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01/16/2009 11:53 #47423

Wiiiiiiiiiiiii
So (e:fellyconnelly) and I got a Wii. Ralphie hates it. He barks and growls and hides under the couch. I don't get it. He usually doesn't pay too much attention to the TV but even when he does he just tends to cock his head, stare, and lose interest in seconds. But not with the Wii. And it's mostly when the Miis are on the screen. Weird.

I went to the gynecologist today. Don't worry, I won't talk about it. But I did want to mention the little packet I got about Guardisil. This is the HPV vaccine that there are commercials for. But this little packet comes with headphones and an audio player so you can listen to "a girl like you" talk about her experiences. Really? What happened to reading? There is an on/off button, and play/pause button and sound adjustment, and it is all just a little larger than a credit card. A little thicker obviously, but compact nonetheless. Strange indeed.

I also have to take an antibiotic. No Alcohol for like 9 days. Seriously?

Grumble.

I have taken back my not so nice things i said about the job i am now working. I have a lot of respect for people who do this kind of work. I know and love many people who work in this field. I also have a lot of respect for babysitters, although i do not wish to conflate the two.
leetee - 01/17/09 01:25
(e:Janelle) is so right. State work is hard to come by. Often, you have to know someone. Least, that is how it seems to me. I do find it funny, in a sad sorta way, how many overtime calls i get, but yet there is a hiring freeze. Make sense? No.
james - 01/16/09 21:24
The Gynecologist is also a horrible, terrible, totally worth watching so you can tell your friends what a train wreck you just witnessed exploitation movie.
imk2 - 01/16/09 21:08
speaking of the gynecologist...in one of my women's studies classes we had to attend a live gynecological exam. apparently women don't know what their cervix looks like and this was an opportunity to find out. of course you did have the option to opt out if you were really grossed out. but i don't know how they got that approved through UB's planning dept? even it is the women's studies dept, it still seems a little out there. no?
janelle - 01/16/09 12:18
Heritage Centers just this week put a hiring freeze in place because of state budget problems. There's a 2 million dollar budget gap in the state OMRDD budget and of course that impacts us. So the agency probably froze the position that was paying 13.30 and replaced it with the other position that pays 9.30. I'm really sorry you had your time wasted, but I can assure you that they weren't trying to screw you over or play a trick. It's hard times here right now. I would recommend not applying at any DD or MH social service agency at this time. Every agency is in the same boat due to the state budget problems.

Because of state requirements, certain social service positions in the DD field may require a bachelors degree. But the state doesn't provide the agencies with the funds to pay a decent wage to someone with a bachelors degree. Ridiculous, isn't? I get enough pay that I'm comfortable, but I am far from sufficiently compensated given my experience, years as a supervisor and masters degree.

Meanwhile, the state pays their own state OMRDD workers much better than the workers in comparable positions in non-profit agencies and provides the state workers with cost of living adjustments while not passing on any additional funds to non profit agencies so they can give their workers COLAs. It's harder to get the job with the state though. Civil service test, waiting, paperwork.

01/11/2009 15:11 #47368

i suck
so i might have done a search yesterday for "free tetris" leaving our computer with the same or similar virusy thingy that effs up google that we had...oh, a while ago. grumble. we have been running our own anti virus whatever and free online ones, but no luck so far. i am asking for suggestions aka pleading for help.
tinypliny - 01/12/09 10:10
Use firefox (it doesn't guarantee you no viruses but its a start).
tinypliny - 01/12/09 10:09
I haven't had an antivirus software on my comp for years. And yes, I run Win XP Pro.

So, really it all comes to safe browsing habits. I think you can make a fair guess about which sites might be unsafe by looking at the address and the snippet of content that appears on google searches.

paul - 01/11/09 21:18
get rid of windows
lauren - 01/11/09 16:54
ok nevermind. i fixed it...for now ;) no more free tetris for me.

