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Category: photos

09/27/11 07:53- ID#55205

More MIA 2011

Just wanted to explain that those things all over are dresses in the process of being made... Wish I could have gone around and got pictures of everyone in their dress and outfit got some though.....

Words: 308
Location: Buffalo, NY

Category: philosophy

09/24/11 05:53- ID#55191

Fear-->hate-->The Darkside

So thanks to the girls who where freaking out at the bus stop over the bee. That shows you how crazy fear is... If you want you can put this into perspective about bullies and that is fine it is kinda a sub post or sub point... Of course that assumes you read the previous one... This is more about fear though and not hate that comes from it so... There is this tiny little bee that will only attack if you bother it.. Once it stings you it dies. It just like dogs can smell the fear.. Ok maybe not the fear but the chemical your body produces hence why bees bother you and dogs Bark at yeah.. It is real easy to say you shouldn't fear these things you do eggs them on... (I think some people can smell it or fear it)... That is why in a hood that is sketchy the best thing to do is not to hide not to watch shadows not be jumpy to know anyone fucks with you it is a chop to the throat then back elbow to the head and if he is with buddies they won't fuck with you after that... But no one can do that with bees, Bullies, or Dogs really or at least not all of them... I'm not saying that with Bullies we cause it to happen. But being fearless would cut down on a lot of it.... Again not saying that can happen... I know I don't trust dogs they are there to protect their area and if you are in you are a threat to them... People think they are walking the dog but the dog really is walking them... That pit bull decides to run when it really walks you I'm done. So I guess what I'm getting at is some fear is rational and some is non rational like that tiny bee....

Are there other factors that run the world sure but I think fear is the biggest and we don't even know it... This is so true of us men. Now fear isn't only about bad things but about good things and change as well..... Oh I'm not a shrink so if you take my advice and something goes wrong don't sue me and since this is out there Star Wars people don't do it either.... So I guess a bunch of examples since I don't think I have a real point just kinda showing some things off....

Oh that gorgeous girl at the coffee shop or on a bus or where ever. We want to approach but fear kicks in.. Now I include worry in fear as well because worrying about what can happen is part of fear even if it is a good thing... What if she rejects in front of everyone... What if she says she will call me then breaks my heart... What if her ex is the jealous type... Now I'm not saying that we think of all this stuff at once but often time something stops us like having our food taken or stepping on someone on a moving bus or having our favorite coffee place be weird....

Not attacking Bush "W'!" here. But he and not only him have used fear to pass his agenda in the past... You know little things like spying on citizens and the Patriot (Go Bills..HA oh wait that is the Patriots but when you leave that team do you hate your country cause your an expat ha!) Act. Gotta give him credit for that...

Maybe there is some country with out an Army ... Everyone needs an army what if we are attacked... Now that is fear at its highest form... You know what if no one had an army it wouldn't be a fear... This fear is used in most every war.. We have to fight them over there so they don't come over hear...

Locally the food truck battle is driven by fear... There are fads in food. Don't believe me look what happened to Krisppy Kreme.... Um who's that they are all closed now.. When they opened they had 40 minute drive through waits... So part of the fear is this new thing will be a fad and won't last and then in that fad time other places will close... I would call that rational fear... Or maybe since Paladino is all fired up that part of it is irrational not sure you decide (if anyone is reading this)?

Job wise where to start... So many people wake up and go why am I going to this place I hate.. All the fears from quitting... Like not being able to find a job, not having money, not being able to do what you like to do for fun, losing the family cause of no job... But that isn't the only fear for some. The fear of liking it.

Fear isn't only about bad things that happen it is also about good things that happen.. I have a dual fear of getting a tattoo ... First of all there are a bunch of fears of needles, if it is a pain I can't deal with, what if I get the new guy who isn't good yet or worst yet forgets to change needles... But there is also a positive fear and that is what If I like it... I like tattoos but don't want to look like the guy with them on his neck and there entire body is covered with them... Now a chick it is different cause women with them and guys look different... I myself like when there is a Tattoo you can tell what the entire thing is not like a sleeve where you can kinda see what things are but hey that is just me....

New things where you don't know what to expect are can freak people out... I know I'm a bit stressed out over work.. Can't say much but Boss was talking to one of the new people... There is a part of me that isn't worried and could care less about what they are talking about.... But there is another part that has a feeling there could be drama and then more people will have to talk and then I might have to say stuff that I don't want to say.... Is the talk about the new guy or about others? The guy is new does he know what he is talking about... The not knowing is a bit stressful .... The fear is natural though....

But fear is so complex... Some people like to face their fears like if you don't like heights climb to the roof (me) and just stay away from the edge.... Or in some peoples case it might be jumping off a bridge or high dive or something....

Fear of good things causes people to do things or not do things as well... There is something you see or you wan't but you don't think you deserve it so you are afraid of Success... Or maybe you think you can't handle that.. Again I think this might be true of me... I don't like talking about work but here it goes again.. I'm not a boss so I can't tell people what to do.. I can tell them what I would do, or what they could do, or what they should do, or even say well here is what is going on here are some ways you could do this.. But I'm not a boss so I can't tell the person what to do... I don't want to be a boss there are things that a boss does that I know aren't for me and that I don't want to do... Often times when you are a step back it is a better spot to see and say well you could do this. But when you are in it and you are the one who has to make that decision and live by what goes down it is different... Or maybe it is just fear of some kind not sure.....

