Since this new year has started I have been making it my point to make positive changes in my life and i have been doing just that. But when all i witness and hear about is Hardship and violence and people hurting others around me in my family and friends my heart continues to break. And it is really hard to keep a positive outlook on life anymore. I wish everyone was as committed as me to spread love and make others happy. But that's clearly not the case. Now i know that drinking will not help any of the situations but i feel as if i don't have a choice. I need an escape. The Mayans say this is the last year we all have. That's how i treat everyday i live and i realize that everyday we are on this earth is a blessing. I'm not sure if i can stay in this life without love anymore I'm at a breaking point now and don't know what i can do or how to help it. And i want so badly to do that. So I'm cracking open my first beer of the day and just be for now. Goodnight all.

Ain't this some shit..... I was totally ok with 30 and 40 degree temps. But NO somebody had to demand snow and now we got it in abundance with ugly high speed winds. Boy I tell you if it wasn't for me going to school now and trying to settle down I would be omw back to new orleans til about march lol. This shit sucks and I have errands to run today. Errands with no car. Paul I hope you are happy sir for some reason you were heard for some reason. I'm about to go get my cuddle buddy. Stay warm or stay inside if you can everybody.

My stomach hurts, im kinda pissed off wondering and its ugly cold outside. woe is me.... My Red Flag has gone up

i just wanted to say that to all the (e:peeps). so great seeing everybody again. I have video of Mike being fed with the Big spanking tool, i just don't know how to put it on here....still. :) Anyway Happy New year Everyone i hope its a great year for everybody. xoxoxo