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07/19/04 10:52 - ID#26007

robin, i feel ur pain

so, i was just reading your journal. i read it a lot as it is one of my favorites. i owe my mom a lot of money, and she keeps paying my bills for me. and now she moved to az, and i m still here, but not even in my own place; staying with some friends of the family. i feel like i don't want to stay here anymore. i hate coming home. i have no real home, unless i decide to go there. or i could move to nyc. sell my car and just go there. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. i can't find anyone who needs a roommmate. does anyone on this site need a roommate? i need a roommate, i or have to move far away. maybe i should just move far away. at least i wont suffer through this awful weather anymore. but then there is the problem of people and missing them and all that.

i can't make a fucking decision, and now im sick again, and i don't know why i have gotten aout 8 sinus infections this past year. the doctor doesn't open until 11 and i don't want to be here. i don't feel welcome.
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07/18/04 05:54 - ID#26006

oh lazy sunday

i just typed this whole long entry and then realized that it was all a bunch of garbage. whenever i try top write something interesting here it turns out to be a bunch of blah.

what was the name of that game where you had those little red zit stickers?

i don't know why i am saying this now, but i really, really, really hate the police. they are useless. i just watched fight club. if i could fight anyone, it would definitely be a police officer, POW!
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07/15/04 03:54 - ID#26005

sickits and burning poo gas

im a sickypoo-poo. you know that feeling when you first feel you throat hurting. its all scrathy and you drink a million glasses of water, and ur still so freakin thirsty, you feel like you need a trough to drink out of? well, thats me. give me water. give me a trough to drink it out of.

work is good. call into second job today. one job was enough. schools are a breeding place for germs.

i was reading the paper this morning. the news has absolutely nothing of value, except stories about men lighting a cig in the johnny on the spot, and all the methane from the poopoo lights the place up and the man must be treated for burns. what a dumbass. no matter how bad your day was. at least you didn't get burned by shit. hahhaha.

delirious, need sleep. pimples be gone.
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07/15/04 03:54 - ID#26004

sickits and burning poo gas

im a sickypoo-poo. you know that feeling when you first feel you throat hurting. its all scrathy and you drink a million glasses of water, and ur still so freakin thirsty, you feel like you need a trough to drink out of? well, thats me. give me water. give me a trough to drink it out of.

work is good. call into second job today. one job was enough. schools are a breeding place for germs.

i was reading the paper this morning. the news has absolutely nothing of value, except stories about men lighting a cig in the johnny on the spot, and all the methane from the poopoo lights the place up and the man must be treated for burns. what a dumbass. no matter how bad your day was. at least you didn't get burned by shit. hahhaha.

delirious, need sleep. pimples be gone.
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07/14/04 09:41 - ID#26003

all work and no play makes sarah :O(

where to begin...

i have lost contact with all estrippers. some of them aren't talking to me. some of them forgot about me. i forgot about some of them. and most i just don't know anymore. thats ok. time is limited. 60 hr work week makes me crazy. so does a big lonely house with no one in it. i want to go home so bad. i miss my mom. i miss my sister. i miss my room. i don't know what to do. i feel like a huge baby and i don't want to give up, but im not sure what to do.

i feel guilty for making people feel like they need to take care of me. i should be able to care of myself right? i just know don't know what to do. if i stay i am so so far from all of my family. if i go, i am so so far away from everything i know. i don't want to keep working so much. i just want to feel like me again.

All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter another.
Anatole France

i guess im not done dying yet.

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07/09/04 03:52 - ID#26002

how to be a loser

i have found out the secret to boringness... just work a million hours. all you will want to do is sleep, or work more. working makes me feel good though. especially at one of my jobs. those kids really need us. i question what kind of care is being given at home. kids come in unbathed, without lunches, no breakfast, dirty clothes, bruises, cuts, scratches. but we have a good old time and spoil them and love them and we're just there for them. what a great job. i get paid too. as for my other job, i just get paid.

i miss sister, mother, and even brother now too. aunt is in hospital. i don't see granny enough. sunday is my day for catching up.

one boy i work with; he was not born disabled. his mother's boyfriend was driving drunk, and he was asleep in the back seat. he will never live a mornal life, but he is so happy and such a hard worker. his name is chris. he was 8 at the time of the accident.

life for me is good; great.

paul, matthew, terry, return safe from your trip! hopefully i will see/hear from you soon!

jill, good to see you. we always welcome you at premier! :O)
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07/07/04 11:48 - ID#26001

more on that

im a crybaby. and im not that interesting. i need to take interest in something rather than me.

I've started drawing againich feels nice. after all those figure drawing classes, it seems i only want to draw naked people. go figure-no pun intended.

my sister is the greatest. she is going to go to az to surprise our mommy. oh grand puba. one day i will live in the same big city, and we will have fun excursions all the time.

when we there be an estrip party? if we all co-fund it can work right? if i had a house, we could have it there. i don't.

aint it funny that we live in a city that rains 6 outa 10 days. i will learn to love rain. but i really wanna get a tan; in the rain.

i want to fly
and never come down
and live my life
and have friends around.
good day mate!


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07/07/04 11:48 - ID#26000

more on that

im a crybaby. and im not that interesting. i need to take interest in something rather than me.

I've started drawing againich feels nice. after all those figure drawing classes, it seems i only want to draw naked people. go figure-no pun intended.

my sister is the greatest. she is going to go to az to surprise our mommy. oh grand puba. one day i will live in the same big city, and we will have fun excursions all the time.

when we there be an estrip party? if we all co-fund it can work right? if i had a house, we could have it there. i don't.

aint it funny that we live in a city that rains 6 outa 10 days. i will learn to love rain. but i really wanna get a tan; in the rain.

i want to fly
and never come down
and live my life
and have friends around.
good day mate!


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07/07/04 11:48 - ID#25999

more on that

im a crybaby. and im not that interesting. i need to take interest in something rather than me.

I've started drawing againich feels nice. after all those figure drawing classes, it seems i only want to draw naked people. go figure-no pun intended.

my sister is the greatest. she is going to go to az to surprise our mommy. oh grand puba. one day i will live in the same big city, and we will have fun excursions all the time.

when we there be an estrip party? if we all co-fund it can work right? if i had a house, we could have it there. i don't.

aint it funny that we live in a city that rains 6 outa 10 days. i will learn to love rain. but i really wanna get a tan; in the rain.

i want to fly
and never come down
and live my life
and have friends around.
good day mate!


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07/06/04 09:59 - ID#25998

this too shall pass

i am going to call my mom tonight. i miss her. probably because i know i can't see her anytime soon. it will be me calling and then crying. thats what i do when i am sad and i talk to mommy.

things i want to do:

go home, sleep in my bed, cook food in my house, sleep on my couch. just be home.

not work 65 hours a week.

live in a place that does not rain 6 out of ten days.

more on this later...
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