01/10/2009 14:20 #47348

laundry day
i have to do loads of laundry one at a time because, although there are two washers and two dryers in my basement, only one of the dryers sufficiently drys (dries?) clothes. i have three loads today. thats three and a half hours. plus folding. grumble.

felly and i had a loverly post christmas day together. as in, we spent all the gift cards we got for christmas. felly had a 50 for Old Navy, we both got a 30 for Olive Garden from my rents, and I had 70 for Barnes and Noble. we spent a lot of other people's money, and it was awesome.

I bought four books with my 70 schmackers. Four. Well, one of the books has four novels in one, so I guess, if I wanted to get technical about it, I got 7 books. Not bad.

For Pleasure (aka, non-fiction)

Octavia Butler - From Seed to Harvest (Includes Wild Seed, Mind of My Mind, Clay's Ark and Patternmaster)

Octavia Butler - Kindred

For those of you who don't know, Octavia Butler is one of the first Black Female "Science Fiction" writers...although to classify her work as such is a little misleading. She does deal with some out there stuff like vampires, the future, space travel and the like, but its always very socially progressive and fabulously interesting. I heart her like whoa.

For School

Black on White: Black Writers on What It Means to be White - Ed. David Roediger with contributors such as W.E.B. Du Bois, bell hooks, Zora Neale Hurston, Amiri Baraka, Langston Hughes, Toni Morrison, Ralph Ellison, James Baldwin, Alice Walker and a lot of other authors you should read.

The Michael Eric Dyson Reader by. (you guessed it) Michael Eric Dyson.
this book includes sections such as Theories of Race, Affirmative Action, Whiteness Studies, Afro-Baptist Radicalism and Rhetoric, Religion and Sexuality, Biocriticism and Black Icons, The Soul Musics of Black Folk, and Hip-Hop Culture, to name a few. It's a big book. I have never read or even heard of this guy before, but I have a strong appreciation for people who are both deeply intellectually theoretical and up to date on current cultural phenomena and are able to connect and intertwine them. I think this guy is one of those people.

I like books. A lot.

Oh and I have an interview on Wednesday. Word.
lauren - 01/11/09 16:56
i like bring (slightly) annoyed while reading...keeps me on my toes. i will certainly try to write about it when i do start, although i did decide to pick up the other book today and started that...although that too is a collection of essays and easier to skip around from that to another.
drew - 01/11/09 15:20
My guess is that he will annoy you some, but I know you will enjoy reading him. If you post what you are reading, I will do my best to read along and share my thoughts.

Have you heard his story about his PhD. Thesis defense? legendary.
lauren - 01/11/09 15:08
mish mish...and by non fiction i obviously mean fiction. in my head i always think non fiction equals not true. i have always had this problem.

and thanks drew, i appreciate the offer but i need to own my books :) although i am glad that you like it...its good to have someone's opinion other than the ones they put on the back.
theecarey - 01/11/09 00:36
made me grin-"bury me with my books"

that's more like it! ha

drew - 01/10/09 20:31
If you want to return your Dyson reader, I already have it. I am a big fan.
lauren - 01/10/09 17:39
I would suggest that economically speaking, Seed to Harvest is your best bet. It was 18.99 I think and Kindred is the type of book that you can get for like $1.00 on a used book website or at a used book store cause there are sooo many of them in print.

and yes, a more accurate statement would be, "my books are my best friends" or "bury me with my books", I am doing my thesis on black women's literature, so needless to say those are my fave. I think the Dyson book will be fabulous, but certainly will write about when I have put a dent in it :)
theecarey - 01/10/09 16:01
What does Butler's multi piece go for at B&N? I've been wanting to read, Kindred, so I'd rather buy Seed to Harvest to make sure I have her in my collection.

I'm betting that, "I like books. A lot", is an understatement, yes? :) I'm a fan of Kate Chopin, Tillie Olsen, Toni Morrison (currently reading, The Bluest Eye), Naomi Wolf (currently finishing, Misconceptions), and oh so many others. You have piqued my interest with, "The Michael Eric Dyson Reader". I'm often delightfully scouring bookstores aimlessly, so there will added pleasure in knowing what I will buy next.

