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08/06/2010 18:46 #52376

Weekend Vacation
Category: rr
In July I decided to spend some quality time with my BFF (e:springfairy) on a weekend get away. She was just finishing up school and paper/project deadlines. I was just ready for a break from my life; work; bills; job; family; apartment; et cetera... The Universe being the accomodating beings they are choose to have me get Heat Exhaustion / Dehydration the Wednesday before I am to leave on said vacation. I have to have an emergency visit to the doctor, who then sends me to urgent emergency care. UG! I woud like to live me life without having those symptoms again! The doctor was very thorough in letting me know I should: Take time off; enjoy a couple of days rest; drink - stay hydrated; no work; if symptoms return come back immediately.

I even asked the good doctor if it was ok to go on said vacation, he said it was doctor's orders! Nice doctor! So I slowly packed for my weekend vacation. I hung out with BFF at her house. The drive was nice. Stopped for some tobacco for my elder. Geesh! How money flies out of the wallet! Prices have gone up quite a bit for tobacco. Drove into local store to get some groceries and snacks and breakfast foods... Got to camp, visited with several people haven't seen in a couple of years. We got invited to camp with friends - from out of town specifically New Orleans. Good times! I promised myself no work, so I did what must be done and relaxed!

Managed to touch base with more people than had planned. Great Company. Great conversations. Lots of dancing. Lots of drumming. Lots of silliness. Lots of connections. Finally gave friends their belated present from 2007; pictures of their wedding. Spoke with my elder and found out we are rebuilding due to unforeseen circumstances and set a date to come and work. It was good to see the surprise on his face when I gave him the tobacco, definately worth it! I tried to spend quality time with as many friends as I could time allowing and weather permitting.

The morning of our day to head home a thuderstorm rolled in and did not stop raining for several hours. Who says Mother Nature does not have a sense of humor? Therefore our plans had changed. There was flooding and roads were closed. Once the rain stopped the locals reported that after 2-3 hours it would all seep into the ground and we would be able to head on our merry way home. My response was what can I do to change this situation? Nothing. So, what am I going to do while I wait? Have a spot of lunch, visit with bff and wait until our lake side property became dry land once again, so that I can begin to pack up camp and pack the car.

Drama Queens. Two friends were acting quiet strange and were upset about the situation and were shouting orders to people in camp. I ended up being one of them and did as ordered. Only because I have been in this persons shoes, even though I had never met her before - not because I was ordered. The order part got me to leave promptly after help was given. Miffed I began talking to bff about issue. We vented. We also decided since people were reacting badly it would be best to spend time with each other or other people with the same mindset. We too had to break camp and the rain had flooded our stuff and no one was helping us. Was that simply because we decided not to let it upset us and pardon me for the pun, but go with the flow!

We hung out in a community dry space while waiting for the water level to disappear. We found other people who were just chillin'. We were invited to partake of cherries and share in our weekend festivities stories. We spent some time around a small camp fire still burning from the night before which wafted into my hair and stayed there until my next shower. Meet some new friends who were concerned with catching a plane on time. I sat and meditated on many different thoughts, ideas and feelings. It felt good to just be. Thank you Mother Nature for those moments with nothing to do but wait. I spent some quality time with myself and my thoughts. Sharing with others as they came and went. Mostly centering myself and finding the secret of taking home my vacation when I left. I think it was Mother Nature's gift to me.

When the water level had disappeared it was time to get to packing up. I took my tent and other wet camping gear to dry in the hot sun. I then waited while having a snack of cookies and water knowing that the car was packed, mostly. And once all the wet stuff dried we would be off heading home and dinner at Aunt Millie's. I was planning on steak and potatoes! I do not ever seem to have room after eating dinner for dessert. And Aunt Millie's desserts are supreme. Headed back to BFF's house and partly unpack the car, to do some laundry of wet clothes and watch tv.


