i really don't want to come to buffalo. this feeling has been building for a while, and now it's to the point where i just don't feel like going at all.

i feel selfish because i should be excited to see my niece, but i feel like it is weird to be excited to see someone i don't even know.

it's so cold there, and the weather here is amazing. i would honestly like to sit by the pool in my bathing suit and read books and go hiking everyday, that's what i feel like doing.

i just can't bear thought of the cold and the awful lonely way it makes me feel. i need the sun!!!!!

maybe i should just go tanning the next few days so i can get my sun in before i leave...

i should definitely be more excited, especially to see all of my favorite people, so i am going to shut up now and force a smile. :)


there.

every semester i get stuck in a lame group project and to my non-surprise every semester i get stuck in a group that ends up consisting of me... well me doing all of the work because i don't want a bad grade.

and other idiots who mooch and get a good grade for zero work.

great.


this group project my professor specifically stated that we have the right to remove people from our group who don't contribute. so, at least one person is going to booted out by me if i don't get their contribution by 5pm today.

so long sucker, have fun getting zero credit!

so part of my whole point of coming to blo is to be able to go to the st patty's day parade... will i'm an idiot and totally though it would be the weekend after, not before st patty's days, or maybe that all people get a spring break and it would be on st patty's day. but this is not the case.

i called and tried to change my flight today, but there are zero flights that go out on saturday nights....

so, i will not be there for the parade. who is up for creating a parade with me??? i will dress up as a leprechaun and everything....

at least i'll be there for st matty's day, and the actual st patty's day!

ps. bought o cute coat on target.com last night for 12.50.... no more old whitey... i want to burn it.

i think i will just let it happen.... i mean let my blog fall to a lower spot.

if (e:hodown) really wants a top spot, then why not? i can no longer post the sensational blogs of my youth.... no various reasons. but oh well.

it's time to let another blog shine. it's like charity really... when you think of it.

have you ever had that one friend who is a bully but never beats you up?

they are just extremely in control or love being in control and controlling...

sometimes very fun, other times scary and other times you want to punch them in the face, but you can't because they have asserted their power over you.

i have one such friend. i'm scared. the bully is coming for me.....ahhh!!