i cannot tell you how much i love my little niece, she is a ball of smushy joy and love.

my heart melts every time i see her precious face, and i get really sad just thinking about her because i miss her so much!

the hair bow you see in her hair would actually be one of the hair bows i bought in the baby section at target for myself. i think they are cute for adults as well, but i have given them all to the babes... must get more.

here are some pics from her visit last week..

i think she looks so much like (e:hodown), no? she should just steal her, and i will move to nyc and it can be baby time...

ps. doesn't my momma look good?!?

i am trying to get this job, which would entail moving to nyc for 4 months...

it would be an amazing opportunity, and could possibly lead to bigger things, or just be 1/3 year adventure. i am fine with either.

anyway, im pretty sure most (e:strip)pers can attest to my amazing culinary skills, but i find myself frustrated that i never take photos of anything i do.

anyway, my goal for tomorrow night is heading to the asian market to find ingredients for some asian dishes i can whip up tomorrow night or monday morning to show photo evidence of my skill, lol. maybe i just just make a video and set it to some nice asian tunes????

i am crossing my fingers for the next two weeks, because i want this job!

i like the unknown and i like a challenge...

so there is this candy company sugar factory, and they make the most amazing product... a lollipop with a reusable bedazzled handle and twist off candy tops!



i love lollipops, and these are my lollipop dream come true. i dreamed about them all last night, and i must have some! i am going to give them as gifts too. what could be more amazing than candy as accessory?

they only have one store in vegas and another opening in la soon, so they have to be purchased online, and they are way overpriced at $22, and $70 for a box set of four, but i don't care i must have one.

and on to other topics... why would you call someone to say you are mad at them over something completely lame and irrelevant from over a week ago, and then hang up when the other person says you are being lame? i am done with fussy little drama queens/kings.

i really dislike my job except for today when all of administration was gone and i didn't have to call the sup every time i walked away from the desk. plus i didn't have to complete a million tasks for everyone that likes to give their work to others to finish.

and i want to lollipop.... oh lolli, lolli, lolli...

(e:hodown) wants a couture pop too! i thought she would think i am lame because the whole thing somewhat is, but she likes them. they are a blingee lolli dream come trueeeeee!

i miss my blo peeps. it's hard to find friends that you have fun doing absolutely nothing with, but always seem to have fun.

i love this photo of (e:terry) and i, we both look so cute!!!!




anyway, there will be a very short reunion on his bday i believe! i get into town at 11 or something and leave the next morning for aruba... so it will be no sleep for me! it will be worth it though. ;O)

every single night for the past few weeks, i have really crazy dreams. they are disturbing though because they always involve people in my life; friends and family, and something pretty bad usually happens.

i've never had this problem before...

i want to go back to the days of not remembering dreams, because i keep waking up an thinking about what happened in my sleep, and i never want to tell the person i dreamt about because they have usually suffered some great loss or have died.

my mind is all messed up i suppose.

i went on at least three dates in the last week, and i give up again. dating is not fun and it takes too much time and effort. time that i could better spend reading a book or chillaxing.

aruba is only 6 1/2 weeks away and i have not exercised in two weeks. i desperately need to get back on the ball.