08/01/2010 15:12 #52349

Infingement Festival
Category: art
HOODOO SHE BREW by D. Knight

A friend of mine invited me to her poetry/spoken word at Rust Belt Books on Tuesday evening. I managed to remember to go and be on time even with work. I enjoyed her performance. And we even had a book to take and remember the experience.

I shopped around finding wonderfully priced books on a subject matter I was thinking about due to the previous weekend vacation. My stomach rumbled for attention and I was aimlessly walking up and down Allen Street to ponder dinner at Jim's Steak Out. Deciding that I should not just ponder but partake, I ordered my usual favorite with a twist. I picked up the Art Voice and found an article explaining the Infringement Festival. I also found out a friend of mine was going to be reading at 8pm.

Around 8pm I headed back to Rust Belt Books and sat in on the previous reader and really enjoyed her memory work storytelling technique. Being a visual artist can be kind of cruel. I see pictures of the things as words and vibrations occilate through the air to create a entirely new environment, just as happens for most people when reading a book. It pulls you into that world even if only for a moment. How long is a moment really? Can it be measured? I think of a moment as an open ended question with a multitude of possibilities. And then she realized her time was up and though it was only five minutes of her life that I shared every part of that moment and I was taking an old worn photograph of her life experience with me. Definately, something to cherish.

WIERD TALES and TALL COINCIDENCES by Janna Willoughby

Now, the audience changed preparing for the next artist to take the stage. A friend I have not had the pleasure to see in a few years ascended the stage. Her warm presences easily filled the back room making it continued cozy. I moved from the back row to the front. I love to hear Janna. We traveled with her on her families' strange experiences, it was very magical for me. I discovered we had some stange things that had happened to both of us. I listened intently.

Before I knew it the hour had passed. Still digesting I waited to say hi again after a long time. We traveled to Days Park to enjoy an evening with fire in the park displayed by a group called Pyromancy.

At the end I was debating on heading home when I ran into other friends surprised to see me out. Before I knew it we were deep in discussion and having a beer.

Time really does fly when you are having fun... the next time i gazed at my watch I realized why I was yawning, 10:30pm had become 2:00am. I was headed home and dreams from every land and nation to dance across my brain as I slept.

08/01/2010 14:36 #52348

33rd Kidney Stone Update
Category: health
I have just realized a world of time has elapsed since my most recent post. I did go in for my Litotripsy on April 21st, 2010 and had a very enjoyable experience even though I was attempting to get ri of physical matter in my kidney. The nurses were wonderful. Everyone took such good car of me. I had to remember to take it easy and not over due especially when dealing with pain medication. It is easy to over do it.

I followed up with my urologist after x-rays to discover I am stone free! Yeah, Kidneys!

I then had to figure out how I was going to pay all the medical bills, so was on the hunt for another part-time job. I found Census 2010. I began training and working shortly after the surgery. So I have been extremely busy working two jobs.

I was so proud of myself to get all my bills paid with my temporary job to find out that I may still have one or two still outstanding. I have to call and straighten out this week.

01/26/2010 15:44 #50912

LEGION
Category: movies
I went to go see Legion with (e:springfaerie) on Saturday. It was good. We ended up going to the 7:45pm show versus the 6:45pm show because they were crazy mobbed with people. So we headed over to Borders. I had a gift card from christmas and was looking around. My students told me that Percy Jackson and the Olympians is really good. But I was torn. I also have been reading a Lois Lowry Trilogy: The Giver, Gathering Blue and The Messenger. I also wanted to get the Wolvesbane and Mistelltoe Anthonlogy, but they only had the hard copy and I did not want to use my $25 gift card on 1 book. So I asked if they had the softcover. Yes, but we could not find one. I noticed another Anthology called Strange Brew. I did get a cool tiger calendar for my classroom.