Thanks!

01/07/2009 19:08 #47323

hahaha
thanks to (e:janelle) for the chips and dip AND for sending me to the FAIL website. I found this gem there


drew - 01/07/09 23:30
fail blog was me. Janelle isn't so profane, she just didn't sign out.

01/07/2009 10:32 #47317

breathe in breathe out
i heard Gavin Rossdale's new music sometime recently and I was thoroughly disappointed. Bush used to be sooo cool and now he is playing generic poprocks music that is indistinguishable from the rest of the nonsense out there.

Felly had a theory. That once Gavin and Gwen got married they both started to suck. Gwen was also once so very very cool. Remember when No Doubt came onto the scene and there was Gwen with her combat boots and wife beaters (waaaay before Avril Lavigne)? I mean, Gwen sang with Sublime. Now that's punk rock. And now? Harajuku girls or whatever the hell they are and...hmmm...when was the last time we heard from her?

Now don't get me wrong. I like pop music...usually. I recognize it for what it is however, namely that you take these songs and listen to them somewhat consistently for a short period of time until you get to the point where you might have to kill someone if you hear them humming it one more time. Then, you wait. Wait and wait and wait, until you haven't heard the song in, say, two years, and then you listen with fresh ears. If you still like the pop song from back when, its a keeper. I love shitty music from days of yore. I think it speaks volumes about a moment in time. I don't care if people call it fluff or fabricated or whatever. Perhaps that what it is meant to say. At this moment in time the majority of American youth are listening to fabricated cotton candy music. What does that tell you? Think about it.

I will admit though, it seams we are at a loss for the greats these days. Where are our Sublimes? Our Pink Floyds and Led Zeppelins. Nirvana? Operation Ivy? When was the last time someone put out an album that you could listen to alllllll the way through? I am trying to think...there is Radiohead. Weezer. Oasis maybe? I am (perhaps unfairly) talking about hit toppers here. Oh, maybe I got it. People don't buy actual albums anymore, they just download singles on iTunes, watch videos on youtube (cause MTV is gone) and probably only listen to the first minute of the song anyway cause they are all hopped up on prescription drugs and soda pop and Britney Spears.

I am reading a book...one of those whoa is me I am a feminist who is addicted to man sex book. But she (the author, the main character, whoeveR) made a point that I thought was so true. We have it alllll backwards these days. We are more and more isolated from human beings and more and more connected to everything else we don't really need. Connected to the internet, to television, to clothes and shoes and furniture and Britney Spears. Consume consume consume. Feed me. Cause I am starving. But the problem is that what we are eating is...cotton candy. Fluffernutter. Britney Spears. Not our lovers, our friends our family, humanity. So we continue to eat, cause we are still starving. And perhaps whats more, is that such a statement is cliche. I can't even type it without feeling a little silly cause, well, duh, everyone already knows this, but yet, still, here we are.

Anyone scene Wall-E?? Sometimes when I think about the future, thats what I think about. Millions of human beings floating around with television/computer/phones/ipods (all in one of course) implanted into their little mindless brains. Worthless. Scary. Terrifying.
metalpeter - 01/07/09 20:03
First of all the thing you Have to remember is Gavin went Solo so it isn't the same Music as Bush would be, the same thing with Gwen or music isn't at all Like No Doubt was. That being Said I thought I heard No Doubt was getting back together and making a New Album (not sure when). I listen to all kinds of stuff and not sure what music you like but I'm sure there are some band CDs that are pretty good like:

Metallica - Death Magnetic
AC/DC - Black Ice
any CD by Coldplay
Guns N' Roses - Chinese Democrocy

I have a Christina Agularia double CD that is pretty good and she has a new one out don't know how it is though. I can't really recomend bands really with out knowing what you like. Some mentioned that the genres are kinda getting mixed now and that is true. One of the reasons for that is that people who produce and arange albums work for both rock groups and country groups now so the sounds get mixed The most recent Def Leopard Album is a good example of that.
drew - 01/07/09 13:01
Oh, and for the record, I never liked Bush, even if I did learn how to play "Glycerine." I love No Doubt's stuff, and agree that Gwen has fallen off.