I guess if someone wants a point it is that if we know it or not Fear really drives most of what we do and don't do... Again though This is not only about fear of bad things but of good things as well... If one can use fear as a way to drive for positivism then that is great but I would say that isn't very often... I do think that Fear does lead to hate.. But I wouldn't know really how to write about that... The other problem is just cause you hate someone or something doesn't mean fear caused it... Just wish I could come up with some example of how fear of Success causes people to do things......

Words: 1592
Location: Buffalo, NY

Category: politics

09/23/11 06:03- ID#55184

"You're going to Hell" "fuck You!"

So Not sure how to start this really or how to say this but we shall see... Today in Walgreens I saw a No Bullying shirt. WWE has a no bullying program called be a star or something... Schools have people come in and talk.... I think my tittle kinda fits what could or should go down....

So there has been a lot of stuff in the news and it is national about this local kid who killed him self cause of Bullying and now national people jump on board....

To me this isn't about his sexuality... Kids pick on kids about any thing and everything.. If you are different you will get picked on in some form... Now when I was a kid yes this did go on I'm sure... But most of it was through picking on someone in a good way not cause you hate what they are and that type makes people stronger. It is a guy thing of busting balls. Like "shut Up" oh "Blow Me" and on and on till someone doesn't have a comeback... This is why I don't think any new laws should be passed... Can't have people who are having a good time with each other get in trouble for it....

I know schools say they take this seriously but I don't really buy it... I think it is more we are covering out ass... But maybe I'm wrong... Again here is a place where we don't need new laws there are ones on the books that work .... But are teachers and people really going to follow them?

What I don't get is why after the school shootings why didn't that spawn these changes... Those kids get bullied and put out on there own. Then they go and shoot up a school... Yes it is part of a Micheal Moore movie and yes you should see the Marilyn Manson part of the movie it is great... But that should have started everything....

I don't think this will ever end:
-When someone dies it gives the bullies just what they want someone they don't approve of is dead oh well one less that is what they get for being that way...
-When you tell everyone this is how being this way hurts others yes it tells kids not to be like that.... But what it also does it reminds people who don't care if someone gets hurt to do this..... If they tell the entire school how to deal with this then the bullies know what they have to counter .......

-But The big reason why I don't think it will stop is a lot of the bulling is because the bully sees the other person as less of a person because of what they are... It could be that they are gay or act gay or look like a chick or what ever... Many times this is taught at home or at church... So it is a moral thing... Since they are being moral it is ok to do this....

Not all bullying is because of moral things... The way a bully works most of the time is with fear. Now the fear of what will happen is stronger most times then what will really happen. But this is true of most fear... The fear of rejection or getting the shit beaten out of you and get your face shoved in the mud is worse then the beating its self... Yes it will hurt but it will then end and you won't be tormented every minute of the day.... But it is easy to say you just have to tell someone to go fuck them selves and take what may happen...... Or of course to punch them as hard as you can... It isn't that easy as anyone who has ever been afraid of anything could tell you.....

I know there is more i wanted to say but kinda lost it somewhere as all ways this isn't prof read...

Words: 667
Location: Buffalo, NY

Category: photos

09/22/11 07:45- ID#55182

More 2011 MIA

So on this great weekend on Sunday I did go to the WWE PPV Night of Champions but i would much rather post Music Is Art photos... It was a great time and it was great to see all the food trucks there.... Bye the way they are in the news again today.... But this is not the post for that.....

So If you have never seen this band go see them... They are called "Those Idiots" they take Rock songs or hit songs and do them Polka style but they still rock and lyrics get changed like Poker Face is Polka Face plus they play fun instruments as well...

So the one Piece of art is from a guy I have some other art from Paul Massaro (not sure on the spelling) he was telling me that is about some bitch of a judge who likes to take kids away from families ... Now the Black and White is a Sean Madden Original yes a 6 armed Jesus with money, flag, burger, Hot Dog , Gun, Beer and wearing a Micky Mouse Hat..... Then a clown Vomiting is a print and so is the Massaro... Who also does Tattoos ....

So I wasn't close enough to really see the box but they Buried this guy then he did an escape of getting his hand out and unlocking the locks that is what that box is.... Or was I should say....

This Next Band The Ruby Spirit I think was pretty good also...

That is about all I have time for so.....

Words: 452
Location: Buffalo, NY

Category: photos

09/20/11 06:56- ID#55174

MIA Fire Dancing 2011

So I decided to Jump ahead a bit in time cause the fire dancing pictures are pretty cool or at least I think they are......

The Above Pictures aren't all the pictures I took but a sampling of the pictures I took with my small Camera I had to do a battery Change in the middle of it... So now here are some pictures I took with the New camera....

