we have a new pope!

but why would anyone ever choose a name like "Benedict"??? especially since 15 other's had already choosen it (made that mistake), it just sounds like eggs...

and he had a cool name already, what's wrong with "Joe"???

Pope Joe ;) I like that better

it was necessary... i had to do it... i coudnt put it off any longetr... i needed a night of PROCRASTINATION and it felt GREAT!!!

i feel like I've been going non-stop forever...

i took the FE on Saturday... i didn't realize an 8 hour test would take up 12.5 hours of my day... not to mention drain the hell out of my brain as i sat there for through the second part of the test... just staring at the test booklet and playing Eni-meni-minni-mo for 4 hours... it was ridiculous, i think out of the 60 questions in the second part, i "knew" only about 5 of them... YIKES!!! well i don't get the results for a while so until i find out if i passed and am done or failed and will be taking it again in Oct, I'm just gonna forget all about it!!!

and Saturday night, Sunday all day (after practice) and today (the tI'me from when i got home from practice until it was due at 3:30) i have been working on that stupid senior design building project... i just want it to all be over with!!!! NOW!!!!

but i spent a good hour lunch break with jacks ranting back and forth about rowing and how we are both SO annoyed at everything in life right now

and rowing is killing me... I'm sucking SO bad right now... it's so sad, but i just can't wait till it's over... i never thought i'd say that, and i know once it's over I'll prolly be so sad and regret ever saying it, but there ya go, i can't wait till it's over!!! only 27 more days!!! then i can drink again too!!! ohhh, i could soo go for a drink right about now.

ok, so after i handed in what i had actually finished (not nearly all of it) i went to the athletic dept... i needed to talk to my coach. well jacks was there talking to hI'm at the tI'me!!! so the two if us pretty much blew up at hI'm letting out all of our frustration of what he's putting us through right now... (maybe I'll get into that later... not in the mood to right now)

then i went to dinner and saw yassi!!!! i love yassi!!! she's the sweetest girl in the world!!! and we had been talking about going dress shopping for our formal banquet in Clemson this weekend, but couldn't find tI'me for it... till i came up with my brilliant plan: when we are both totally overwhelmed with school work and the need for sleep, WE SHOULD PROCRASTINATE AND GO DRESS SHOPPING!!!!

SO WE DID!!! it was great to be doing something... anything other than school work and thinking!!! and we both succeeded!!! both got a dress to wear this weekend!!! (and I'm excited cuz i need it for my engineering senior banquet coming up in a few weeks too!!!) even better, i charged that to my mom's credit card... happy (late) birthday to me!!!

ahh, but now I'm soo tired, i could try to get some work done, cuz i know i have so much to do, but NOPE!!! I'm going to sleep ;)

hey, and anyone know of any architectural (structural or some civil) engineering internships in the buffalo area??? i need a job!!! and my locations are limited to Miami and buffalo...

ok, i had a realization the other day in class that i am totally screwed and going to have to practically kill myself in order to finish everything this semester.

first of all, i am stupid for signing up to take the stupid FE (fundamentals of engineering exam) for this spring... TOMORROW!! because it's a pass fail test... and after my practices and studying, passing doesn't look all that likely. but it's an 8 hour test!!! 8 hours which i don't have, not to mention all the hours i've spent studying for the stupid thing... ahhhh, and what pisses me off even more is the fact that im one of only 3 people in my class who are even taking it this spring (it's offered only twice a year) because everyone else is waiting until they have more time (like the fall or nest spring after they graduate) to actually study for it...WHY DIDNT I THINK OF THAT?????

ok, so aside from the FE, i have the due dates of 5 big projects coming up... only 1 of which i have even started yet... and that's the one i have been working on since august... and i want to kill 4 of the other 5 people in my group... since i know how to do the stuff i have gotten stuck doing plumbing and drainage in addition to all the other shit i already had to do with the stupid building...

the other projects are:
2) designing a HVAC system for my apt (and figuring out all the cooling loads and stuff... i don't know how to do that)
3) designing the lighting and electricity of my apt (but that's a group project... but the girls im working with don't do shit!!! go figure) (and yeah, i picked my apt again... don't have to go far to do the analysis ;) )
4) designing the structure system of a big masonry building for my masonry class... yeah... um....
5) cost analysis and all that bullshit for my senior design building (and yes... with the same bastards im working on senior design with... grrr)

ok, and then finals are coming up... ahhhhh!!!! it's still too soon to even think of that though....

