i went camping friday on an island ,i forget the name but it was fun. i havent been camping since i was in middle school
robin and i use to camp in her back yard with our other friends taffy and shannon who lived in shannon on shannon road
i never realized how much pot we actually smoked back then untill i got older
and i don't even know if it was pot now that i think about it. shannon would grab
hand fulls of this crappy,stringy green weak leafs from big buckets in her parents closet.every weekend we would smoke this mystery and drink what ever we could find from anywhere we could find it.
one of those nights taffy accumulated a bottle of mr jack danials.everyone one got sick. robins mom was asking questions ,
so robin and i told her we were throwing up from cigars that robins dad gave us earlier that day,he tried to trick us into getting sick so we wouldnt want to smoke anymore but really he got in trouble and we got away once more.

thursday was my last day to watch the old lady who broke her hip
i decided to take her shopping, she had lost so much weight since this all happened
every time she would stand up to grab her walker her pants would fall down exposing those granny panties every one jokes about,but i really had the pleasure of seeing the blinding silk.thankx . so we pulled up in the handicap parking outside of the wonderful tj max and i went to get the walker out of the right side of the back seat.she had already opened her door and was pulling her legs around when i slammed the back door shut. all of the sudden she starts screaming. i panicked i didn't know what was wrong and she couldn't get any words out of her mouth. finally she screamed my hand . i opened the back door and realized i had slammed the door on her hand. i felt terrible but it was an accident and i don't think she thought it was

robin and i have played basketball and softball together since elem.
my first memory of her was at the first day of softball practice and she was behind the plate catching while all the girls took turns batting,someone was at the plate and hit the ball strait up to where it disappeared ,she was kinda walking in circle
just really stirring up the dirt with her glove out like the ball was just gonna automatically fall right in but thats not what happened, it came down eventually and hit her right on the top of the head,she didn't cry like most of those girls would have she grabbed her head, smiled and said(ouch)
i always liked her after that.our sisters were the same age and were best friend in elem. school,so me and robin were bound to become friend.most people that come from our town never go to college,they live on their familys land and work for their parents or the near by mill, never even leaving that town or ever having any reason to.im very proud of robin being 22 and already in graduate school,i only hope that i can accomplish that one day.if robin had not of been there in middle school with me
i would of never made it to the age of 16.
she helped me escape my home and i owe her everything.she is a great artist and a even better friend, yeah i love her for that

first off sorry paul
well this week has been a crazy one
i went to work here at the hotel yesterday at 5 worked a double till 7am
and i had to be at that ladys house at 8 am and be back here to work the 3rd shift at 9
i think im seeing things my eyes keep kinda shaking.oh and there has been drama with porn and web stalkers,crazy co-workers
but today when i got to the ladys house i made her breakfast(opened a cantainer of fruit)and then tried to lay down on the couch,but then she started screaming at me again.i don't think she meens to scream she just can't hear her self,her voice makes me angry these days, its very annoying .she screamed(doont, dooont you go too sleep coourtney you better not .i waant youuu too make meeeeeee some
pecaaaan piiiies.damn her. i worked a double at the hotel then went strait to her house.what! i screamed( ill make them on thursday OK!)they don't have to be ready till friday when her son comes in to town, but she wanted them today and fucking freeze them,i repeated my opinion about thursday and then i think she went ild hag on me and forgot that we were even having a conversation. and that was fine with me
i took her to the docter around 3 pm
and she started to crying.i felt really bad but i was so tired i wanted to ignore it and just take her home and leave her in the driveway, speeding off home as fast as i could, i pictured that in my head i really did because i usually get off at 5 go home and sleep to be back here at 11 and have an hour of travel in traffic both way but i coulnt ignore her crying it broke my heart.so i decided to bring her to the beach to get out and see the ocean it made her so happy i didn't even care that i was not going to be able to sleep before i had to be back here.yeah im lying i fucking cared im tired, so here i am no sleep since monday working a crazy shift of work that has lasted almost 2 days

i broke up with my boyfriend today
he finally aloud it
but then he asked me a question,

will you still suck my dick?
can we,
still have sex?
uh

working 16 hour days is luda
i watch a little old lady during the day
she broke her hip
she needs to stop screaming at me
i fell a sleep. a needed sleep,right beside her on the couch
i woke to her screaming,cooourtney ,cooourtney i want some waaater,in a screeching old loud lady smoker voice .
right in my freakin ear
i wanted to scream back and say
get your own damn water, what is that walker for anyway.
but i didn't

trying to break up with some one is very
complicated.

i work the third shift
in a haunted hotel. gene harlow lived here.
there has been 5 people who have died here,
it was also a half way house at one point