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07/30/2009 20:07 #49419
Thursday at the Square07/30/2009 10:40 #49413
The End is the Beginning is the EndCategory: life
Love is many-splendored, but loss is singular and bleak.
This fleeting world is mine, or feels close enough most days. A sudden absence, death, denial, changes that world and then I stumble. There's that bloody gap again amongst white teeth that tongue can't help but probe. It's too hard to hold on to, and to painful to let go. I find myself living a life that's suddenly unfamiliar, dangerous, alien.
The Buddhist retort to pain and loss is, "what now is lacking?", meant to drive your awareness to the present, to the moment, to your being here and now.
Loss is singular because it comes to all, eventually. It's the invariant mate of existence in this universe. So, I am not gone or destroyed by loss -- not yet. Loss is the relief that shows where presence still is. I live, though feel a stranger to my life today. I can keep moving until the moment that even breath is lacking. Things will be all right, even then; my flickering lamp continues, until then.
Thus shall you think of this fleeting world:
A star at dawn, a bubble in a stream,
A flash of lightning in a summer cloud,
A flickering lamp, a phantom, and a dream.
-- excerpt from the Diamond Sutra
This fleeting world is mine, or feels close enough most days. A sudden absence, death, denial, changes that world and then I stumble. There's that bloody gap again amongst white teeth that tongue can't help but probe. It's too hard to hold on to, and to painful to let go. I find myself living a life that's suddenly unfamiliar, dangerous, alien.
The Buddhist retort to pain and loss is, "what now is lacking?", meant to drive your awareness to the present, to the moment, to your being here and now.
Loss is singular because it comes to all, eventually. It's the invariant mate of existence in this universe. So, I am not gone or destroyed by loss -- not yet. Loss is the relief that shows where presence still is. I live, though feel a stranger to my life today. I can keep moving until the moment that even breath is lacking. Things will be all right, even then; my flickering lamp continues, until then.
tiburon1724 - 08/01/09 22:52
I like the Smashing Pumpkins reference!
I like the Smashing Pumpkins reference!
jim - 07/30/09 11:20
LOL, unfortunately vitamins don't directly help a metaphorically missing tooth.
LOL, unfortunately vitamins don't directly help a metaphorically missing tooth.
tinypliny - 07/30/09 11:19
Gums have amazing healing power. All they need is a boost of Vitamins B and C. And plenty of good food. :)
Gums have amazing healing power. All they need is a boost of Vitamins B and C. And plenty of good food. :)
jim - 07/30/09 10:48
Sorry for the mopey post, but you know, just that kinda week :)
Sorry for the mopey post, but you know, just that kinda week :)
07/27/2009 14:35 #49395
Bad day.A series of mistakes led me to accidentally destroy the partitioning
of my hard drive.
*_*
So I've spent the day reinstalling apps and restoring data from backups.
Thankful for having backups. Aggravated I'm not going to accomplish
anything today.
I also managed to kill half the plants at my cubicle by forgetting to water them Friday.
OK, end of sad story.
^_^
of my hard drive.
*_*
So I've spent the day reinstalling apps and restoring data from backups.
Thankful for having backups. Aggravated I'm not going to accomplish
anything today.
I also managed to kill half the plants at my cubicle by forgetting to water them Friday.
OK, end of sad story.
^_^
07/25/2009 15:57 #49376
Garden Walk?Bring your ark.
heidi - 07/26/09 00:19
It just now started raining @ 12:15 am in Blossburg, PA. It threatened a couple times today, including right before and during Jill's surprise 30th bday party. <phew>
It just now started raining @ 12:15 am in Blossburg, PA. It threatened a couple times today, including right before and during Jill's surprise 30th bday party. <phew>
metalpeter - 07/25/09 17:22
The wind driven rain can get pretty scary.
The wind driven rain can get pretty scary.
jim - 07/25/09 16:29
Whoa, it rained so hard, much worse after I took this pic.
Whoa, it rained so hard, much worse after I took this pic.
07/22/2009 10:27 #49353
Terminal TipsCategory: unix
These are for bash shells, and may be Mac-specific also, and would go in .bash_profile or .bash_login or as marked specifically below:
1. Always open new terminal windows in the location of the last directory that you cd'd to (source: ):
2. Erase duplicate entries from command history (source: ):
3. Allow partial matching of previous history instead of scrolling back through full history (note this one goes in .inputrc, source: ):
4. Add status indicator for local changes to git or svn versioned directories (source: ):
5. Misc aliases.
1. Always open new terminal windows in the location of the last directory that you cd'd to (source: ):
pathed_cd () {
if [ "$1" == "" ]; then
cd
else
cd "$1"
fi
pwd > ~/.cdpath
}
alias cd="pathed_cd"
if [ -f ~/.cdpath ]; then
cd $(cat ~/.cdpath)
fi
2. Erase duplicate entries from command history (source: ):
export HISTCONTROL=erasedups
shopt -s histappend
3. Allow partial matching of previous history instead of scrolling back through full history (note this one goes in .inputrc, source: ):
set bell-style none
- do not make noise
"e[B": history-search-forward
- By default up/down are bound to previous-history
- and next-history respectively. The following does the
- same but gives the extra functionality where if you
- type any text (or more accurately, if there is any text
- between the start of the line and the cursor),
- the subset of the history starting with that text
- is searched (like 4dos for e.g.).
- Note to get rid of a line just Ctrl-C
"e[A": history-search-backward
$if Bash
# F10 toggles mc on and off
# Note Ctrl-o toggles panes on and off in mc
"e[21~": "mcC-M"
#do history expansion when space entered
Space: magic-space
$endif
$include /etc/inputrc
- Include system wide settings which are ignored
- by default if one has their own .inputrc
4. Add status indicator for local changes to git or svn versioned directories (source: ):
parse_git_branch() {
- Prompt setup, with SCM status
local DIRTY STATUS
STATUS=$(git status 2>/dev/null)
[ $? -eq 1 ] || return
[[ "$STATUS" == *'working directory clean'* ]] || DIRTY=' *'
echo "($(git branch 2>/dev/null | sed -e '/^[^*]/d' -e 's/* //')$DIRTY)"
}
parse_svn_revision() {
local DIRTY REV=$(svn info 2>/dev/null | grep Revision | sed -e 's/Revision: //')
[ "$REV" ] || return
[ "$(svn st)" ] && DIRTY=' *'
echo "(r$REV$DIRTY)"
}
PS1='u@h:W$(parse_git_branch)$(parse_svn_revision) $ '
5. Misc aliases.
alias ll="ls -lp"
- various ls aliases
alias la="ls -ap"
alias lla="ls -lap"
alias h="history | grep "
- shorthand to search history, "h blah"
alias o='open .'
- open current directory in finder
alias san='svn status | grep "^?" | awk "{print $2}" | xargs svn add'
- add all new files, which aren't ignored, to svn repo
Who was playing?