and rowing!!! oh god ROWING!!!! i think i already f'd that up... the past 2 days at practice i totally lost my seat to mot just 1 person, but to 3 people!!! meaning if i want to get back in the boat, 3 people have to get really sick come time for the ACC championships... i know that's horrible to say, but ahhhh!!!! and another senior on the team who has been sucking worse than me even, burst into tears today about 3/4 through practice, slightly causing herself to hyperventilate... well deep down all i was thinking was thank God it was her not me, or even her before me... cuz once that happened and went on for a good 10 minutes, our coach had to send us in to the dock... we were out of time!!! no more pieces!!!!

so now that i have efficiently wasted a good bit of time writing this, i guess i need to get back to studying for that stupid test... :(

and (e:amanda), you know i love ya... but you may miss him, but how on earth would you have time for him right now??? well aside from all your "shots" hehehehehehe, my little alcoholic ;) i gave up on all that boy stuff for now... no time!!! :( but if im still here for the summer ;)

ahhh, that means i still have to find a job!!! ahhhh, why doesn't anyone want to hire me??? I'm not a total moron all the time... am i???

ahhh, now i really want a drink... STUPID STUPID DRY SEASON!!!!

may 15th can't come soon enough!!! ;)

if only something like this would happen to me, it would totally make my day!!!

so my friend Eric was walking home from dinner this evening when this guy (kinda older, really didn't look like a student) comes up to him and asks Eric if he smokes weed (and from the look of this guy, he's had his share of it)...

so in an attempt to get rid of the guy, Eric responds "no" and tries to walk away

(wrong answer) then the guy then stops Eric and asks him if he would take a pee test (drug test) for him for $5 because this man "really needed to get this job, but he wasn't going to be able to get it if he took the test"

now Eric, the nice, ethical boy he is, said no and continued to walk away... only to shortly after realize what had just happened, burst out laughing, and to immediately tell me when he got back to his apt...

i always share my stupid drug testing stories with him (and others), but his story totally beat mine to the ground...

i think that's hilarious... some random guy just asks him for some pee... i think he should have tried to bargain for more money. if the man was that desperate he would have found a way to pay it. what would have been even funnier was if Eric had been on crack or something... but no, none of that happened, but still... i just wish someone would ask me for my pee, i'd feel so honored!! ;)

maybe next time i have drug testing I'll go up to some random person i see and ask them if they'll pee in a cup in front of the drug test lady for me, so I wont get kicked off the team, hehehe... oh, and offer them $5 of course ;)

on a side note, my phone is in bad bad shape... parts were falling out of it today, the back keeps falling off and the battery keeps unlocking itself to the phone and it shuts off on me mid conversation... happened 3 times just last night while i was talking to (e:amanda) :( after 3 years with this one, i think it's finally time for a new phone :( and hopefully i wont drop the next one as much as i have with this one... the poor thing... i think i would stop working and start falling apart too if i was dropped that many times...

ok, i really am stupid, i guess the dementia comes with the old age... i turn 22 and it all goes down hill from there...

i have been trying to log onto this site since last night around 11:45 when i got home from our state championships (which i don't want to talk about... it didn't go well) and we were all too tired to go out for my birthday, sad eh??? but the day was ove,r so too late to celebrate anyways...

but here's where my stupidity comes in... my name is JULIE we all know that... it's been my name since i was born. i learned how to spell it when i was like 3 years old... that's 19 years of spelling it... yet somehow i was typing my name into the "login box" as "JUILE" but it wasn't working... of course it wasn't working... it's not my name, i'm soo stupid!!!! what's wrong with me?? ahhh

but off the track of my stupidity, i finally got a call back from a company about a job for this summer... it's the company i would die to work for!!! they design stadiums and big things like that... that's what i got into architectural engineering to do!!! ever since i started seeing the HSBC arena going up on my way to school every morning... (it wasnt called that then though was it?) well anyways, i sent them my resume and stuff the other day and got a call back on Friday... unfortunately, we were driving and then at the race course all day Friday and i didn't get the message till late Friday night, but i can't wait till Monday to call em back (i called on Saturday, but the guy i needed to talk to wasnt in tht office) but i'm soo excited!!!

