Not really. Actually, today I feel triumphant because I started my day quite in the doldrums and managed to actually snap myself out of it! It's amazing what giving into the pity-party of depression and having a good cry can do for a person, followed by a firm decision to go and see the Muppet Movie, rather than go to Church, and then head on over to the Botanical Gardens and spend some time there! I also made a pit stop at Target to pick up the soundtrack to the Muppet Movie which I am currently rocking in my car because it continues to make me happy! :)
It's been an interesting month what with starting it by finding a trombone in the parking lot next to my old car on the first of November, then my brother winning the Lackawanna Mayoral election on the 8th of November, and then me getting into a car accident and totaling my car on the 10th of November. And, oh yeah, on that same day, I went to the chiropractor for the first time ever and he discovered that somewhere between 10 and 15 years ago that I had broken my lower back and never knew it, which then firmly took me out of continuing on my quest for roller derby. Let's not forget that I got promoted and got my own classroom which started on November 7th. Last Friday, I took a friendship out of "Just being friends" into "Friends with Benefits" (something I'd NEVER done before!) Also in November I gave my number to the cute Goat Cheese Guy (another first for me). On Tuesday, November 22nd, I got my new car, my dream car- a Beetle. Sure it's a 2003 and a convertible but it's a Beetle and it has less miles than my old car! Damn, It's been one HELL of a month! Wow. I didn't realize quite how intense this month has been for me until I actually wrote it all down. No wonder I was an emotional mess this weekend!
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11/27/2011 18:13 #55612
We Want the Funk... November recap11/25/2011 21:30 #55603
The question that should never be askedMy least favorite question in the world- Why are you still single? Or it's cousin, How are you still single? I don't f@#$-ing know!!!! This question is almost always followed by, "You're so great (wonderful, awesome- pick your own adverb and insert)!" I know people mean well when they ask this question, but it really stings, particularly when it's coupled w/ rejection from a "special friend" no matter how good the excuse, and the knowledge that that guy that I was crazy in love with for so long is in town this weekend and I will be seeing him on Sunday. (Admittedly, there might also be some early PMS seeping into this equation) Anyway you look at it, it's not a good combination and I feel, well, rather low. :( I am not happy. I feel rather like Bridget Jones in the first movie, at the dinner party with the smug marrieds. I hate that feeling. I think I need to stop watching the "Say Yes to the Dress" marathon on TLC. It's not helping.
springfaerie - 11/27/11 20:27
Yeah, Paul, I still don't know the answer to that. I mean, there's what I tell people, rather honestly, like having been too busy getting my career together, and being grossly insecure which I've recently gotten over, and being in love w/ someone that I *thought* that I couldn't have and now I really can't because he's married & has a kid, and that all of the good ones in my age bracket are either gay or taken. Other than that, I really don't know why I'm still single. :)
Yeah, Paul, I still don't know the answer to that. I mean, there's what I tell people, rather honestly, like having been too busy getting my career together, and being grossly insecure which I've recently gotten over, and being in love w/ someone that I *thought* that I couldn't have and now I really can't because he's married & has a kid, and that all of the good ones in my age bracket are either gay or taken. Other than that, I really don't know why I'm still single. :)
paul - 11/27/11 18:55
I know you just said you hate it when people say it but I always wondered why you are single too ;)
I know you just said you hate it when people say it but I always wondered why you are single too ;)
springfaerie - 11/27/11 07:32
Thanks, MetalPeter! I began watching comedies and the British ghosty series "Bedlam" and eschewed anything that anything to do w/ weddings or Rom. Com.'s! I'm feeling more like myself but still remnants remain. And this too shall pass!
Thanks, MetalPeter! I began watching comedies and the British ghosty series "Bedlam" and eschewed anything that anything to do w/ weddings or Rom. Com.'s! I'm feeling more like myself but still remnants remain. And this too shall pass!
metalpeter - 11/26/11 16:01
This Reminds me of the tittle to a show about a book tour....... But that being said your quick answer can be "Cause I won't settle for less then I deserve" yeah it is kinda mean Spirited and takes a bit out of everyone who is locked up as they say... Turn off that Marathon and watch some Movie where they blow shit up.... Or some violence and you will feel much better????
This Reminds me of the tittle to a show about a book tour....... But that being said your quick answer can be "Cause I won't settle for less then I deserve" yeah it is kinda mean Spirited and takes a bit out of everyone who is locked up as they say... Turn off that Marathon and watch some Movie where they blow shit up.... Or some violence and you will feel much better????
