most of my grades have not been posted yet and they are due tonight. this is really frustrating me... i worked so hard all semester... and all of my work has been submitted for three weeks so this is really ridiculous.

i also looked at the grade for one of my classes, and i will be getting a b despite getting full credit on most assignments. the reason why? i missed a few classes, and if you miss a more than one class, it is impossible to get an a. i think this is bs, because i did so well on all of my papers and projects, and i am being punished for missing a class for being sick, and another for having personal problems. this instructor canceled class because of personal problems, can i lower her grade?

my gpa will still be a 3.5, but i wanted to bump it up to a 3.6. it's frustrating when every semester you have that one teacher who makes its so difficult to get an a... i guess my goal for next semester will be to not miss any class.

i can still graduate with high honors, but i can only get one b over the next two semesters, and i am already stressed out about it so much. i'm not why i care so much... it may be a way of focusing all of my frustrations about the difficulties i've faced in the past year and giving myself something to focus on.

i can still graduate with a 4.0, but it's going to be a lot of hard work and dedication, and i'm ready for the challenge.

now, i want my grades possssted!!!!!

polishing silver.

oh yea!!!!! it's gonna be a shiny, shiny kissmas.

there is a bomb in my sister's building at work...

my brother won't pick up his phone...

my mom gets more stressed by the day.

so, i changed my christmas wish to just having my family and friends safe and healthy, that's it.

i just finished my last and final, final online....

things are looking good for all a's. i have two classes where it's literally going to come down to a few points and i am so nervous.

i think the last time i put so much effort into school was probably the 4th grade...

i want straight a's.... more than anything else.

this is all i want for christmas this year santa, i promise i've been so good this year.

i officially care the most about school... i actually want next semester to start so i can really get all a's....

and also because i now have so much free time and so little stress that i feel more stressed because i have nothing to do and i want to avoid shopping...

i guess i just have to start hiking again every day and that will kill two hours, and i have two weeks left at my job but that is only part time.

i could just "play" school... i used to read so much but now i feel like i only know how to read if it is to find information to write a response or paper or presentation on.

i'll stop now, this is pathetic.

the children i work with... wow they are so spoiled. seriously, their parents wait on them all day long. now they have come to assume i am their personal servant... i love these kids but i am so happy i am moving on and only focusing on school for the next year. taking class, teaching class, and then taking care of children is like full time child rearing.

it will be so interesting where i choose to go next year.... it's going to be nyc, or abroad. the pull of my sister, my friends, and nyc is pretty exciting.... but tropical seems pretty cool too.

i am so excited for blo..... really i miss my little zooey so much, she doesn't even remember me anymore. and then i must meet the new baby...

this whole holiday season may really just be the best ever....i get to see all my fav peeps!!!!!! i need something sparkly for new years!!!! and someone handsome to kiss lol.

ok, currently i have two broken laptops, and a broken ipod... this is so sad. my phone is nearly broken as well... why can't things just work!!!! i kinda wanna go back to the days where we crank things and they work. maybe i need one of those crank up laptops? technology has failed me!!!!!