because they are trying desparately to conceal their own feelings. Well now I have proof.

Psychoanalytic theory holds that homophobia -- the fear, anxiety, anger, discomfort and aversion that some ostensibly heterosexual people hold for gay individuals -- is the result of repressed homosexual urges that the person is either unaware of or denies. A study appearing in the August 1996 issue of the Journal of Abnormal Psychology, published by the American Psychological Association (APA), provides new empirical evidence that is consistent with that theory.

Researchers at the University of Georgia conducted an experiment

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involving 35 homophobic men and 29 non-homophobic men as measured by the Index of Homophobia scale. All the participants selected for the study described themselves as exclusively heterosexual both in terms of sexual arousal and experience.

Each participant was exposed to sexually explicit erotic stimuli consisting of heterosexual, male homosexual and lesbian videotapes (but not necessarily in that order). Their degree of sexual arousal was measured by penile plethysmography, which precisely measures and records male tumescence.

Men in both groups were aroused by about the same degree by the video depicting heterosexual sexual behavior and by the video showing two women engaged in sexual behavior. The only significant difference in degree of arousal between the two groups occurred when they viewed the video depicting male homosexual sex: 'The homophobic men showed a significant increase in penile circumference to the male homosexual video, but the control [non-homophobic] men did not.'

Broken down further, the measurements showed that while 66% of the non-homophobic group showed no significant tumescence while watching the male homosexual video, only 20% of the homophobic men showed little or no evidence of arousal. Similarly, while 24% of the non-homophobic men showed definite tumescence while watching the homosexual video, 54% of the homophobic men did.

When asked to give their own subjective assessment of the degree to which they were aroused by watching each of the three videos, men in both groups gave answers that tracked fairly closely with the results of the objective physiological measurement, with one exception: the homophobic men significantly underestimated their degree of arousal by the male homosexual video.

Do these findings mean, then, that homophobia in men is a reaction to repressed homosexual urges, as psychoanalysis theorizes?

While their findings are consistent with that theory, the authors note that there is another, competing theoretical explanation: anxiety. According to this theory, viewing the male homosexual videotape may have caused negative emotions (such as anxiety) in the homophobic men, but not in the non-homophobic men. As the authors note, 'anxiety has been shown to enhance arousal and erection,' and so it is also possible that 'a response to homosexual stimuli [in these men] is a function of the threat condition rather than sexual arousal per se. These competing notions can and should be evaluated by future research.'






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Closeted Homosexuals are my pet peve.
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06/24/09 02:52 - 81.ºF - ID#49064

Dont Be Jealous Of Me: Hot or Not

Some people have said I'm hot, but I don't get any guys approaching me. So some have said guys don't approach me becuase they might be intimidated by my beauty. But some say I'm not that beautiful (girls) and maybe that's why I don't get approached. Am I too beautiful? Are they jealous? Or just brutally honest?
Where do I fall on the "looks" scale? I would rather men answer, please be COMPLETLY HONEST with me. How beautiful am I?
No haters or stalkers. Only reply if you think im really really hot because otherwise I don't want to hear it okay.






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06/24/09 01:22 - 80.ºF - ID#49063

Fingernail Compulsion

Ever since I was a little kid, I've had this compulsion to cut my fingernails, cuticles, and the skin around my fingernails, to the point that I've come to identify it as a form of self-mutilation, . I often sit, sometimes for an hour, cutting away at my cuticles with a pair of fingernail clippers, to the point that they're just an awful-looking mass of hardened, brittle tissue and nail. My fingernails are so short, so whittled down, that I can't even open a can without having to grab my keys or a knife to flip the tab up enough for me to grab it. I couldn't find any decent pics, but my fingers look considerably worse than those of a typical nailbiter.
I also have to go get a manicure three times a week because im so self consious of the way my toe and fingernails look.

Do any other adults struggle with this? How do you deal with it?







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