10/22/2011 18:50 #55359
A Guy Named CheeseI have a blind date tonight. That's right, the night of previous entry's wedding, I have a blind date with a guy named Cheese. Apparently, his real name is Matt. He's a ginger. He's friend's with my friend's boyfriend. We shall see how this goes... I'm mildly optimistic! Keep your collective fingers crossed for me E-Peeps! :D
springfaerie - 10/23/11 22:41
He has no idea why his friends came up w/ that nickname. He supposes it has something to do w/ his red hair. Anyway, it was an "Eh" night, rather indifferent- neither good nor bad. So, that's the update.
He has no idea why his friends came up w/ that nickname. He supposes it has something to do w/ his red hair. Anyway, it was an "Eh" night, rather indifferent- neither good nor bad. So, that's the update.
tinypliny - 10/22/11 19:33
Maybe he is too sentimental? That could be good or he could be a drama queen. Good luck!
Maybe he is too sentimental? That could be good or he could be a drama queen. Good luck!
metalpeter - 10/22/11 19:29
maybe all his jokes like on the denny's add is chessey ......... or he is thg big cheese?
maybe all his jokes like on the denny's add is chessey ......... or he is thg big cheese?
paul - 10/22/11 19:27
I guess it all really depends in why he is called cheese. If it's because he likes to smile its one thing, if its because of the way he smells it's a totally different siutation. Good luck.
I guess it all really depends in why he is called cheese. If it's because he likes to smile its one thing, if its because of the way he smells it's a totally different siutation. Good luck.
10/21/2011 18:25 #55345
Saying Goodbye to Love and HateCategory: personal
Tomorrow, the man that I loved for over ten years is getting married. He's marrying someone who got pregnant accidentally/ on purpose just to get him to stop dragging his feet. She got pregnant and he fell into line, buying the house she'd been wanting and getting her the ring that she'd been not-so-subtly hinting at. I have no doubt in my mind that had she not gotten pregnant, they still would not be engaged. And now, I have to get over my hatred of her and my love for him. I will always love him. My feelings for him are fully incorporated in my brain chemistry, alas. But, I have a great capacity to love and now, as I say goodbye I have no doubt that I will find someone else, a man who loves me as much as I am capable of loving him. The time to move on is now.
I genuinely hope that he and his wife and son will be happy. I send my love and my best to them all tomorrow. I think I've finally, FINALLY managed to let go and for that, I am grateful! :) Now it's my turn to find my love that time will lie down and be still for.
I genuinely hope that he and his wife and son will be happy. I send my love and my best to them all tomorrow. I think I've finally, FINALLY managed to let go and for that, I am grateful! :) Now it's my turn to find my love that time will lie down and be still for.
lilho - 10/23/11 03:45
sorry, but he sounds like a jerk and you deserve better.
sorry, but he sounds like a jerk and you deserve better.
tinypliny - 10/22/11 19:35
Except Chris. OMG. I hope Cheese =/= Sketchy Chris. You can't bring him then.
Except Chris. OMG. I hope Cheese =/= Sketchy Chris. You can't bring him then.
paul - 10/22/11 19:33
Hit save too fast. I meant to say I hope to see you for the Halloween party, bring as many people as you want.
Hit save too fast. I meant to say I hope to see you for the Halloween party, bring as many people as you want.
paul - 10/22/11 19:31
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tinypliny - 10/22/11 11:30
If you really love something, you can let it go. Banal advice perhaps, but it's 100% true. If you could not, it was probably just some combination of infatuation and some subconscious belief that you could make him even better.
If you really love something, you can let it go. Banal advice perhaps, but it's 100% true. If you could not, it was probably just some combination of infatuation and some subconscious belief that you could make him even better.
metalpeter - 10/22/11 10:58
Yeah it is Think it is called Open Hearts it is from one of the famous people maybe Jane Seymour not sure but it is still good advice....
Yeah it is Think it is called Open Hearts it is from one of the famous people maybe Jane Seymour not sure but it is still good advice....
ajay - 10/22/11 02:03
'Tis better to have loved and lost, than never to have loved at all... or something to that effect.
We all have some past loves that hold on to, and sometimes use to measure the current ones. I say, each love is unique. Cherish what you have.
As the great sages CSNY sang, "if you can't be with the one you love, love the one you're with...".
Good luck! Keep your heart open, and love will find its way. (wait, that sounds like a jewelry commercial... :-/ )
'Tis better to have loved and lost, than never to have loved at all... or something to that effect.