Well hope someone enjoys these

Words: 217
Location: Buffalo, NY

Category: photos

09/19/11 07:05- ID#55171

MIA Part 2 2011

So MIA is all ways fun and a bit different each year... More photos I think the band with the girl singer is called... Brielle

This is where I'm calling part 2 When taking pictures of a bigger size then normal with the new camera didn't think about the upload time....

Words: 126
Location: Buffalo, NY

Category: photos

09/18/11 11:55- ID#55167

MIA Part 1 2011

So Music is art was great... Yes a bit different this year around Hoyt Lake and the Sledding Hill but it was a lot of fun and it was nice to run into a few (e:Peeps).... Loved all the food trucks being there well here are a few... New camera is awesome so much stuff I have no idea how to do.... Darkness is tough it is amazing what a zoom can do though.... With pregame and football and WWE PPV won't be many... For some reason Having a problem put photos on facebook through the software going to have to figure that out....

Things are moving slow right now so that is it for Part 1....

Words: 221
Location: Buffalo, NY

Category: politics

09/16/11 07:46- ID#55158

Food Trucks redux

So on here and on Facebook I got into the food truck Debate....

-I think they are a great idea
-What got me so upset to begin with is that people where saying here are places that are concerned with their business and so they are pushing for laws that will protect and since they are doing that we won't eat there anymore....
-My main concern was that with them being mobile that a system needs to be in place where if there is a problem you call someone and they come out right a way and make a decision that is binding.. Say I get food poisoning or they have a guy with a big sign in front of my place stealing my customers... then someone comes out or maybe a few people they make a decision as what is to be done on the spot...

-Certain Festivals and places you need a permit for I think Delaware park is one of them... Food trucks should be able to get a permit for those places....

-Police shouldn't be pulling over trucks! unless they do something wrong like run a red light...

-What I thought should have happened was bar owners and street vendors and Pine Hill Coffee trucks, and James the Ice Cream dude and everyone who sells food or drinks should all have a big meeting with law makers and work out what is fair....Cause if I own a Juice stand or what ever is it fair that a truck can drive around and sell juice to people who are running not really......

Not sure what is going on with the great food truck race but hope Lloyds wins....

Words: 282
Location: Buffalo, NY

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09/16/11 06:19- ID#55157

Night of Champions Predictions and more

So I'm writing this now because with watching football on Sunday and then wrestling I don't see when else I would have time. Plus all day Saturday is Music Is Art... That should be a good time... I bought a 2nd camera so now I just have to like read the entire book let... Using a new camera at an event should be interesting looking forward to it... It also has a lens cap so I'm thinking that this might make me take fewer and Better pictures? We shall see what happens...

So going to Night Of Champions and I do predict it will be fun and so will MIA. Now I will admit Ring Side sure is fun but often it isn't the best place to see or take photos from but that is ok... I'm not front row but the tickets sure where a lot... It being a PPV raises all the prices but still.... I hope this is one of the PPVs where you get to keep your chair... Some of the PPVs have art on the chairs and the first so ever how many rows have those chairs that sure would be cool...Didn't say anything either way when I bought the tickets....

CM PUNK VS HHH: Punk wins my call is that HHH is about to win and Kevin Nash comes out and attacks him and that with the rules means HHH is no longer COO and whom ever was pulling Nash's Strings becomes the new COO on Raw the next night... Oh yeah I still think he doesn't like punk so after the match Punk get stuck to (jack knife power bomb or what ever they call it)....

Alberto Del Rio (champion) Vs. John Cena: Can't call a winner but there is now way they can let Alberto be champion for this short of time so Cena won't leave with the tittle but he might win.....

Randy Orton (world Champion) Vs. Mark Henry: I like Orton but more so when he is more evil... I don't like Henry and don't hate him he is one of those ah I don't know doesn't do any thing good or bad for me.... It has to be his time to win and win the tittle so Henry wins and maybe gets punted after the match......

Bourne &Kofi (tag Champions) Vs. Miz and R-truth : Miz and R-truth are great but the Tag Champs have held the tittle for like 2 weeks Fans just Named them? So as much as I want Miz and R-truth I'm Picking Air Boom!

Kelly Kelly (divas Champion) Vs. Beth Phoenix: Well Kelly won last time but Beth Has to win in her hometown (or at least she is said to be from here) It would be great to see a heal win the tittle then take it into the crowd cause I'm sure they all want Kelly to win... I have to go with Beth on this one!

Fatal Four way: Challengers Swagger, Alex Riley, Morrison Vs. Dolph Ziggler...... This is a tough one who knows where they will take this story wise... If Swagger wins the tittle will this vickie issue get settled. I want Morrison my self... but think they want this feud to kinda go on so it is I guess I pick Ziggler.....

Now granted there is a Smackdown on Tonight that was taped on Tuesday... Now there is no IC tittle match listed on the site... I'm guessing that it will Be Cody Rhodes defending it and keeping it over Dibessie or how ever you spell it....

Can't predict what warm up match they will have to get us ready... But maybe the New Sin Cara vs. Someone.... In any event if you get the PPV look for me... I doubt I will make it on TV I never do....

I predict a fun weekend maybe I'll see some of ya'll out and about for a photo op or something....