and i met my landlord for this summer and next year... i never had a landlord before... i'm soo excited!!! although she is known to be a psycho bitch... it's still an apt!!!

but for now i have to get back to work... i have to finish my senior design project by monday, eeeek, while i have my FE (fundamentals of engineering) exam this saturday, oh, i'm soo not ready for that :( and it's an entire 8 hours of multiple choice questions about everything i've learned since freshman year... i didn't know i had to remember that stuff...

and i only have about a month left of the semester... that means only 1 more month with all my friends i have been in classes with since freshman year... school just wont be the same at all with out them... we were all talking the other day... about them all leaving, they were sad, i think i was upset the most... i'm still gonna be stuck here next year, but they're not gonna be here anymore :(

ahhh, and that means my time is running out to make my move on a certain gentlemen in my class... i really want to do it, but at the same time, there's only 1 month left and he's going away to grad school next aug :( oh well... a month will have to be long enough... ;)

wow, i'm so glad i finally learned how to spell my name right again!!!!

WOW, i had such a great time in San Diego this past weekend!!! unfortunatley have not yet settled back into the east coast time zone yet though...

but we had a BLAST!!! racing went soo well!!! much better than we could have imagined it to be... we had been warned of these terrible wind conditions, but it was beautiful, a little wind yes, but nothing too dramatic.

And hanging out in CA was great!!! a bunch of us had never been to the west coast before (the farthest west i think i had ever been was to Indiana, that's not west at all) but it was soo nice and we had such a good time!!!

and of course i have pictures for ya... lovely digital camera!!!

first off is a pretty little shot of san diego on our drive to the hotel from the race course


then here's a shot from the hotel... soo hilly, we never see hills here, they seem crazy to me!!!


and then a group of us at the hotel waiting for everyone else so we could go to dinner!!!


then sat morning at the race coursem such a pretty course, eh? (it's a shot of our other boat)


then i couldn't go without a shot from inside the van. we spent so much "quality time" in those vans... belting otu some good old "all for one" and "boys 2 men" (sorry i didn't get any pictures of that, but i know someone got video!!)


and then a shot from on top of a big bridge on our way to the beach


and another one with a shot of san diego


then at the beach, here are some sand dunes... i've never seen anything like this before... i don't think


and then some frolicking on the beach


then sarah, karen, laura and jacks in the pacific ocean!!!


and then jacks and I... wow, the pacific is a lot colder than the atlantic, especially when it splashes up on your legs...


and some pretty flowers we saw... named after some bird, oh, i forgot what it's called


then a bunch of people riding this "bike"???


and of course, what better way to end it than with a picture of everyone sprawled all over in the (LAX) airport heading back to miami on our lovely red eye flight



so there ya go, a view of my trip, kinda ;)

ahhh, not even 22 yet and i already have white hairs!!!

my friend sitting behind me in class today tapped me on the shoulder to tell me i had a white hair, so of course, my instinct was "get it out" so i asked her to, she did, and she handed it to me...

it was soo white!!! at first i thought it might just be a blond one, i have a bunch of those from the sun, but nope, it was a white one!!!

and after we got that one taken care of and half the class was laughing at me since i had her pull out the evidence, she started noticing a bunch more white ones...

where did they come from???? why do i have em??? they were telling me i must have been thinking too much, that that causes them, what kind of explanation is that???

so i guess at the ripe old age of almost 22 i have a few options...
1) start dying my hair to hide those white little strands
2) live in denial that they exist by wearing my hair in a ponytail so noone can see em, unlike wearing it down as i had it today
3) except that im getting old, going white and grey, then balding, then before i know it, menapause will side swipe me on some random tuesday...

ahhh, so stressful!!!

but on a side note, i finally went after my poor little easter bunny... he's been hanging out on my desk for over a week now, it had to happen, just as I'm going "white," he had to go deaf eventually ;)

OK... so last night i finally found out that i made the boat that is going to san diego!!! I MADE IT!!! the lineup is set and I'm going!!! I'm sooo excited!!! I've been killing myself the past 4 years to make it and finally i got it!!! YEAH!!!!

and I finally talked to (e:amanda) last night... hehehehe sounds like she's having soo much fun!!! no, not really... but SHE WILL TONIGHT!!! why? how? you may ask... CUZ IM GONNA GO VISIT HER!!!! really late tonight though... eeek, but we have tomorrow off, go figure, it's Easter... but I'm soo excited to finally get to see her!!!