We all have some past loves that hold on to, and sometimes use to measure the current ones. I say, each love is unique. Cherish what you have.
As the great sages CSNY sang, "if you can't be with the one you love, love the one you're with...".
Good luck! Keep your heart open, and love will find its way. (wait, that sounds like a jewelry commercial... :-/ )
springfaerie - 10/21/11 21:26
No. Not the sick one. Someone else. The someone who I was in love with and tried not to be, if that makes any sense. The sick one and I are friends and I love him dearly. This one, well, he was the one that I measured all others against. Now, I need a new rubric.
No. Not the sick one. Someone else. The someone who I was in love with and tried not to be, if that makes any sense. The sick one and I are friends and I love him dearly. This one, well, he was the one that I measured all others against. Now, I need a new rubric.
08/17/2011 19:23 #54970
Exercise- GRRRR... Only for you, QCRG!I loathe exercising. I enjoy taking walks and I like to do things outside. I used to play tennis. But I have to say that I really and truly despise "working out." I don't really see anything enjoyable in it except for when I stop. I do get a sense of accomplishment when I push myself and finish and then I think, "Awesome! I did that!" But, I get that same feeling when I finish crafting and much less sweat and effort is involved. The things I do for Roller Derby!
I can honestly say that the *ONLY* reason that I'm putting myself through all of this right now is because, yes, I am going out for Roller Derby. For the past 2 Sundays, I've been working my ass off at Roller Derby Boot Camp in the hopes that I will be a Queen City Roller Girl. Other than wanting to get in better shape so that I can skate in bouts of derby, there is nothing that could induce me to run/ walk, do push-ups, crunches, planks, leg lifts w/ my skates on, side crunches, plus practicing foot work and various skating stops. I must be mental! I'm hoping (fingers crossed!) that all of this work, and pain, and aggravation, will be worth it!
Don't know if this is going to get any easier, but, Christ, I hope it does!
I can honestly say that the *ONLY* reason that I'm putting myself through all of this right now is because, yes, I am going out for Roller Derby. For the past 2 Sundays, I've been working my ass off at Roller Derby Boot Camp in the hopes that I will be a Queen City Roller Girl. Other than wanting to get in better shape so that I can skate in bouts of derby, there is nothing that could induce me to run/ walk, do push-ups, crunches, planks, leg lifts w/ my skates on, side crunches, plus practicing foot work and various skating stops. I must be mental! I'm hoping (fingers crossed!) that all of this work, and pain, and aggravation, will be worth it!
Don't know if this is going to get any easier, but, Christ, I hope it does!
metalpeter - 08/18/11 17:26
Good Luck on the QCRG.... They are my Favorite sport that I never see... Bad Location for me... I don't understand any of the Tonawanda area and what one is what one let alone how to get there (car get lost not a big deal but bus don't feel like watching an NT drug deal go down or be by ones self near the tracks heard the part near the Rainbow rink is a bit sketchy).....
Now in terms of exercise let me say this about that. Push ups, sit ups, all that stuff is great if you want to what do they call it tone up.... I myself think though the best thing to do is Cardo things like (yes can be very high impact) running , swimming and skating I guess.... I would assume again not a Roller Girl nor a ref but I guessing cardio is what is the best... Plus to be honest it is most likely makes one the healthiest out side of your sport?
Good Luck on the QCRG.... They are my Favorite sport that I never see... Bad Location for me... I don't understand any of the Tonawanda area and what one is what one let alone how to get there (car get lost not a big deal but bus don't feel like watching an NT drug deal go down or be by ones self near the tracks heard the part near the Rainbow rink is a bit sketchy).....
Now in terms of exercise let me say this about that. Push ups, sit ups, all that stuff is great if you want to what do they call it tone up.... I myself think though the best thing to do is Cardo things like (yes can be very high impact) running , swimming and skating I guess.... I would assume again not a Roller Girl nor a ref but I guessing cardio is what is the best... Plus to be honest it is most likely makes one the healthiest out side of your sport?
tinypliny - 08/18/11 03:06
Good luck, maybe try yoga? It might help make your joints and muscles more flexible and less prone to high impact injury in that game.
Good luck, maybe try yoga? It might help make your joints and muscles more flexible and less prone to high impact injury in that game.
Wow sounds pretty busy to say the least......
Yep. Goat cheese! :D So far, nothing on that front, but I'm a VERY patient woman! And I'm also still looking elsewhere!
Holy crap that's a crazy month. Goat cheese?