I'm in a fairly good mood today and feeling a little more optimistic than normal. I think I blow things out of proportion sometimes. I've actually been accused of being a little dramatic. Hmm. I understand why people would think that however it's hard to take a step back and look at your own life sometimes. It's much easier for someone else to tell you how they see things, much more black and white.

I decided about 2 months ago, after I met this guy who literally tore me apart this summer, that I didn't want to be single anymore. Why on earth after I had my heart broken I came to the conclusion that I wanted a boyfriend I don't really know. I guess it's better to feel extremes than nothing. I wanted to try something different, since most of my men meeting experiences have involved bars and sporting events. I thought that maybe if I looked for people who wanted more than a fling I would have better luck. I tried the whole internet dating scene. It didn't work for me. I will tell you why.

Yesterday I pulled myself off match.com. I am not a picky person (well I don't think I am at least). It's hard to say what you want on paper, because it's possible that if I met one of those guys from match at a bar I would consider them. However there are things that are important to me that HAVE got to also be important to the person I would be matched with. You have the opportunity to list what you want in a relationship. The main problem is that people don't read it. They see a picture or get an idea in their head. One thing that I have found amusing is the sports freaks that I meet that think we are meant to be because I am also a sports fan. That's like someone thinking that a guy with an electrical engineering degree wants to hang out and drink coffee and talk about it. I love watching sports and I would like to watch baseball with someone, yes, however it does not mean we are meant to be. I just want someone I can get along with and that is sarcastic and fun and smart and likes to talk about crazy random things. I didn't know guys had such an opinion either way on redheads. I have really long red curly hair and I guess some people are into that. Then, there are those who are specifically looking for people who aren't redheads. Isn't that a little shallow and weird? I am 27 so I put my age range from 22-32. That does not mean 42. I had this one person "wink" at me who was in his late 40's, had long hair a mustache and no shirt on in his picture and it looked like it could have been a mug shot. I closed it out right away and that was it.

I am sure that it works for some people, but in all honesty, I'm interesting and good enough looking that I should be able to meet someone on my own and the unwanted attention scares me. The internet just stresses me out. I just need to get out more often!!!