i am really to put on happy face, but it's hard, because this week has thus far been just full of bad news.

so, i am going to make a list of the good and the bad to put things into perspective. the rest, i will just put my faith into, and really hope that things work out.

good:

• guy i work with is the sweetest man ever and bought me some creamy vanilla starbucks things.

• i have a place to live.

• i have family and friends that love me.

• i have a new baby niece.

• i have a decent car that is almost paid off.

• i have many many cute shoes and clothes and makeup galore.

• i have the sunshine.

• my health.

• i have rockband, which is a major plus.

bad:

• i have no job.

• i hate the recession and the consistent flow of bad news.

• i am canceling my trip to blo until further notice, and i already purchased the ticket.

• i am going to beg my boss to give me more hours.

so, the good outweighs the bad, and i am going to force myself to smile. and also, have some faith.

lately i get set off about most everything.


every small detail must go my way, or else that is it.

i think i do quite a good job at hiding my rage... since i tend to just avid all people when i am like this, because i don't enjoy being so angry all the time.

i don't really think it has to do with anyone but myself, but when i get in these fits of rage... such as the current moment, i really feel like screaming.

anyway, i have found that focusing all of this rage on school and work helps, but as soon as i am not involved with either, and something bothers me i begin to freak out again.

maybe the super bowl makes me really angry???

one thing that does not make me so mad is the fact that i am now getting back all of my hours at work and then some. this is definitely good news because having to search for another job right now would be such a hassle, and also likely to cause another fit of rage.

when i get mad, i try to think of steve carell because i am in love with him forever and always...

i feel that my blog has been lacking lately. yesterday in class, i was inspired to create a new category of journals, "public offenders". this category is dedicated to the topic of people who lack certain social etiquette, and my experiences with these people.

what is a "public offender" you ask, and how can they be spotted? well, it's easy, such a person, or persons you will notice right away, whether it be their clothing, smell, actions, or simply their presence in any social setting. i feel that these people have gotten away with their wrongdoings for too long, and someone needs to bring to light this crisis.

public offender #1: i headed to math class yesterday after, freshly showered and looking quite dapper if a do say so myself. i enter the room a few minutes late, and head to my usual seat. after i had settled in, my noise is quite bothered by an awful smell. now, mind you i am currently sick, and also have many allergies; which means i don't have the best sense of smell. i start to worry maybe it is me, but then i think, no way, and i come to realize it is the person sitting next to me; he smells like a mixture of mcdonald's and cigarettes. i am repulsed. the smell was quite possibly one of the worst i have experienced. i tried to move away, but there was only so far i could go, and i didn't want to switch seats because i always sit there and i am friendly with him and he helps me if i am confused.

after two hours of class, the smell followed me through they day, and i was finally able to rid myself of it around 8pm. now, not all smokers smell that way, but this guy clearly has some issues with his scent. i don't think he will ever have a girlfriend unless she smells the same. i have been around other smokers, and did not experience this awfulness, but it makes me hate cigarette and macdonald's more than ever before.

coming up, public offender #2...shouldn't take long, there are so many people out there waiting to horrify your senses.

last week it was near 80 every day...


this week it's in the 60's.


something is very wrong here. i'm cold.

i suppose anything is better than the frozen tundra ya'll live in!

last week the stars were not pointing in my direction.

this week however, i feel, will shape up to be a good week.

really a great week. and i have a good feeling about the next few weeks as well.

(minus the fact that i have bio lab at 7:30am).