We ended up heading home afterward. I watched one skater and fell asleep on the couch. Go figure.
dimartiste - 02/24/10 21:06
enknot - I teach. The school has a community project to increase reading among the student body. One of my most clever students asked me about how many books did I read from sa September to now (which happened to be early November). Let me see I had to think and count. I had read 39 books and was on a 40th. He told me that I should enter the books that I had as part of the reading project. I double checked with the teacher in charge that the teachers could help. So I did add my own books and a project in my class to help my students get excited about reading. The Lois Lowery series is about the possibility of different outcomes to society if we had say a war, how would we redevelop as a civilization. These are young adult or independent readers so I am not sure how nerdtasic they are?! I never really thought of my avid reading as a nerdy behavior. I have several other posts about other authors. Feel free to ask me about them. I will have an update on the Percy Jackson Series when I actually start reading it in about 5 books from now. I am really sorry I did not meet your deadline, but here are the answers anyway! :)
dimartiste - 02/24/10 20:57
Yes, The Ligthning Thief Movie based on Book 1 was out during President's Week. I have heard mixed reviews. Many people are telling me to go before I read the book. I just got the first four books that I ordered on Tuesday. I am in the middle of another series by Charlaine Harris. The Aurora Teagarden Mysteries. I have four more books to go and a visit to the library to complete that. I am unsure what to do. I am rather undecided read or watch first? What do you think?
metalpeter - 01/27/10 19:43
Just so you know that book you mentioned first I have never read it but I would say you should read it and read it soon. The reason being is that I saw the preview for it (movie) and it looks like it could be pretty good. So I assume it is a good book if that is your type of book to read. Some people only like certain subject matter.
enknot - 01/27/10 08:57
What are all these books, and who are you!? Where have I been? Whats going on, should I read that stuff? Sounds nerdtastic. I expect a report on my desk in the morning!

02/24/2010 20:45 #51071

Kidney Stone
Category: health
January 21st, 2010 awake at 12:30am to pee. I crawl back in bed. I just get comfortable and a burning pain begins and I need to pee again. So I get up and pee, this time it really hurts. I proceed to have increasing pain and cramping on my left side. I start what I like to call the cold sweats because I was sweating but I was far from warm. I was nauseated. I began to push my fluids. 1 Liter. Another Liter. The pain is stil causing problems and it has been two hours. I called the nurses emegency line for my doctor and got a nurse to return my call. I followed medical advise and the pain began to ebb slowly and aroun 5:30am I could crawl back into bed really, really exhausted. I had to call in sick to work. I would call the doctor's office in the morning when they opened to find out what to do next. I realized I had a kidney stone in my left kidney.

January 22, 2010 after work I headed to the doctor's office my pcp wanted to get a better look at me since it would take 2 weeks to see the urologist. I definately had a problem. The pain was still there and I was really tender. I began to think, when was the last time I had a kideny stone. 1999. Over ten years ago, I must have been doing something right. We decide to get pain pills and a sonogram to rule out kidney stones, just in case.

February 1, 2010 I go first thing in the morning for the earliest appointment I could get because I was not supposed to eat or drink anything. I got my sonogram. The technician was really nice but showed me this roundish thing the size of a green pea on the screen in my kidney. I was posiive I had a stone. I was told that without a shadow that the test was inconclusive.

February 5, 2010 I finally see the urologist. I pee in a cup. I answer a million or so questions. I fill out forms. Since I have not had a stone in a long time I go back to being a new patient. SIGH. I see a new doctor. I just want to confirm what my gut tells me - that I have a kdney stone. I am still in pain and discomfort on a daily basis. We discuss the fact that the sonogram is nonconclusive. What test will give us the correct answer? A CAT SCAN, I'm allergic to cats! Ok. I have to have the nurse schedule one and she will call me.

She calls me. After numerous phone calls I have an appointment. SIGH.

February 15, 2010 Cat Scan went smoothly. I was completely tired that day and took the rest of the day off to read and nap alternately. Daily pain can make you really tired.