In general, I think anybody named Gavin is a tool. Sure, its' a prejudice, but I haven't been proved wrong yet.

theecarey - 01/07/09 12:36
I sometimes wonder if I would be more social or less social if the internet wasn't so readily available; and would the depth of connection be any different?

Using technologies, I talk to people and learn about things I likely wouldn't have otherwise. But I am also less prone now to actually venture out to do those things as well (ie; meet new people). Cause or effect? hmmmm

Would I feel like Kate, in Wall-e, who once her monitor viewing was distracted, she realized that there was a lot in front of her that she hadn't seen or experienced before?
I'm confident that many of us have IM'd/texted someone who was in the near vicinity (or next to you on the couch!) (*raises hand*) instead of taking a moment to verbalize, interact. Or who among us feel like a major body part was amputated if we lost/broke our laptop/iPod/multi functional 'cellphone'/television and so on? (me, again). Just things to think about..

A quick note about music- the genres have been melting together. Everyone remembers the original sound of "alternative", and how ironically that is a main stream classification and loosely at that. An artist that is classified as "country" is often played on "pop" stations because their sound has crossed over (or double-dipping) and so on. I can't say what kind of music I like and have it mean something concrete now. Radio is rarely on but when it is, my thoughts are in wonder about the changes/perceptions of music over time.
johnallen - 01/07/09 12:01
I had posted the same thing about a month ago. BUSH rocked. COmedown, Glycerine, etc, great music, it was awesome.

NObody writes their own shit anymore, who stars with some buds in a garage and hits the underground sceen and goes big? - No-one. You have American Idol making a joke out a good music - all it is a sing-along, and then people think that these "stars" are real musicans, the whole thing sucks and I can't stand the show.

Pink Floyd is my fovirite, U2 is the next, that's music to me. There is a reason Dark Side stayed on Billboard for YEARS, because it rocked.

Gavin and Gwen can eat it both. THis shit is bananas................
james - 01/07/09 11:40
Eh, I feel like the internet makes me more connected to other people. That connection might not be as intimate but I am exposed to so many more people than I would be otherwise. I have internet friends in India, the Philippines, England, Ireland, Slovenia. Unless I am some blue blood trust fund kid, there is no way I would be able to talk to so many different people.

But don't sweat the pop. There are some wonderful bits of music in there. Music is like food. You can't eat at Rue Franklin every night.
jim - 01/07/09 11:24
To totally derail these comments, my full name is an anagram for:

Loins Learnedly Jammed

and also

Meddlesome Ninja Rally

drew - 01/07/09 11:16
Did you know that Britany Spears is an anagram for Presbyterian? Wierd, huh?

This week, I have definitely been guilty of the wrong priorities that you have been talking about. I am exhausting myself on things that aren't worth exhaustion.

This afternoon, I am going to turn off my phone and my computers so I can spend some time reading and praying. Friday night is date night with my dear wife.

I'm kinda weird in that it hall hits me at once. I go go go and am ok with it until a certain point and then it all catches up to me at once.

Anyway, your post is timely.

As for music--I used to be "that guy" that knew every band and the right bands and the right songs from each band. I stayed way ahead of the curve.

Then I started liking pop music, and lost a whole lot of cred. Then the internet happened and I stopped keeping up with all that's out there.

Now I buy new albums from u2 and Derek Webb, and get Kasey Chambers through my wife and that's it. I go back and listen to old stuff now and them, but really I spend so much less time enjoying music than I once did. I am a talk radio addict now, which probably is bad for my soul, even if it is highly entertaining.