herm... but the past few days have been soo stressful with stuff, here is a view of what i have been doing to get my mind off all of it ;)

these are little "mini jenga blocks" as i call em, or the actual name is "mini timber tumble" i like the name i gave em better... but i got em at target the other day for a dollar... i really like that $1 section they have in the front... you can get some good crap there... for real cheap!!! so this is how they start out:

and then i start to play:

but then i go a little too far, and :( :

but it's ok, cuz i can just start over again, and make any design i like:

but i have to say it is a risky thing leaving it set up on my desk... i already bumped it the other day with a book and... they all fall down, it's a sad sight, but just more time to waste rebuilding it!!!

ahhh, i really gotta do my work, I'm sooo behind and have hardly studdied for that 8 hour test i have coming up in april, ahhhhhh!!!! oh well, forget about that now, I'm back to playing with the blocks till (e:amanda) calls and i head to the keys!!!

oh, and happy easter bunny day ;) (tomorrow)!!!

herm...

I like this place. I really don't know anyone, well i can't really say that... I met (e:mike) a few times through (e:amanda) and of course i know (e:amanda) but she signed on even after i did. ahh, whatever, i really like this though. im away at school but i still kinda get to hear about what's going on back in buffalo, and all the other places people have ventured to for that matter. but what's great about the buffalo part is that when it snows, i get to play with it!!! and if i get sick of it, all i have to do is "shovel" and it's all gone!!! that is sooo cool, that's the buffalo i would love!!! ;) but this is definitly a fun thing to do. I get to tell my stupid stories, and it relieves the people here from having to hear em all, instead you guys get most of em ;) well some of em... but what i like about it is i feel like i can write about anything, even about more than i would tell most people here, embarrassing things (I know of at least one thing in particular that still to this day, i only think like 2 people here even know about, hehehehe but it's open for anyone here to read about) and that's ok with me. so i don't think anyone should have to censor themselves, especially (e:paul) if you wanna put up a picture of yourself, go for it! there's no shame in it...

ok, but now onto a totally different topic... (or 2) so i didn't go to see (e:amanda) the other night when she got in :( but i guess it's a good thing cuz she said she didn't get in till like 2:30 am, and if i would have waited up for that, that would have been BAD!!! but i have been trying to get a hold of her to see if i should drive down to where she is for like a few hours (she's only about 2 hours away... how can i not go?) but she has been telling me NO! :( she's soo close and i have sunday (Easter) totally off, and saturday, i am free after practice. but ahhh, i still don't know what's going on with the rowing thing. am i in the boat, or am i out??? i keep asking the coach but he refuses to answer me... NOT COOL!!! i know he knows... i just wanna know if I'm going to san diego or not. but if I'm not, I'm gonna be pissed that i got knocked out, cuz i know i shouldn't get knocked out... ahhhh, i hate not knowing...

ahhh, i don't have any pictures for ya this time. I had a cool (funny) picture idea, but it didn't come out well... here, try to picture it... it was of me standing in my swimsuit on the beach (probably too bright which is why it didn't come out) ok, but it looked like i was really tan, except i wasn't just wearing my swimsuit, it looks like im wearing a pair of white shorts and a white wife beater with my swimsuit on top(oh, and a pair of white socks too) ... ahhh, i prolly didn't explain it well at all... but it really is funny looking. stupid tan lines... all from 1 week... oh well... i love my tan lines :)

ah ha!!! i finally got some time in my room today which gave me a chance to set up my computer in there on my desk (not propped on my lap out in the living room, like it has been)

lets see how long this lasts...




oh, by the way, i have a moral dilemma:
(e:amanda) is arriving here in Miami tomorrow night at 11:09pm... heading to her hotel in Homestead FL, about 35 minutes south of my place, and that is where i am supposed to meet her (around midnight) and then she leaves early wed morning to go down south more...
however, i have a killer practice on wed morning (have to be up by 5:00am) and by killer, i mean killer... and by killer i mean i need sleep...

I REALLY WANNA SEE HER!!! BUT... BUT... I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO!!! everyone on my team has been telling me not to go, i can't let them down... but, ahhhhh, i don't know what to do...

i wish the manatees were here right now to tell me what to do...