February 18, 2010 I wake up and I am completely grumpy and irrasible, I also share this infrmation with all who ask. I go back to the urologist. I pee in a cup. I see a middle level physicans assistant whom I really discover I dislike. The Cat Scan confirms I have a 6 mm stone in my left kidney. I am relieved finally proof of my gut! He decides that the pain i am in is skeletal-muscular and I am not taking my pain meds correctly. I argue since I have been an athelete for a better part of my existance I explained in grave detail why I disagreed. Well, then we are going to put you on a diet because you have an abundance of this kind of stone. I'm like REALLY?! Have you read my chart? He looks slightly confused. He is only holding two pieces of paper in his hands. I inform him of my urological history. This is my 33rd stone since I was diagnosed in my early 20's. I make all five kinds of stones. I am allergic to 1 of the 5 pain medication families. I went in for emergency treatment due to being on pain medication so that when I had to pass the stone, pain meds did not work on me. After 19 1/2 hours of pain, I learned a very valuable lesson, do not abuse pain medication if you want it to work when you really need it. SO. Now that we know I have a stone and it is too large to pass on its own. AND it is causing me to have blood in my urine and pain in my side, WHAT are WE going to do about MY problem? Then I am treated to palpitations of my kidneys. Right - can you keep doing that, it feels good. Left - OOOOOOOOOOOOO, still holding my breath, IT REALLY HURTS! Well, you need to have an x-ray done to determine the next course of treatment. Really? YES. Okay.

I go to eat lunch with my mother at IHOP on the way to the hospital to get an x-ray. I need to take a pain pill. I have the cold sweats again. I am in and out of the bathroom for the better part of an hour. Finally we head to the hospital.

I get the x-ray taken at the hospital. They will have the information in a day or two.

February 23, 2010 I am watching the Olympics and enjoying a good book during the commercials covered up on the couch. When out of no where I am in extreme pain. .5 - 1 - 2 - 3 - 4 - 4 - 4... staring to reach toward five. I drink, gulp water at last 8 oz. I try to stretch my body to lay flat. I am having a hard time taking a deep breath due to the pain. I focus on my breathing and slow down and try to relax my muscles. Finally after about 5 minutes the pain went back down to .5. I went back to reading and watching tv. I dozed off for about an hour after the episode of pain and then I put myself to bed with the firm notion I need to talk to a doctor and soon.

February 24, 2010 I am on the phone off an on all day trying to find out what the next course of action is supposed to be. Yes, my symptoms are still the same. Answer more questions. The urologist will review my charts and tell me the next course of action. I wait. Have I mentioned I hate waiting? Strong words, but true. I have to schedule a cystoscopy. I schedule the cystoscopy. I am nervous and constantly reminded by the pain that it is not going to go away on its own.
ladycroft - 03/03/10 10:04
Oy! I really feel for you. They are pretty awful to live with. Sending good vibes your way, get better!
tinypliny - 02/25/10 22:53
:(

I hope you get better soon and the stones NEVER come back. Sending a million wishes and thoughts your way!! Good luck!
jenks - 02/25/10 16:47
why be awake for the cysto?! go ahead and go to sleep! yikes.

Sorry about your ER experience.

And I'm not a urologist, but if I remember right, once stones are really big- they're just too big to pass. And then you just don't worry about them. They're in there, and they're not budging, so you don't have to worry about them. But i'm not sure what the size cutoff is. 6mm is pretty damn big.
jbeatty - 02/25/10 13:34
I agree with (e:jenks) most female patients I have dealt with seem to have a much higher tolerance for pain than some of the men. I love watching big guys wince when they get a little 25g needle stick. I hope you feel better soon.
dimartiste - 02/25/10 08:26
Libertad - I am not sure about the olive oil and lemon juice. I have heard/tried cranberry juice does work to flush the kidney. I have added that to my routine. I will find out if there is a scientific reason why the olive oil and lemon juice might work.

Jenks - Yes, I agree most kidney stones are 10/10. Hell, one of them almost killed me and that day I was screaming 25/10! This stone has pushed up to an 8/10. I am really specific about the pain because of the amount of stones I make. The daily discomfort running from .5 to 3/10, really wears me down. I guess in the range of kidney pain. My co-workers asked me what it feels like and I'm like hummm... well it is a combination between a toothache and a migraine headache in your kidney. Nevermind the side effects that you are having problems with eating and eliminating, usually. Yes, I have had ESWL. I needed five stints to keep my urine flowing due to inflammed and closed tubes during that episode. When I first got diagnosed I wanted to keep them and name them, Fred, Ethyl, Murray... etc. You get the idea. I found keeping my sense of humor saves me more often than not!

I don't always trust the ER. That is where I almost died. It is a strange experience to have almost died in the waiting room of an ER after being sent home from the ER at like 3am. It turns out at the change of shift the doctor on call thought I was faking it and sent me home with a script for pain. I had to wait til someone could pick me up at 6am. I am feverish, puking, trying to eliminate in the ER bathroom, I was three shades of grey and they would not readmitt me. See the 1st doctor wanted to keep me for observation and told my family to take my personal belonging home, including my purse and extra clothes. I was trapped and wanted help. I got it the next day when I visited my PCP who had a urologist for a friend and saved my life. I should have sued! SO I am really vigilant about my stones, but since I am not medically trained I do not always have the right answers. I am also out of kidney stone shape so to say, I used to get at least one every year. It has been 10 years since my last one. I must have done something right?! This one being 6mm has got me seriously concerned. WHEN it moves I could be in serious trouble and be a case for the emergency room, which I am trying to avoid for my sanity and my finances, as well as my health. I am not really interested in another near death experience. This situation reminds of when I was helping some friends move a 6 foot couch in a 5 foot doorway. I told them it is a mathmatical certainty they are not going to get it up the stairs unless they take out a window and haul it up. I am pretty sure that my urethra is not going to take 6mm round diameter smoothly and or not cause an obstruction which sends the pain into astronomical terratories of pain!

Oh, my tantrum came with a quiet certainty that I have a stone and they do not know what to do about it. I keep saying what is the next course of action? I understand the concept of measure twice, cut once. I prefer less invasive procdures. WHEN that pain come hitting the top limits of my sanity I will attempt to rip it out myself and am not looking forward to the immenate pain to come. It does cause one to get religion! I do pray alot. Diety gave me a brain and I am using it to the best of my ability. I also have a big mouth. It is on my mind almost all day, every day. Working with children is a strange blessing, because they want to know the truth (refreshing) and they sincerely love you and do not want you to be hurting. One can find strength in the strangest situations.

Thank you. It helps that someone is sharing the worry. Does that make any sense? I think the worry holds back the fear and that allows me to take the pain head on, maybe thats how I am being brave. I always look at everyone with a queer face when they tell me I am doing good. I think of the movie 28 days: "I do not have the option to take more days than one at a time. What does your neck sign say?"

I know I have had a cysto before, but it is surrounded by pain med and is a bit fuzzy. I am going to be fully alert this time and am not sure I want this experience either, but it is coming. I kind of wish it was like the movies and I could enjoy the picture/procedure!
libertad - 02/24/10 22:50
Ouch! This might be absolutely crazy but I heard that taking a shot of olive oil and a shot of lemon juice can disintegrate a stone. Again, it is probably crazy. Try not to worry too much. So many times these tests are just used as a precautionary measure to rule out possible causes.
jenks - 02/24/10 20:54
That sucks. :( I've never had a stone, but still I know they HUUUUURT!
Have you ever had ESWL?

And finally- just wanted to give you a little shout-out for calling your excruciating pain only a 5. You go. I think stones are one of the few things that are legitimately 10/10 pain. Usually you see the opposite- big baby men calling their hangnail a 12/10. And also props to you for NOT doing this all via the ER- though, again, I think it could have been justified, and I am impressed with your patience. Waiting days for a CT and not having a tantrum?! I wish all patients were like you!

Feel better!!! good luck with the cysto.